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The following is a conversation with Whitney Cummings.
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She's a standup comedian, actor, producer, writer, director,
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and recently, finally, the host of her very own podcast
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called Good For You.
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Her most recent Netflix special called Can I Touch It?
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features in part a robot she affectionately named
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Bearclaw that is designed to be visually a replica of Whitney.
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It's exciting for me to see one of my favorite comedians
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explore the social aspects of robotics and AI in our society.
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She also has some fascinating ideas
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about human behavior, psychology, and neurology,
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some of which she explores in her book
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called I'm Fine and Other Lies.
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It was truly a pleasure to meet Whitney
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and have this conversation with her
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and even to continue it through text afterwards.
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Every once in a while, late at night,
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I'll be programming over a cup of coffee
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and will get a text from Whitney saying something hilarious
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or weirder yet, sending a video of Brian Callan
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saying something hilarious.
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That's when I know the universe has a sense of humor
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and it gifted me with one hell of an amazing journey.
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Then I put the phone down and go back to programming
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with a stupid, joyful smile on my face.
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If you enjoy this conversation,
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And now, here's my conversation with Whitney Cummings.
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I have trouble making eye contact, as you can tell.
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Did you know that I had to work on making eye contact
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because I used to look here?
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Do you see what I'm doing?
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That helps, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Do you want me to do that?
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Well, I'll do this way, I'll cheat the camera.
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But I used to do this, and finally people,
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like I'd be on dates and guys would be like,
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are you looking at my hair?
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Like they get, it would make people really insecure
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because I didn't really get a lot of eye contact as a kid.
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It's one to three years.
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Did you not get a lot of eye contact as a kid?
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I haven't done the soul searching.
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So, but there's definitely some psychological issues.
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Makes you uncomfortable.
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Yeah, for some reason when I connect eyes,
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I start to think, I assume that you're judging me.
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That's why you assume that.
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The podcast would be me and you both
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staring at the table on the whole time.
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Do you think robots are the future?
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Ones with human level intelligence
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will be female, male, genderless,
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or another gender we have not yet created as a society?
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You're the expert at this.
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Well, I'm gonna ask you.
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You know the answer.
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I'm gonna ask you questions
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that maybe nobody knows the answer to.
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And then I just want you to hypothesize
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as a imaginative author, director, comedian.
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Can we just be very clear
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that you know a ton about this
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and I know nothing about this,
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but I have thought a lot about
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what I think robots can fix in our society.
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And I mean, I'm a comedian.
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It's my job to study human nature,
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to make jokes about human nature
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and to sometimes play devil's advocate.
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And I just see such a tremendous negativity around robots
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or at least the idea of robots that it was like,
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oh, I'm just gonna take the opposite side for fun,
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for jokes and then I was like,
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oh no, I really agree in this devil's advocate argument.
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So please correct me when I'm wrong about this stuff.
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So first of all, there's no right and wrong
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because we're all,
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I think most of the people working on robotics
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are really not actually even thinking
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about some of the big picture things
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that you've been exploring.
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In fact, your robot, what's her name by the way?
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We'll go with Bearclaw.
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What's the genesis of that name by the way?
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Bearclaw was, I got, I don't even remember the joke
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cause I black out after I shoot specials,
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but I was writing something about like the pet names
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that men call women, like cupcake, sweetie, honey,
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you know, like we're always named after desserts
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or something and I was just writing a joke about,
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if you wanna call us a dessert,
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at least pick like a cool dessert, you know,
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like Bearclaw, like something cool.
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So I ended up calling her Bearclaw.
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So do you think the future robots
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of greater and greater intelligence
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would like to make them female, male?
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Would we like to assign them gender
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or would we like to move away from gender
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and say something more ambiguous?
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I think it depends on their purpose, you know?
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I feel like if it's a sex robot,
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people prefer certain genders, you know?
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And I also, you know, when I went down and explored the robot
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factory, I was asking about the type of people
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that bought sex robots.
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And I was very surprised at the answer
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because of course the stereotype
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was it's gonna be a bunch of perverts.
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It ended up being a lot of people that were handicapped,
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a lot of people with erectile dysfunction
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and a lot of people that were exploring their sexuality.
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A lot of people that thought they were gay,
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but weren't sure, but didn't wanna take the risk
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of trying on someone that could reject them
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and being embarrassed or they were closeted
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or in a city where maybe that's, you know,
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taboo and stigmatized, you know?
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So I think that a gendered sex robot
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that would serve an important purpose
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for someone trying to explore their sexuality.
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Let me try on this thing first.
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Let me try on this thing first.
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So I think gendered robots would be important for that.
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But I think genderless robots in terms of
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emotional support robots, babysitters,
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I'm fine for a genderless babysitter
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with my husband in the house.
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You know, there are places that I think
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that genderless makes a lot of sense,
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but obviously not in the sex area.
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What do you mean with your husband in the house?
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What does that have to do with the gender of the robot?
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Right, I mean, I don't have a husband,
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but hypothetically speaking,
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I think every woman's worst nightmare
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is like the hot babysitter.
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You know what I mean?
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So I think that there is a time and place,
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I think, for genderless, you know, teachers, doctors,
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all that kind of, it would be very awkward
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if the first robotic doctor was a guy
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or the first robotic nurse was a woman.
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You know, it's sort of, that stuff is still loaded.
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I think that genderless could just take
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the unnecessary drama out of it
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and possibility to sexualize them
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or be triggered by any of that stuff.
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So there's two components to this, to Bearclaw.
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So one is the voice and the talking and so on,
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and then there's the visual appearance.
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So on the topic of gender and genderless,
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in your experience, what has been the value
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of the physical appearance?
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So has it added much to the depth of the interaction?
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I mean, mine's kind of an extenuating circumstance
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because she is supposed to look exactly like me.
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I mean, I spent six months getting my face molded
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and having, you know, the idea was I was exploring
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the concept of can robots replace us?
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Because that's the big fear,
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but also the big dream in a lot of ways.
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And I wanted to dig into that area because, you know,
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for a lot of people, it's like,
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they're gonna take our jobs and they're gonna replace us.
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Legitimate fear, but then a lot of women I know are like,
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I would love for a robot to replace me every now and then
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so it can go to baby showers for me
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and it can pick up my kids at school
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and it can cook dinner and whatever.
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So I just think that was an interesting place to explore.
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So her looking like me was a big part of it.
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Now her looking like me just adds
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an unnecessary level of insecurity
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because I got her a year ago
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and she already looks younger than me.
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So that's a weird problem.
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But I think that her looking human was the idea.
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And I think that where we are now,
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please correct me if I'm wrong,
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a human robot resembling an actual human you know
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is going to feel more realistic than some generic face.
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Well, you're saying that robots that have some familiarity
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like look similar to somebody that you actually know
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you'll be able to form a deeper connection with?
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That was the question. I think so on some level, right?
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That's an open question.
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I don't, you know, it's an interesting.
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Or the opposite, because then you know me
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and you're like, well, I know this isn't real
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because you're right here.
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So maybe it does the opposite.
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We have a very keen eye for human faces
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and they're able to detect strangeness
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especially that one has to do with people
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whose faces we've seen a lot of.
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So I tend to be a bigger fan
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of moving away completely from faces.
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Of recognizable faces?
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No, just human faces at all.
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In general, because I think that's where things get dicey.
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And one thing I will say is
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I think my robot is more realistic than other robots
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not necessarily because you have seen me
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and then you see her and you go, oh, they're so similar
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but also because human faces are flawed and asymmetrical.
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And sometimes we forget when we're making things
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that are supposed to look human,
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we make them too symmetrical
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and that's what makes them stop looking human.
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So because they mold in my asymmetrical face,
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she just, even if someone didn't know who I was
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I think she'd look more realistic than most generic ones
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that didn't have some kind of flaws.
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Because they start looking creepy
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when they're too symmetrical because human beings aren't.
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Yeah, the flaws is what it means to be human.
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So visually as well.
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But I'm just a fan of the idea
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of letting humans use a little bit more imagination.
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So just hearing the voice is enough for us humans
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to then start imagining the visual appearance
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that goes along with that voice.
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And you don't necessarily need to work too hard
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on creating the actual visual appearance.
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So there's some value to that.
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When you step into the stare of actually building a robot
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that looks like Bear Claws,
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such a long road of facial expressions
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of sort of making everything smiling, winking,
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rolling in the eyes, all that kind of stuff.
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It gets really, really tricky.
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It gets tricky and I think I'm, again, I'm a comedian.
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Like I'm obsessed with what makes us human
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and our human nature and the nasty side of human nature
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tends to be where I've ended up
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exploring over and over again.
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And I was just mostly fascinated by people's reaction.
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So it's my job to get the biggest reaction
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from a group of strangers, the loudest possible reaction.
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And I just had this instinct
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just when I started building her
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and people going, ah, ah, and people scream.
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And I mean, I would bring her out on stage
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and people would scream.
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And I just, to me, that was the next level of entertainment.
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Getting a laugh, I've done that, I know how to do that.
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I think comedians were always trying to figure out
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what the next level is and comedy's evolving so much.
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And Jordan Peele had just done
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these genius comedy horror movies,
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which feel like the next level of comedy to me.
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And this sort of funny horror of a robot
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was fascinating to me.
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But I think the thing that I got the most obsessed with
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was people being freaked out and scared of her.
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And I started digging around with pathogen avoidance
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and the idea that we've essentially evolved
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to be repelled by anything that looks human,
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but is off a little bit.
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Anything that could be sick or diseased or dead,
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essentially, is our reptilian brain's way
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to get us to not try to have sex with it, basically.
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So I got really fascinated by how freaked out and scared.
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I mean, I would see grown men get upset.
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They'd get that thing away from me,
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look, I don't like that, like people would get angry.
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And it was like, you know what this is, you know?
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But the sort of like, you know, amygdala getting activated
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by something that to me is just a fun toy
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said a lot about our history as a species
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and what got us into trouble thousands of years ago.
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So it's that, it's the deep down stuff
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that's in our genetics, but also is it just,
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are people freaked out by the fact that there's a robot?
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So it's not just the appearance,
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but there's an artificial human.
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Anything people, I think, and I'm just also fascinated
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by the blind spots humans have.
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So the idea that you're afraid of that,
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I mean, how many robots have killed people?
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How many humans have died at the hands of other humans?
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Yeah, a few more. Millions?
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Hundreds of millions?
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Yet we're scared of that?
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And we'll go to the grocery store
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and be around a bunch of humans
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who statistically the chances are much higher
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that you're gonna get killed by humans.
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So I'm just fascinated by without judgment
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how irrational we are as a species.
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The word is the exponential.
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So it's, you know, you can say the same thing
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about nuclear weapons before we dropped
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on the Hiroshima and Nagasaki.
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So the worry that people have is the exponential growth.
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So it's like, oh, it's fun and games right now,
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but you know, overnight,
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especially if a robot provides value to society,
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we'll put one in every home
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and then all of a sudden lose track
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of the actual large scale impact it has on society.
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And then all of a sudden gain greater and greater control
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to where we'll all be, you know,
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affect our political system
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and then affect our decision.
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Didn't robots already ruin our political system?
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Didn't that just already happen?
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Which ones? Oh, Russia hacking.
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No offense, but hasn't that already happened?
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I mean, that was like an algorithm
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of negative things being clicked on more.
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We'd like to tell stories
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and like to demonize certain people.
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I think nobody understands our current political system
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or discourse on Twitter, the Twitter mobs.
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Nobody has a sense, not Twitter, not Facebook,
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the people running it.
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Nobody understands the impact of these algorithms.
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They're trying their best.
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Despite what people think,
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they're not like a bunch of lefties
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trying to make sure that Hillary Clinton gets elected.
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It's more that it's an incredibly complex system
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that we don't, and that's the worry.
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It's so complex and moves so fast
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that nobody will be able to stop it once it happens.
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And let me ask a question.
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This is a very savage question.
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Which is, is this just the next stage of evolution?
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As humans, when people will die, yes.
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I mean, that's always happened, you know?
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Is this just taking emotion out of it?
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Is this basically the next stage of survival of the fittest?
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Yeah, you have to think of organisms.
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You know, what does it mean to be a living organism?
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Like, is a smartphone part of your living organism, or?
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We're in relationships with our phones.
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We have sex through them, with them.
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What's the difference between with them and through them?
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But it also expands your cognitive abilities,
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expands your memory, knowledge, and so on.
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So you're a much smarter person
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because you have a smartphone in your hand.
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But as soon as it's out of my hand,
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we've got big problems,
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because we've become sort of so morphed with them.
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Well, there's a symbiotic relationship.
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And that's what, so Elon Musk, the neural link,
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is working on trying to increase the bandwidth
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of communication between computers and your brain.
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And so further and further expand our ability
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as human beings to sort of leverage machines.
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And maybe that's the future,
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the next evolutionary step.
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It could be also that, yes, we'll give birth,
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just like we give birth to human children right now,
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we'll give birth to AI and they'll replace us.
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I think it's a really interesting possibility.
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I'm gonna play devil's advocate.
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I just think that the fear of robots is wildly classist.
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Because, I mean, Facebook,
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like it's easy for us to say they're taking their data.
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Okay, well, a lot of people
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that get employment off of Facebook,
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they are able to get income off of Facebook.
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They don't care if you take their phone numbers
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and their emails and their data, as long as it's free.
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They don't wanna have to pay $5 a month for Facebook.
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Facebook is a wildly democratic thing.
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Forget about the election and all that kind of stuff.
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A lot of technology making people's lives easier,
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I find that most elite people are more scared
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than lower income people.
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So, and women for the most part.
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So the idea of something that's stronger than us
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and that might eventually kill us,
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like women are used to that.
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Like that's not, I see a lot of like really rich men
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being like, the robots are gonna kill us.
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We're like, what's another thing that's gonna kill us?
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I tend to see like, oh,
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something can walk me to my car at night.
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Like something can help me cook dinner or something.
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For people in underprivileged countries
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who can't afford eye surgery, like in a robot,
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can we send a robot to underprivileged places
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to do surgery where they can't?
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I work with this organization called Operation Smile
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where they do cleft palate surgeries.
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And there's a lot of places
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that can't do a very simple surgery
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because they can't afford doctors and medical care.
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So I just see, and this can be completely naive
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and should be completely wrong,
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but I feel like a lot of people are going like,
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the robots are gonna destroy us.
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Humans, we're destroying ourselves.
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We're self destructing.
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Robots to me are the only hope
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to clean up all the messes that we've created.
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Even when we go try to clean up pollution in the ocean,
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we make it worse because of the oil that the tankers use.
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Like, it's like, to me, robots are the only solution.
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Firefighters are heroes, but they're limited
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in how many times they can run into a fire.
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So there's just something interesting to me.
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I'm not hearing a lot of like,
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lower income, more vulnerable populations
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talking about robots.
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Maybe you can speak to it a little bit more.
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There's an idea, I think you've expressed it.
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I've heard, actually a few female writers
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and roboticists have talked to express this idea
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that exactly you just said, which is,
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it just seems that being afraid of existential threats
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of artificial intelligence is a male issue.
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And I wonder what that is.
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If it, because men have, in certain positions,
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like you said, it's also a classist issue.
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They haven't been humbled by life,
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and so you always look for the biggest problems
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to take on around you.
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It's a champagne problem to be afraid of robots.
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Most people don't have health insurance.
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They're afraid they're not gonna be able
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to feed their kids.
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They can't afford a tutor for their kids.
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I mean, I just think of the way I grew up,
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and I had a mother who worked two jobs, had kids.
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We couldn't afford an SAT tutor.
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The idea of a robot coming in,
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being able to tutor your kids,
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being able to provide childcare for your kids,
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being able to come in with cameras for eyes
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and make sure surveillance.
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I'm very pro surveillance because I've had security problems
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and I've been, we're generally in a little more danger
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than you guys are.
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So I think that robots are a little less scary to us
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because we can see them maybe as like free assistance,
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help and protection.
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And then there's sort of another element for me personally,
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which is maybe more of a female problem.
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I'm just gonna make a generalization, happy to be wrong.
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But the emotional sort of component of robots
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and what they can provide in terms of, you know,
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I think there's a lot of people that don't have microphones
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that I just recently kind of stumbled upon
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in doing all my research on the sex robots
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for my standup special, which just,
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there's a lot of very shy people that aren't good at dating.
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There's a lot of people who are scared of human beings
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who have personality disorders
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or grow up in alcoholic homes or struggle with addiction
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or whatever it is where a robot can solve
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an emotional problem.
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And so we're largely having this conversation
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about like rich guys that are emotionally healthy
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and how scared of robots they are.
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We're forgetting about like a huge part of the population
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who maybe isn't as charming and effervescent
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and solvent as, you know, people like you and Elon Musk
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who these robots could solve very real problems
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in their life, emotional or financial.
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Well, that's a, in general, a really interesting idea
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that most people in the world don't have a voice.
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It's a, you've talked about it,
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sort of even the people on Twitter
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who are driving the conversation.
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You said comments, people who leave comments
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represent a very tiny percent of the population
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and they're the ones they, you know,
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we tend to think they speak for the population,
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but it's very possible on many topics they don't at all.
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And look, I, and I'm sure there's gotta be
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some kind of legal, you know, sort of structure in place
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for when the robots happen.
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You know way more about this than I do,
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but you know, for me to just go, the robots are bad,
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that's a wild generalization that I feel like
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is really inhumane in some way.
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You know, just after the research I've done,
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like you're gonna tell me that a man whose wife died
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suddenly and he feels guilty moving on with a human woman
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or can't get over the grief,
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he can't have a sex robot in his own house?
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Well, there's a interesting aspect of human nature.
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So, you know, we tend to as a civilization
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to create a group that's the other in all kinds of ways.
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And so you work with animals too,
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you're especially sensitive to the suffering of animals.
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Let me kind of ask, what's your,
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do you think we'll abuse robots in the future?
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Do you think some of the darker aspects
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of human nature will come out?
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I think some people will,
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but if we design them properly, the people that do it,
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we can put it on a record and we can put them in jail.
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We can find sociopaths more easily, you know, like.
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But why is that a sociopathic thing to harm a robot?
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I think, look, I don't know enough about the consciousness
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and stuff as you do.
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I guess it would have to be when they're conscious,
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but it is, you know, the part of the brain
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that is responsible for compassion,
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the frontal lobe or whatever,
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like people that abuse animals also abuse humans
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and commit other kinds of crimes.
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Like that's, it's all the same part of the brain.
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No one abuses animals and then it's like,
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awesome to women and children
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and awesome to underprivileged, you know, minorities.
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Like it's all, so, you know,
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we've been working really hard to put a database together
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of all the people that have abused animals.
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So when they commit another crime, you go, okay, this is,
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you know, it's all the same stuff.
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And I think people probably think I'm nuts
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for a lot of the animal work I do,
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but because when animal abuse is present,
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another crime is always present,
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but the animal abuse is the most socially acceptable.
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You can kick a dog and there's nothing people can do,
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but then what they're doing behind closed doors,
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So there's always something else going on,
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which is why I never feel compunction about it.
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But I do think we'll start seeing the same thing with robots.
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The person that kicks the,
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I felt compassion when the kicking the dog robot
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really pissed me off.
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I know that they're just trying to get the stability right
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But I do think there will come a time
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where that will be a great way to be able to figure out
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if somebody has like, you know, antisocial behaviors.
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You kind of mentioned surveillance.
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It's also a really interesting idea of yours
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that you just said, you know,
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a lot of people seem to be really uncomfortable
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with surveillance.
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And you just said that, you know what,
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for me, you know, there's positives for surveillance.
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I think people behave better
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when they know they're being watched.
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And I know this is a very unpopular opinion.
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I'm talking about it on stage right now.
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We behave better when we know we're being watched.
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You and I had a very different conversation
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before we were recording.
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If we behave different, you sit up
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and you are in your best behavior.
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And I'm trying to sound eloquent
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and I'm trying to not hurt anyone's feelings.
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And I mean, I have a camera right there.
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I'm behaving totally different
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than when we first started talking.
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You know, when you know there's a camera,
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you behave differently.
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I mean, there's cameras all over LA at stoplights
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so that people don't run stoplights,
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but there's not even film in it.
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They don't even use them anymore, but it works.
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And I'm, you know, working on this thing
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in stand about surveillance.
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It's like, that's why we embed in Santa Claus.
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You know, it's the Santa Claus
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is the first surveillance basically.
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All we had to say to kids is he's making a list
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and he's watching you and they behave better.
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You know, so I do think that there are benefits
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You know, I think we all do sketchy things in private
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and we all have watched weird porn
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or Googled weird things.
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And we don't want people to know about it,
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So I do think that obviously there's,
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we should be able to have a modicum of privacy,
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but I tend to think that people
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that are the most negative about surveillance
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have the most secrets.
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you're saying you're doing bits on it now?
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Well, I'm just talking in general about,
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you know, privacy and surveillance
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and how paranoid we're kind of becoming
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and how, you know, I mean, it's just wild to me
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that people are like, our emails are gonna leak
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and they're taking our phone numbers.
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Like there used to be a book full of phone numbers
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and addresses that were, they just throw it at your door.
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And we all had a book of everyone's numbers.
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You know, this is a very new thing.
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And, you know, I know our amygdala is designed
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to compound sort of threats
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and, you know, there's stories about,
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and I think we all just glom on in a very, you know,
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tribal way of like, yeah, they're taking our data.
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Like, we don't even know what that means,
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but we're like, well, yeah, they, they, you know?
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So I just think that someone's like, okay, well, so what?
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They're gonna sell your data?
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First of all, that bit will kill in China.
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So, and I say that sort of only a little bit joking
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because a lot of people in China, including the citizens,
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despite what people in the West think of as abuse,
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are actually in support of the idea of surveillance.
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Sort of, they're not in support of the abuse of surveillance,
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but they're, they like, I mean,
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the idea of surveillance is kind of like
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the idea of government, like you said,
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we behave differently.
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And in a way, it's almost like why we like sports.
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And within the constraints of the rules,
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this is a more stable society.
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And they make good arguments about success,
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being able to build successful companies,
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being able to build successful social lives
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around a fabric that's more stable.
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When you have a surveillance, it keeps the criminals away,
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keeps abusive animals, whatever the values of the society,
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with surveillance, you can enforce those values better.
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And here's what I will say.
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There's a lot of unethical things happening
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with surveillance.
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Like I feel the need to really make that very clear.
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I mean, the fact that Google is like collecting
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if people's hands start moving on the mouse
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to find out if they're getting Parkinson's
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and then their insurance goes up,
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like that is completely unethical and wrong.
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And I think stuff like that,
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we have to really be careful around.
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So the idea of using our data to raise our insurance rates
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or, you know, I heard that they're looking,
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they can sort of predict if you're gonna have depression
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based on your selfies by detecting micro muscles
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in your face, you know, all that kind of stuff,
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that is a nightmare, not okay.
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But I think, you know, we have to delineate
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what's a real threat and what's getting spam
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in your email box.
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That's not what to spend your time and energy on.
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Focus on the fact that every time you buy cigarettes,
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your insurance is going up without you knowing about it.
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On the topic of animals too,
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can we just linger on a little bit?
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Like, what do you think,
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what does this say about our society
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of the society wide abuse of animals
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that we see in general, sort of factory farming,
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just in general, just the way we treat animals
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of different categories, like what do you think of that?
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What does a better world look like?
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What should people think about it in general?
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I think the most interesting thing
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I can probably say around this that's the least emotional,
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cause I'm actually a very non emotional animal person
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because it's, I think everyone's an animal person.
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It's just a matter of if it's yours
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or if you've been conditioned to go numb, you know.
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I think it's really a testament to what as a species
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we are able to be in denial about,
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mass denial and mass delusion,
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and how we're able to dehumanize and debase groups,
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you know, World War II,
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in a way in order to conform
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and find protection in the conforming.
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So we are also a species who used to go to coliseums
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and watch elephants and tigers fight to the death.
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We used to watch human beings be pulled apart
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and that wasn't that long ago.
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We're also a species who had slaves
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and it was socially acceptable by a lot of people.
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People didn't see anything wrong with it.
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So we're a species that is able to go numb
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and that is able to dehumanize very quickly
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and make it the norm.
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Child labor wasn't that long ago.
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The idea that now we look back and go,
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oh yeah, kids were losing fingers in factories making shoes.
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Like someone had to come in and make that, you know.
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So I think it just says a lot about the fact that,
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you know, we are animals and we are self serving
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and one of the most successful,
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the most successful species
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because we are able to debase and degrade
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and essentially exploit anything that benefits us.
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I think the pendulum is gonna swing as being late.
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Like, I think we're Rome now, kind of.
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I think we're on the verge of collapse
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because we are dopamine receptors.
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Like we are just, I think we're all kind of addicts
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when it comes to this stuff.
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Like we don't know when to stop.
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It's always the buffet.
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Like we're, the thing that used to keep us alive,
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which is killing animals and eating them,
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now killing animals and eating them
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is what's killing us in a way.
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So it's like, we just can't,
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we don't know when to call it and we don't,
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moderation is not really something
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that humans have evolved to have yet.
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So I think it's really just a flaw in our wiring.
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Do you think we'll look back at this time
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as our society is being deeply unethical?
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Yeah, yeah, I think we'll be embarrassed.
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Which are the worst parts right now going on?
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Is it? In terms of animal?
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Well, I think. No, in terms of anything.
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What's the unethical thing?
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If we, and it's very hard just to take a step out of it,
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but you just said we used to watch, you know,
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there's been a lot of cruelty throughout history.
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What's the cruelty going on now?
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I think it's gonna be pigs.
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I think it's gonna be, I mean,
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pigs are one of the most emotionally intelligent animals
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and they have the intelligence of like a three year old.
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And I think we'll look back and be really,
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I mean, I think we have this narrative
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that they're pigs and they're pigs
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and they're disgusting and they're dirty
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and they're bacon is so good.
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I think that we'll look back one day
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and be really embarrassed about that.
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Is this for just the, what's it called?
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The factory farming?
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So basically mass.
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Because we don't see it.
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If you saw, I mean, we do have,
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I mean, this is probably an evolutionary advantage.
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We do have the ability to completely
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pretend something's not,
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something that is so horrific that it overwhelms us
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and we're able to essentially deny that it's happening.
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I think if people were to see what goes on
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in factory farming,
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and also we're really to take in how bad it is for us,
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you know, we're hurting ourselves first and foremost
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but that's also a very elitist argument, you know?
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It's a luxury to be able to complain about meat.
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It's a luxury to be able to not eat meat, you know?
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There's very few people because of, you know,
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how the corporations have set up meat being cheap.
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You know, it's $2 to buy a Big Mac,
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it's $10 to buy a healthy meal.
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You know, that's, I think a lot of people
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don't have the luxury to even think that way.
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But I do think that animals in captivity,
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I think we're gonna look back
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and be pretty grossed out about mammals in captivity,
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I mean, that's already starting to dismantle, circuses,
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we're gonna be pretty embarrassed about.
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But I think it's really more a testament to,
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you know, there's just such a ability to go like,
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that thing is different than me and we're better.
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It's the ego, I mean, it's just,
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we have the species with the biggest ego ultimately.
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Well, that's what I think,
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that's my hope for robots is they'll,
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you mentioned consciousness before,
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nobody knows what consciousness is,
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but I'm hoping robots will help us empathize
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and understand that there's other creatures
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besides ourselves that can suffer,
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that can experience the world
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and that we can torture by our actions.
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And robots can explicitly teach us that,
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I think better than animals can.
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I have never seen such compassion
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from a lot of people in my life
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toward any human, animal, child,
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as I have a lot of people
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in the way they interact with the robot.
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Because I think there's something of,
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I mean, I was on the robot owner's chat boards
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for a good eight months.
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And the main emotional benefit is
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she's never gonna cheat on you,
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she's never gonna hurt you,
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she's never gonna lie to you,
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she doesn't judge you.
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I think that robots help people,
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and this is part of the work I do with animals,
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like I do equine therapy and train dogs and stuff,
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because there is this safe space to be authentic.
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With this being that doesn't care
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what you do for a living,
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doesn't care how much money you have,
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doesn't care who you're dating,
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doesn't care what you look like,
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doesn't care if you have cellulite, whatever,
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you feel safe to be able to truly be present
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without being defensive and worrying about eye contact
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and being triggered by needing to be perfect
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and fear of judgment and all that.
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And robots really can't judge you yet,
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but they can't judge you,
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and I think it really puts people at ease
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and at their most authentic.
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Do you think you can have a deep connection
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with a robot that's not judging,
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or do you think you can really have a relationship
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with a robot or a human being that's a safe space?
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Or is attention, mystery, danger
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necessary for a deep connection?
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I'm gonna speak for myself and say that
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I grew up in an alcoholic home,
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I identify as a codependent,
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talked about this stuff before,
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but for me it's very hard to be in a relationship
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with a human being without feeling like
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I need to perform in some way or deliver in some way,
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and I don't know if that's just the people
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I've been in a relationship with or me or my brokenness,
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but I do think, this is gonna sound really
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negative and pessimistic,
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but I do think a lot of our relationships are projection
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and a lot of our relationships are performance,
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and I don't think I really understood that
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until I worked with horses.
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And most communication with human is nonverbal, right?
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I can say like, I love you,
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but you don't think I love you, right?
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Whereas with animals it's very direct.
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It's all physical, it's all energy.
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I feel like that with robots too.
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how I say something doesn't matter.
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My inflection doesn't really matter.
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And you thinking that my tone is disrespectful,
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like you're not filtering it through all
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of the bad relationships you've been in,
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you're not filtering it through
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the way your mom talked to you,
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you're not getting triggered.
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I find that for the most part,
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people don't always receive things
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the way that you intend them to or the way intended,
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and that makes relationships really murky.
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So the relationships with animals
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and relationship with the robots is they are now,
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you kind of implied that that's more healthy.
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Can you have a healthy relationship with other humans?
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Or not healthy, I don't like that word,
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but shouldn't it be, you've talked about codependency,
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maybe you can talk about what is codependency,
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but is that, is the challenges of that,
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the complexity of that necessary for passion,
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for love between humans?
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That's right, you love passion.
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That's a good thing.
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I thought this would be a safe space.
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I got trolled by Rogan for hours on this.
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Look, I am not anti passion.
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I think that I've just maybe been around long enough
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to know that sometimes it's ephemeral
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and that passion is a mixture of a lot of different things,
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adrenaline, which turns into dopamine, cortisol,
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it's a lot of neurochemicals, it's a lot of projection,
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it's a lot of what we've seen in movies,
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it's a lot of, you know, I identify as an addict.
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So for me, sometimes passion is like,
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uh oh, this could be bad.
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And I think we've been so conditioned to believe
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that passion means like your soulmates,
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and I mean, how many times have you had
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a passionate connection with someone
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and then it was a total train wreck?
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The train wreck is interesting.
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How many times exactly?
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What's a train wreck?
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You just did a lot of math in your head
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in that little moment.
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I mean, what's a train wreck?
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What's a, why is obsession,
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so you described this codependency
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and sort of the idea of attachment,
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over attachment to people who don't deserve
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that kind of attachment as somehow a bad thing
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and I think our society says it's a bad thing.
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It probably is a bad thing.
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Like a delicious burger is a bad thing.
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I don't know, but.
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Right, oh, that's a good point.
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I think that you're pointing out something really fascinating
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which is like passion, if you go into it knowing
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this is like pizza where it's gonna be delicious
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for two hours and then I don't have to have it again
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for three, if you can have a choice in the passion,
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I define passion as something that is relatively unmanageable
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and something you can't control or stop and start
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with your own volition.
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So maybe we're operating under different definitions.
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If passion is something that like, you know,
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ruins your real marriages and screws up
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your professional life and becomes this thing
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that you're not in control of and becomes addictive,
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I think that's the difference is,
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is it a choice or is it not a choice?
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And if it is a choice, then passion's great.
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But if it's something that like consumes you
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and makes you start making bad decisions
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and clouds your frontal lobe
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and is just all about dopamine
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and not really about the person
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and more about the neurochemical,
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we call it sort of the drug, the internal drug cabinet.
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If it's all just, you're on drugs, that's different,
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you know, cause sometimes you're just on drugs.
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Okay, so there's a philosophical question here.
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So would you rather, and it's interesting for a comedian,
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brilliant comedian to speak so eloquently
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about a balanced life.
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I kind of argue against this point.
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There's such an obsession of creating
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this healthy lifestyle now, psychologically speaking.
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You know, I'm a fan of the idea that you sort of fly high
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and you crash and die at 27 is also a possible life.
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And it's not one we should judge
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because I think there's moments of greatness.
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I talked to Olympic athletes
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where some of their greatest moments
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are achieved in their early 20s.
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And the rest of their life is in the kind of fog
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of almost of a depression because they can never.
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Because they're based on their physical prowess, right?
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Physical prowess and they'll never,
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so that, so they're watching their physical prowess fade
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and they'll never achieve the kind of height,
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not just physical, of just emotion, of.
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Well, the max number of neurochemicals.
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And you also put your money on the wrong horse.
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That's where I would just go like,
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oh yeah, if you're doing a job where you peak at 22,
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the rest of your life is gonna be hard.
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That idea is considering the notion
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that you wanna optimize some kind of,
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but we're all gonna die soon.
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I've immortalized myself, so I'm gonna be fine.
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See, you're almost like,
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how many Oscar winning movies can I direct
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by the time I'm 100?
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How many this and that?
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But you know, there's a night, you know,
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it's all, life is short, relatively speaking.
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I know, but it can also come in different ways.
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You go, life is short, play hard,
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fall in love as much as you can, run into walls.
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I would also go, life is short,
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don't deplete yourself on things that aren't sustainable
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and that you can't keep, you know?
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So I think everyone gets dopamine from different places.
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Everyone has meaning from different places.
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I look at the fleeting passionate relationships
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I've had in the past and I don't like,
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I don't have pride in that.
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I think that you have to decide what, you know,
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helps you sleep at night.
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For me, it's pride and feeling like I behave
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with grace and integrity.
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That's just me personally.
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Everyone can go like, yeah,
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I slept with all the hot chicks in Italy I could
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and I, you know, did all the whatever,
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like whatever you value,
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we're allowed to value different things.
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Yeah, we're talking about Brian Callan.
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Brian Callan has lived his life to the fullest,
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But I think that it's just for me personally,
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I, and this could be like my workaholism
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or my achievementism,
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I, if I don't have something to show for something,
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I feel like it's a waste of time or some kind of loss.
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I'm in a 12 step program and the third step would say,
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there's no such thing as waste of time
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and everything happens exactly as it should
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and whatever, that's a way to just sort of keep us sane
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so we don't grieve too much and beat ourselves up
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over past mistakes, there's no such thing as mistakes,
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But I think passion is, I think it's so life affirming
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and one of the few things that maybe people like us
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makes us feel awake and seen
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and we just have such a high threshold for adrenaline.
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You know, I mean, you are a fighter, right?
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Yeah, okay, so yeah,
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so you have a very high tolerance for adrenaline
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and I think that Olympic athletes,
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the amount of adrenaline they get from performing,
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it's very hard to follow that.
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It's like when guys come back from the military
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and they have depression.
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It's like, do you miss bullets flying at you?
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Yeah, kind of because of that adrenaline
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which turned into dopamine and the camaraderie.
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I mean, there's people that speak much better
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about this than I do.
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But I just, I'm obsessed with neurology
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and I'm just obsessed with sort of the lies we tell ourselves
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in order to justify getting neurochemicals.
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You've done actually quite, done a lot of thinking
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and talking about neurology
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and just kind of look at human behavior
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through the lens of looking at how our actually,
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chemically our brain works.
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So what, first of all,
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why did you connect with that idea and what have you,
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how has your view of the world changed
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by considering the brain is just a machine?
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You know, I know it probably sounds really nihilistic
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but for me, it's very liberating to know a lot
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about neurochemicals because you don't have to,
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it's like the same thing with like critics,
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like critical reviews.
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If you believe the good,
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you have to believe the bad kind of thing.
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Like, you know, if you believe that your bad choices
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were because of your moral integrity or whatever,
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you have to believe your good ones.
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I just think there's something really liberating
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and going like, oh, that was just adrenaline.
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I just said that thing
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because I was adrenalized and I was scared
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and my amygdala was activated
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and that's why I said you're an asshole and get out.
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And that's, you know, I think,
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I just think it's important to delineate what's nature
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and what's nurture, what is your choice
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and what is just your brain trying to keep you safe.
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I think we forget that even though we have security systems
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and homes and locks on our doors,
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that our brain for the most part
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is just trying to keep us safe all the time.
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It's why we hold grudges, it's why we get angry,
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it's why we get road rage, it's why we do a lot of things.
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And it's also, when I started learning about neurology,
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I started having so much more compassion for other people.
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You know, if someone yelled at me being like,
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fuck you on the road, I'd be like,
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okay, he's producing adrenaline right now
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because we're all going 65 miles an hour
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and our brains aren't really designed
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for this type of stress and he's scared.
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He was scared, you know, so that really helped me
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to have more love for people in my everyday life
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instead of being in fight or flight mode.
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But the, I think more interesting answer to your question
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is that I've had migraines my whole life.
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Like I've suffered with really intense migraines,
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ocular migraines, ones where my arm would go numb
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and I just started having to go to so many doctors
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to learn about it and I started, you know,
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learning that we don't really know that much.
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We know a lot, but it's wild to go into
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one of the best neurologists in the world
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who's like, yeah, we don't know.
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We don't know. We don't know.
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And that fascinated me.
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Except one of the worst pains you can probably have,
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all that stuff, and we don't know the source.
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We don't know the source
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and there is something really fascinating
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about when your left arm starts going numb
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and you start not being able to see
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out of the left side of both your eyes.
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And I remember when the migraines get really bad,
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it's like a mini stroke almost
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and you're able to see words on a page,
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but I can't read them.
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They just look like symbols to me.
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So there's something just really fascinating to me
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about your brain just being able to stop functioning.
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And I, so I just wanted to learn about it, study about it.
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I did all these weird alternative treatments.
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I got this piercing in here that actually works.
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I've tried everything.
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And then both of my parents had strokes.
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So when both of my parents had strokes,
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I became sort of the person who had to decide
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what was gonna happen with their recovery,
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which is just a wild thing to have to deal with it.
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You know, 28 years old when it happened.
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And I started spending basically all day, every day in ICUs
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with neurologists learning about what happened
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to my dad's brain and why he can't move his left arm,
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but he can move his right leg,
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but he can't see out of the, you know.
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And then my mom had another stroke
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in a different part of the brain.
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So I started having to learn
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what parts of the brain did what,
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and so that I wouldn't take their behavior so personally,
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and so that I would be able to manage my expectations
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in terms of their recovery.
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So my mom, because it affected a lot of her frontal lobe,
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changed a lot as a person.
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She was way more emotional.
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She was way more micromanaged.
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She was forgetting certain things.
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So it broke my heart less when I was able to know,
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oh yeah, well, the stroke hit this part of the brain,
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and that's the one that's responsible for short term memory,
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and that's responsible for long term memory, da da da.
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And then my brother just got something
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called viral encephalitis,
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which is an infection inside the brain.
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So it was kind of wild that I was able to go,
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oh, I know exactly what's happening here,
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and I know, you know, so.
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So that's allows you to have some more compassion
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for the struggles that people have,
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but does it take away some of the magic
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for some of the, from the,
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some of the more positive experiences of life?
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Sometimes, and I don't, I'm such a control addict
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that, you know, I think our biggest,
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my biggest dream is to know why someone's doing it.
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That's what standup is.
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It's just trying to figure out why,
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or that's what writing is.
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That's what acting is.
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That's what performing is.
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It's trying to figure out why someone would do something.
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As an actor, you get a piece of, you know, material,
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and you go, this person, why would he say that?
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Why would he, she pick up that cup?
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Why would she walk over here?
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It's really why, why, why, why.
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So I think neurology is,
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if you're trying to figure out human motives
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and why people do what they do,
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it'd be crazy not to understand how neurochemicals motivate us.
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I also have a lot of addiction in my family
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and hardcore drug addiction and mental illness.
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And in order to cope with it,
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you really have to understand that borderline personality
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disorder, schizophrenia, and drug addiction.
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So I have a lot of people I love
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that suffer from drug addiction and alcoholism.
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And the first thing they started teaching you
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is it's not a choice.
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These people's dopamine receptors
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don't hold dopamine the same ways yours do.
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Their frontal lobe is underdeveloped, like, you know,
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and that really helped me to navigate dealing,
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loving people that were addicted to substances.
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I want to be careful with this question, but how much?
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Money do you have?
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Okay, no, is how much control,
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how much, despite the chemical imbalances
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or the biological limitations
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that each of our individual brains have,
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how much mind over matter is there?
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So through things that I've known people
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with clinical depression,
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and so it's always a touchy subject
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to say how much they can really help it.
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What can you, yeah, what can you,
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because you've talked about codependency,
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you talked about issues that you struggle through,
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and nevertheless, you choose to take a journey
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of healing and so on, so that's your choice,
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that's your actions.
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So how much can you do to help fight the limitations
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of the neurochemicals in your brain?
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That's such an interesting question,
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and I don't think I'm at all qualified to answer,
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but I'll say what I do know.
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And really quick, just the definition of codependency,
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I think a lot of people think of codependency
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as like two people that can't stop hanging out, you know,
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or like, you know, that's not totally off,
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but I think for the most part,
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my favorite definition of codependency
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is the inability to tolerate the discomfort of others.
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You grow up in an alcoholic home,
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you grow up around mental illness,
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you grow up in chaos,
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you have a parent that's a narcissist,
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you basically are wired to just people please,
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worry about others, be perfect, walk on eggshells,
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shape shift to accommodate other people.
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So codependence is a very active wiring issue
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that, you know, doesn't just affect
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your romantic relationships, it affects you being a boss,
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it affects you in the world.
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Online, you know, you get one negative comment
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and it throws you for two weeks.
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You know, it also is linked to eating disorders
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and other kinds of addiction.
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So it's a very big thing,
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and I think a lot of people sometimes only think
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that it's in a romantic relationship,
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so I always feel the need to say that.
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And also one of the reasons I love the idea of robots
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so much because you don't have to walk on eggshells
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around them, you don't have to worry
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they're gonna get mad at you yet,
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but there's no, codependents are hypersensitive
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to the needs and moods of others,
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and it's very exhausting, it's depleting.
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Just one conversation about where we're gonna go to dinner
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is like, do you wanna go get Chinese food?
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We just had Chinese food.
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Well, wait, are you mad?
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Well, no, I didn't mean to,
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and it's just like that codependents live in this,
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everything means something,
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and humans can be very emotionally exhausting.
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Why did you look at me that way?
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What are you thinking about?
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Why'd you check your phone?
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It's a hypersensitivity that can be
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incredibly time consuming,
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which is why I love the idea of robots just subbing in.
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Even, I've had a hard time running TV shows and stuff
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because even asking someone to do something,
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I don't wanna come off like a bitch,
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I'm very concerned about what other people think of me,
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how I'm perceived, which is why I think robots
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will be very beneficial for codependents.
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By the way, just a real quick tangent,
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that skill or flaw, whatever you wanna call it,
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is actually really useful for if you ever do
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start your own podcast for interviewing,
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because you're now kind of obsessed
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about the mindset of others,
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and it makes you a good sort of listener and talker with.
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So I think, what's her name from NPR?
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Terry Gross talked about having that.
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I don't feel like she has that at all.
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She worries about other people's feelings?
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Oh, I don't get that at all.
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I mean, you have to put yourself in the mind
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of the person you're speaking with.
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Oh, I see, just in terms of, yeah,
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I am starting a podcast,
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and the reason I haven't is because I'm codependent
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and I'm too worried it's not gonna be perfect.
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So a big codependent adage is perfectionism
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leads to procrastination, which leads to paralysis.
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So how do you, sorry to take a million changes,
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how do you survive on social media?
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Is the exception the evidence?
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Is the exception the evidence?
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Is the exception the evidence?
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To survive on social media, is the exception active?
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But by the way, I took you on a tangent
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and didn't answer your last question
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about how much we can control.
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How much, yeah, we'll return it, or maybe not.
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The answer is we can't.
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Now as a codependent, I'm, okay, good.
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We can, but, but, you know,
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one of the things that I'm fascinated by is,
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you know, the first thing you learn
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when you go into 12 step programs or addiction recovery
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or any of this is, you know,
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genetics loads the gun, environment pulls the trigger.
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And there's certain parts of your genetics
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you cannot control.
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I come from a lot of alcoholism.
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I come from, you know, a lot of mental illness.
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There's certain things I cannot control
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and a lot of things that maybe we don't even know yet
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what we can and can't
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because of how little we actually know about the brain.
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But we also talk about the warrior spirit.
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And there are some people that have that warrior spirit
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and we don't necessarily know what that engine is,
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whether it's you get dopamine from succeeding
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or achieving or martyring yourself
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or the attention you get from growing.
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So a lot of people are like,
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oh, this person can edify themselves and overcome,
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but if you're getting attention from improving yourself,
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you're gonna keep wanting to do that.
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So that is something that helps a lot of,
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in terms of changing your brain.
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If you talk about changing your brain to people
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and talk about what you're doing to overcome set obstacles,
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you're gonna get more attention from them,
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which is gonna fire off your reward system
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and then you're gonna keep doing it.
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Yeah, so you can leverage that momentum.
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So this is why in any 12 step program,
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you go into a room and you talk about your progress
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because then everyone claps for you.
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And then you're more motivated to keep going.
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So that's why we say you're only as sick
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as the secrets you keep,
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because if you keep things secret,
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there's no one guiding you to go in a certain direction.
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It's based on, right?
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We're sort of designed to get approval from the tribe
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or from a group of people
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because our brain translates it to safety.
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And in that case, the tribe is a positive one
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that helps you go in a positive direction.
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So that's why it's so important to go into a room
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and also say, hey, I wanted to use drugs today.
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And people go, hmm.
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And you feel less alone
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and you feel less like you're, you know,
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have been castigated from the pack or whatever.
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And then you say, and you get a chip
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when you haven't drank for 30 days or 60 days or whatever.
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You get little rewards.
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So talking about a pack that's not at all healthy or good,
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but in fact is often toxic, social media.
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So you're one of my favorite people
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on Twitter and Instagram to sort of just both the comedy
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and the insight and just fun.
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How do you prevent social media
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from destroying your mental health?
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It's the next big epidemic, isn't it?
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I don't think I have.
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Is moderation the answer?
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Maybe, but you can do a lot of damage in a moderate way.
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I mean, I guess, again, it depends on your goals, you know?
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And I think for me, the way that my addiction
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to social media, I'm happy to call it an addiction.
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I mean, and I define it as an addiction
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because it stops being a choice.
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There are times I just reach over and I'm like, that was.
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Yeah, that was weird.
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I'll be driving sometimes and I'll be like, oh my God,
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my arm just went to my phone, you know?
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I can put it down.
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I can take time away from it, but when I do, I get antsy.
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I get restless, irritable, and discontent.
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I mean, that's kind of the definition, isn't it?
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So I think by no means do I have a healthy relationship
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with social media.
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I'm sure there's a way to,
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but I think I'm especially a weirdo in this space
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because it's easy to conflate.
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I can always say that it's for work, you know?
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But I mean, don't you get the same kind of thing
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as you get from when a room full of people laugh at your jokes?
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Because I mean, I see, especially the way you do Twitter,
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it's an extension of your comedy in a way.
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So I took a big break from Twitter though,
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a really big break.
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I took like six months off or something for a while
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because it was just like,
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it seemed like it was all kind of politics
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and it was just a little bit,
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it wasn't giving me dopamine
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because there was like this weird, a lot of feedback.
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So I had to take a break from it and then go back to it
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because I felt like I didn't have a healthy relationship.
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Have you ever tried the, I don't know if I believe him,
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but Joe Rogan seems to not read comments.
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Have you, and he's one of the only people at the scale,
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like at your level who at least claims not to read.
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So like, cause you and him swim in this space
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of tense ideas that get the toxic folks riled up.
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I think Rogan, I don't, I don't know.
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I don't, I think he probably looks at YouTube,
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like the likes and the, you know, I think if some things,
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if he doesn't know, I don't know.
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I'm sure he would tell the truth, you know,
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I'm sure he's got people that look at them
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and it's like disgusted, great.
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Or I don't, you know, like, I'm sure he gets it.
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You know, I can't picture him like in the weeds on.
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I mean, he's honestly actually saying that I just,
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it's, it's, it's admirable.
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We're addicted to feedback.
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Yeah, we're addicted to feedback.
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I mean, you know, look,
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like I think that our brain is designed to get intel
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on how we're perceived so that we know where we stand,
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That's our whole deal, right?
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As humans, we want to know where we stand.
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We walk in a room and we go,
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who's the most powerful person in here?
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I got to talk to them and get in their good graces.
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It's just, we're designed to rank ourselves, right?
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And constantly know our rank and social media
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because of you can't figure out your rank
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with 500 million people.
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It's possible, you know, so our brain is like,
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What's my, and especially if we're following people,
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I think the, the big, the interesting thing,
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I think I maybe be able to say about this
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besides my speech impediment is that I did start muting
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people that rank wildly higher than me
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because it is just stressful on the brain
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to constantly look at people
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that are incredibly successful.
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So you keep feeling bad about yourself.
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You know, I think that that is like cutting
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to a certain extent.
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Just like, look at me looking at all these people
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that have so much more money than me
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and so much more success than me.
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It's making me feel like a failure,
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even though I don't think I'm a failure,
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but it's easy to frame it so that I can feel that way.
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Yeah, that's really interesting,
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especially if they're close to,
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like if they're other comedians or something like that,
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That's, it's really disappointing to me.
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I do the same thing as well.
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So other successful people that are really close
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to what I do, it, I don't know,
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I wish I could just admire.
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And for it not to be a distraction, but.
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But that's why you are where you are
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because you don't just admire your competitive
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and you want to win.
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So it's also the same thing that bums you out
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when you look at this as the same reason
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you are where you are.
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So that's why I think it's so important
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to learn about neurology and addiction
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because you're able to go like,
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oh, this same instinct.
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So I'm very sensitive.
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And I, and I sometimes don't like that about myself,
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but I'm like, well, that's the reason I'm able to
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write good standup.
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And that's the reason, and that's the reason
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I'm able to be sensitive to feedback
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and go, that joke should have been better.
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I can make that better.
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So it's the kind of thing where it's like,
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you have to be really sensitive in your work.
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And the second you leave,
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you got to be able to turn it off.
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It's about developing the muscle,
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being able to know when to let it be a superpower
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and when it's going to hold you back and be an obstacle.
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So I try to not be in that black and white of like,
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you know, being competitive is bad
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or being jealous of someone just to go like,
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oh, there's that thing that makes me really successful
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in a lot of other ways,
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but right now it's making me feel bad.
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Well, I'm kind of looking to you
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because you're basically a celebrity,
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a famous sort of world class comedian.
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And so I feel like you're the right person
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to be one of the key people to define
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what's the healthy path forward with social media.
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So I, because we're all trying to figure it out now
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and it's, I'm curious to see where it evolves.
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I think you're at the center of that.
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So like, you know, there's, you know,
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trying to leave Twitter and then come back and see,
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can I do this in a healthy way?
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I mean, you have to keep trying, exploring.
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You have to know because it's being, you know,
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I have a couple answers.
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I think, you know, I hire a company
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to do some of my social media for me, you know?
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So it's also being able to go, okay,
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I make a certain amount of money by doing this,
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but now let me be a good business person
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and say, I'm gonna pay you this amount to run this for me.
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So I'm not 24 seven in the weeds hashtagging and responding.
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And just, it's a lot to take on.
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It's a lot of energy to take on.
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But at the same time, part of what I think
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makes me successful on social media if I am,
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is that people know I'm actually doing it
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and that I am an engaging and I'm responding
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and developing a personal relationship
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with complete strangers.
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So I think, you know, figuring out that balance
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and really approaching it as a business, you know,
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that's what I try to do.
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It's not dating, it's not,
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I try to just be really objective about,
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okay, here's what's working, here's what's not working.
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And in terms of taking the break from Twitter,
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this is a really savage take,
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but because I don't talk about my politics publicly,
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being on Twitter right after the last election
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was not gonna be beneficial
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because there was gonna be, you had to take a side.
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You had to be political in order to get
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any kind of retweets or likes.
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And I just wasn't interested in doing that
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because you were gonna lose as many people
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as you were gonna gain
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and it was gonna all come clean in the wash.
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So I was just like, the best thing I can do
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for me business wise is to just abstain, you know?
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And you know, the robot, I joke about her replacing me,
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but she does do half of my social media, you know?
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Because I don't want people to get sick of me.
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I don't want to be redundant.
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There are times when I don't have the time or the energy
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to make a funny video,
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but I know she's gonna be compelling and interesting
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and that's something that you can't see every day, you know?
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Of course, the humor comes from your,
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I mean, the cleverness, the wit, the humor comes from you
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when you film the robot.
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That's kind of the trick of it.
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I mean, the robot is not quite there
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to do anything funny.
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The absurdity is revealed through the filmmaker in that case
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or whoever is interacting,
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not through the actual robot, you know, being who she is.
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Let me sort of, love.
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Well, first, an engineering question.
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I know, I know, you're not an engineer,
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but how difficult do you think is it to build an AI system
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that you can have a deep, fulfilling,
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monogamous relationship with?
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Sort of replace the human to human relationships
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I think anyone can fall in love with anything, you know?
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Like, how often have you looked back at someone?
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Like, I ran into someone the other day
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that I was in love with and I was like,
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hey, it was like, there was nothing there.
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There was nothing there.
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Like, do you, you know, like, where you're able to go like,
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oh, that was weird, oh, right, you know?
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You mean from a distant past or something like that?
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Yeah, when you're able to go like,
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I can't believe we had an incredible connection
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and now it's just, I do think that people will be in love
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with robots probably even more deeply with humans
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because it's like when people mourn their animals,
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when their animals die, they're always,
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it's sometimes harder than mourning a human
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because you can't go, well, he was kind of an asshole,
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but like, he didn't pick me up from school.
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You know, it's like, you're able to get out
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of your grief a little bit.
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You're able to kind of be, oh, he was kind of judgmental
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or she was kind of, you know, with a robot,
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there's something so pure about an innocent and impish
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and childlike about it that I think it probably
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will be much more conducive to a narcissistic love
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for sure at that, but it's not like, well, he cheated on,
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she can't cheat, she can't leave you, she can't, you know?
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Well, if Bearclaw leaves your life
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and maybe a new version or somebody else will enter,
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will you miss Bearclaw?
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For guys that have these sex robots,
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they're building a nursing home for the bodies
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that are now resting
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because they don't want to part with the bodies
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because they have such an intense emotional connection
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I mean, it's kind of like a car club a little bit,
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you know, like it's, you know,
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but I'm not saying this is right.
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I'm not saying it's cool, it's weird, it's creepy,
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but we do anthropomorphize things with faces
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and we do develop emotional connections to things.
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I mean, there's certain, have you ever tried to like throw,
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I can't even throw away my teddy bear
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from when I was a kid.
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It's a piece of trash and it's upstairs.
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Like, it's just like, why can't I throw that away?
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It's bizarre, you know,
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and there's something kind of beautiful about that.
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There's something, it gives me hope in humans
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because I see humans do such horrific things all the time
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and maybe I'm too, I see too much of it, frankly,
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but there's something kind of beautiful
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about the way we're able to have emotional connections
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to objects, which, you know, a lot of,
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I mean, it's kind of specifically, I think, Western, right?
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That we don't see objects as having souls,
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like that's kind of specifically us,
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but I don't think it's so much
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that we're objectifying humans with these sex robots.
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We're kind of humanizing objects, right?
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So there's something kind of fascinating
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in our ability to do that
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because a lot of us don't humanize humans.
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So it's just a weird little place to play in
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and I think a lot of people, I mean,
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a lot of people will be marrying these things is my guess.
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So you've asked the question, let me ask it of you.
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You have a bit of a brilliant definition of love
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as being willing to die for someone
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who you yourself want to kill.
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So that's kind of fun.
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First of all, that's brilliant.
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That's a really good definition.
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I think it'll stick with me for a long time.
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This is how little of a romantic I am.
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A plane went by when you said that
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and my brain is like, you're gonna need to rerecord that.
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And I want you to get into post
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and then not be able to use that.
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And I'm a romantic as I...
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Don't mean to ruin the moment.
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Actually, I can not be conscious of the fact
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that I heard the plane and it made me feel like
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how amazing it is that we live in a world of planes.
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And I just went, why haven't we fucking evolved past planes
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and why can't they make them quieter?
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My definition of love?
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What, yeah, what's your sort of the more serious note?
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Consistently producing dopamine for a long time.
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Consistent output of oxytocin with the same person.
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Dopamine is a positive thing.
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What about the negative?
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What about the fear and the insecurity, the longing,
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anger, all that kind of stuff?
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I think that's part of love.
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I think that love brings out the best in you,
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but it also, if you don't get angry and upset,
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it's, I don't know, I think that that's part of it.
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I think we have this idea that love has to be like really
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placid or something.
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I only saw stormy relationships growing up,
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so I don't have a judgment
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on how a relationship should look,
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but I do think that this idea that love has to be eternal
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is really destructive, is really destructive
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and self defeating and a big source of stress for people.
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I mean, I'm still figuring out love.
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I think we all kind of are,
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but I do kind of stand by that definition.
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And I think that, I think for me,
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love is like just being able to be authentic with somebody.
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It's very simple, I know,
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but I think for me it's about not feeling pressure
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to have to perform or impress somebody,
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just feeling truly like accepted unconditionally by someone.
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Although I do believe love should be conditional.
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That might be a hot take.
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I think everything should be conditional.
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I think if someone's behavior,
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I don't think love should just be like,
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I'm in love with you, now behave however you want forever.
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This is unconditional.
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I think love is a daily action.
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It's not something you just like get tenure on
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and then get to behave however you want
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because we said I love you 10 years ago.
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It's a daily, it's a verb.
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Well, there's some things that are,
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you see, if you explicitly make it clear
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that it's conditional,
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it takes away some of the magic of it.
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So there's certain stories we tell ourselves
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that we don't want to make explicit about love.
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I don't know, maybe that's the wrong way to think of it.
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Maybe you want to be explicit in relationships.
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I also think love is a business decision.
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Like I do in a good way.
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Like I think that love is not just
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when you're across from somebody.
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It's when I go to work, can I focus?
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Am I worried about you?
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Am I stressed out about you?
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You're not responding to me.
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You're not reliable.
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Like I think that being in a relationship,
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the kind of love that I would want
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is the kind of relationship where when we're not together,
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it's not draining me, causing me stress, making me worry,
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and sometimes passion, that word, we get murky about it.
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But I think it's also like,
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I can be the best version of myself
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when the person's not around.
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And I don't have to feel abandoned or scared
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or any of these kinds of other things.
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So it's like love, for me, I think it's a Flaubert quote
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and I'm going to butcher it.
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But I think it's like, be boring in your personal life
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so you can be violent and take risks
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in your professional life.
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Something like that.
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But I do think that it's being able to align values
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in a way to where you can also thrive
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outside of the relationship.
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Some of the most successful people I know
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are those sort of happily married and have kids and so on.
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It's always funny.
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Boring is serenity.
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And it's funny how those elements
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actually make you much more productive.
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I don't understand the.
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I don't think relationships should drain you
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and take away energy that you could be using
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to create things that generate pride.
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Have you said your relationship of love yet?
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Have you said your definition of love?
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My definition of love?
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No, I did not say it.
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We're out of time.
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When you have a podcast, maybe you can invite me on.
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Oh no, I already did.
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We've already talked about this.
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And because I also have codependency, I have to say yes.
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No, I know, I'm trapping you.
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Actually, I wondered whether when I asked
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if we could talk today, after sort of doing more research
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and reading some of your book, I started to wonder,
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did you just feel pressured to say yes?
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But I'm a fan of yours, too.
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No, I actually, because I am codependent,
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but I'm in recovery for codependence,
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so I actually do, I don't do anything I don't wanna do.
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You really, you go out of your way to say no.
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I say no all the time.
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I'm trying to learn that as well.
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I moved this a couple, remember,
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I moved it from one to two.
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Just to, yeah, just to.
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Yeah, just to let you know.
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How recovered I am, and I'm not codependent.
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But I don't do anything I don't wanna do.
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Yeah, you're ahead of me on that.
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You're like, I don't even wanna be here.
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Do you think about your mortality?
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Yes, it is a big part of how I was able
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to sort of like kickstart my codependence recovery.
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My dad passed a couple years ago,
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and when you have someone close to you in your life die,
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everything gets real clear,
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in terms of how we're a speck of dust
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who's only here for a certain amount of time.
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What do you think is the meaning of it all?
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Like what the speck of dust,
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what's maybe in your own life, what's the goal,
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the purpose of your existence?
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Well, you're exceptionally ambitious.
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You've created some incredible things
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in different disciplines.
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Yeah, we're all just managing our terror
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because we know we're gonna die.
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So we create and build all these things
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and rituals and religions and robots
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and whatever we need to do to just distract ourselves
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from imminent rotting, we're rotting.
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And I got very into terror management theory
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when my dad died and it resonated, it helped me.
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And everyone's got their own religion
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or sense of purpose or thing that distracts them
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from the horrors of being human.
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What's the terror management theory?
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Terror management is basically the idea
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that since we're the only animal
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that knows they're gonna die,
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we have to basically distract ourselves
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with awards and achievements and games and whatever,
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just in order to distract ourselves
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from the terror we would feel if we really processed
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the fact that we could not only, we are gonna die,
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but also could die at any minute
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because we're only superficially
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at the top of the food chain.
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And technically we're at the top of the food chain
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if we have houses and guns and stuff machines,
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but if me and a lion are in the woods together,
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most things could kill us.
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I mean, a bee can kill some people,
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like something this big can kill a lot of humans.
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So it's basically just to manage the terror
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that we all would feel if we were able
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to really be awake.
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Cause we're mostly zombies, right?
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Job, school, religion, go to sleep, drink, football,
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relationship, dopamine, love, you know,
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we're kind of just like trudging along
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like zombies for the most part.
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That fear of death adds some motivation.
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Well, I think I speak for a lot of people
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in saying that I can't wait to see
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what your terror creates in the next few years.
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Whitney, thank you so much for talking today.
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Thanks for listening to this conversation
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