back to indexSteven Pressfield: The War of Art | Lex Fridman Podcast #102
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The following is a conversation with Stephen Pressfield,
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author of several powerful nonfiction
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and historical fiction books, including The War of Art,
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a book that had a big impact on my life
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and the life of millions of people
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whose passion is to create in art, science, business,
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sport, and everywhere else.
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I highly recommend it and others of his books on this topic,
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including Turning Pro, Do the Work,
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Nobody Wants to Read Your Shit, and The Warrior Ethos.
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Also, his books Gets a Fire about the Spartans
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and the Battle of Thermopylae, The Lionsgate, Tides of War,
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and others are some of the best
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historical fiction novels ever written.
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As some of you know, I don't shy away
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from taking on a big, difficult challenge.
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One of the hardest for me and for millions of others
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is the discipline of staring at an empty page every day,
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pushing on to think deeply, to create,
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despite the millions of excuses that fill the head.
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In his work, Stephen has articulated this struggle
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better than anyone I've ever read.
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And now, here's my conversation with Steven Pressfield.
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Modern society in many ways dreams
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of creating universal peace,
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and yet war has molded civilization
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as we know it throughout its history.
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So let's start at the high philosophical level.
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If you could imagine a world without war,
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how would that world be different?
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Perhaps put another way, what purpose has war served?
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I think we're basically the same creatures internally
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that we were in the cave, right?
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In tribal society, back for however many,
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you know, hundreds of thousands, millions of years,
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which means that we're in the dynamic in our mind
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is a kind of an us versus them dynamic
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where our tribe is the people,
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and everybody else are whatever, you know?
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And I don't see that,
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I don't think that's changed one iota over the centuries.
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It's just a question of how one might sublimate
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that urge to compete.
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When you're a martial artist, you know,
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a great part of your day I'm sure is dedicated
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to reaching that place of total commitment
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and in the face of competition,
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in the face of adversity, et cetera, et cetera,
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which is, I think, natural and great for the human race
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on an individual basis.
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So the hope that I have, if there is any hope,
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personally, I don't think the human race
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is gonna be around very long,
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but would be in sports
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or in other kind of sublimated activities
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where people can act out their need for conquest
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or aggression or so forth,
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but at the same time relate to their opponents
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as human beings, and when the game is over,
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you know, you embrace your competitors, stuff like that.
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So you think war was inevitable, it's a part of human nature
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as opposed to a force, a creative force in society
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that served a benefit.
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Well, I'm sure it has benefited, you know,
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spreading cultures and mixing cultures and stuff like that,
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but I think the urge to conquest,
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if you think about Alexander the Great
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or Julius Caesar or Napoleon or anybody like that,
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or even individual, or if we even think about
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one of the plants that we're looking at right outside,
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I mean, if you let a particular plant have its way,
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it would take over, you know, the whole hillside.
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And certainly in the days of Alexander the Great, let's say,
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there were, who knows, over the face of the earth,
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hundreds of little kingdoms, China, Japan,
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you know, Asia, Europe, wherever,
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and every prince that grew up dreamt of conquering
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his neighbor and conquering a neighbor after that.
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That seems to be a universal human imperative,
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at least in the male of the species.
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The war is just a realization of that imperative.
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So you've written about Spartans in the Battle of Thermopylae,
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you've about Alexander the Great,
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about the Six Day War in 67 in Israel,
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against Egypt, Jordan, Syria.
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What war, not just out of those, but in general,
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do you think has been most transformative for the world?
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Well, these are great questions, Lex.
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Tough, easy ones, right?
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I mean, I wish I knew more about the Mongols,
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because I certainly, from what little I know,
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I think that was a very,
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their conquests were very transformative,
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bringing cultures in a horrible, bloody way together.
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But gosh, what's then the most transformative?
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Maybe the Roman conquest,
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establishing the Roman Empire and bringing that culture.
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Maybe Alexander the Great's wars
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that united east and west, at least for a minute.
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So building of empire.
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Do you have a sense, so there's wars,
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I mean, the Six Day War is not about building empires.
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It's about deeply held religious, cultural conflict
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and holding the line, holding the border.
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And then there is conquests, like the Mongols,
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that, what is it, some large percentage of the population
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is a descendant of Genghis Khan, I believe, right?
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So that has transformative effects.
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And then World War II, I mean, personally,
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and my family and so on, had transformative effects.
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Let me ask you this, Lex.
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Why are you, what are you trying to get at
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with these questions?
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What is this kind of the theme that you're aiming at?
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Well, I talked to Eric Weinstein,
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and he said everything is great about war
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except the killing.
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And there's a romantic notion of war.
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Certainly there's a romantic notion of being a warrior,
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but there's a romantic notion of war
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that somehow there's a creative force to it,
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that because we fight, out of that fighting comes culture,
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comes music and art, and more and more desire to create
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with the societies that win.
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And to me, war is not just, hey, I have a stick
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and I want your land.
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It's some kind of, like it has echoes of the creative force
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that makes humans unique to other animals.
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Like, war is, it can't be just four people
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or 10 people or 100 people.
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You have to have thousands of people agreeing,
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usually thousands or more, for something so deeply
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that you would be willing to risk your own life.
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And there's a romantic notion to that.
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And because you've written so well and passionate
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about some of these, I wanted to see,
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because I don't have any answers,
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I wanted to untangle that.
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If there is a reason we fight that's more than just anger
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and hate and a way to conquer.
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Well, let me take it from a completely different side.
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I don't think that I, in writing about war,
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am really that interested in war per se.
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I'm more interested in the metaphor.
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I think for me, I'm really writing about my own internal
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war and the war against myself and against my own resistance,
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my own negativity, all of those things
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that spirituality would be the opposite of.
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So I'm not really an expert on war.
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It's not like talking to Jim Mattis
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or to Victor Davis Hanson or whatever. To me, the human being,
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we are spiritual beings in a physical envelope.
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And there's an automatic terrible tension within that.
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And which creates a war inside ourselves.
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So the outer war, when I think about the Israeli army
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standing up to, whatever, 10 to one odds
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or whatever it was, that is a metaphor to me
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of the fight we're fighting inside ourselves.
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For me, the six day war was, as you know,
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my feeling was it was about a return from exile.
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It was sort of the culmination of the reestablishment
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of the state of Israel, which had never really
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been completed because the holiest places
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of the Jewish people were in the hands of their enemies.
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So now, on the other hand, Alexander the Great's conquests,
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I think, were a whole other different scenario
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where the metaphor was that Alexander's father, Philip,
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I think created the First Nation, capital N Nation,
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and he created a sort of a pathway for these guys
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who were mountain men and basically barbarians,
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Macedonians, and by creating this army
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and this dream of conquering the world,
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which Alexander took to the, you know, really enacted,
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he gave them a way of rising out of themselves,
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of transcending themselves, not just individually,
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So that would go along with what you're saying, Lex,
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of a certain creativity to it.
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But again, that's not, for whatever,
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and I'm just realizing this as I'm answering this,
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that's not really what's interesting to me
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about these stories.
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And the Spartans, what was a whole, at Thermopylae,
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that was a whole other kind of metaphor of war.
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That was a sort of a willingly going to one's own death
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for a greater cause, just like, to me,
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the Spartans at Thermopylae enacted as a group
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what Jesus Christ enacted as an individual,
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a sacrifice of their lives for the greater good.
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I don't know if that answers your question,
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but that's how I see it.
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I do feel like, you know, I get invited to speak
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to Marine Corps groups and things like that all the time,
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and I decline because I don't really feel
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like I'm a spokesman for the warrior class
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or anything like that.
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That's not what's interesting about it to me.
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But didn't you just say, with war as a metaphor,
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that we're all essentially, in various ways, warriors?
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If we think of it in terms of Jungian archetypes,
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and think of our life at least as males,
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and the earliest archetypes that kick in
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are the youth and the wanderer and the student
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and that kind of thing, and then at some point
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around age 15 to 20, whatever,
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the warrior archetype kicks in,
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and we want to play football, we want to do martial arts,
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we want to join the special forces,
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we want to hang out with our buddies,
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that's our great bond, we want to test ourselves
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against adversity and so on and so forth.
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But at some point, that archetype,
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we move beyond that archetype,
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and we become fathers and teachers and so on and so forth.
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And then there are many archetypes beyond that
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So I'm interested in the warrior archetype,
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but not to the be all and end all of everything else.
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In my book, The Virtues of War, have you read that?
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Well, there's a character named Telamon,
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who's actually, it's a long story,
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but when he's with Alexander's army,
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and when they arrive in India,
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he becomes fascinated by the gymnosophists,
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the fakirs, the naked wise men, the yogis.
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And he says to Alexander that these guys
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are warriors beyond what we are, even though they do nothing
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because they are inside their own selves all day long.
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If we go to the Six Day War,
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you write about, in Lionsgate,
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you write about the Six Day War in Israel.
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I think of the wars you've written about
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as the one we're still in many ways in the midst of today.
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So what is at the core of that conflict in Israel?
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The Israeli Palestinian conflict?
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I mean, today it's the Israeli Palestinian conflict,
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but it echoes of the same conflict
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in that part of the world with Israel.
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What is, in your sense, the nature of that conflict?
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What can we learn about society
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and human nature from that conflict?
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That is one of the hottest conflicts
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that still goes on today.
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Well, when I was working on the Lionsgate
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about the Six Day War, I wrote in the introduction
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that this was not gonna be a multi sided story.
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I was taking it entirely, I'm a Jew,
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I identify with the Israeli people,
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I was gonna see it entirely from their side.
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So that's probably not what you're asking,
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but to me, the Six Day War and that whole,
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it's a piece of land that's holy
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to at least three religions and probably more.
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And from the Jewish point of view,
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it's where the state of Israel,
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it's where David founded Jerusalem,
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it's all where the 12 tribes were, et cetera, et cetera,
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where Moses came and brought the people.
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So to me, the Six Day War was about,
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as I said, a return from exile,
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from diaspora after 2000 years.
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Now, obviously, from the Palestinian point of view
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or the Saudi Arabian point of view or whatever,
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it's a whole other scenario.
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Religion is at the core of this conflict in some ways,
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but religious beliefs.
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Religion and racial slash ethnic tribal identity.
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I mean, again, what is a Jew?
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Is a Jew somebody that believes in the religion
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or is it somebody of a certain race
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that race arose in a certain place?
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Same thing as a Muslim.
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Do they believe in Muhammad or whatever?
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Or did they arise in a certain place and a certain ethnicity?
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Because if we landed from Mars,
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we couldn't tell a Jew from a Palestinian, could we?
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Just looking at them,
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you could easily mix them and you'd never know.
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And the specifics of the faith
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is not necessarily the thing that defines a person.
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No, I don't think so.
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So you could be, like many are,
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secular Jew living in Israel
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and still have a strong bond.
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Definitely, definitely.
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In fact, almost all of the Jews,
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the fighters that I spoke to from the Six Day War
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were secular and it really was not
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a religious thing with them
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as much as it was a national thing.
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So having spent time in Israel,
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how's the world where military conflict is directly felt
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as opposed to maybe if we look at the US
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where it's distant and far away?
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How is that world different?
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How are the people different?
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It's very different, as you know.
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I've never been to Israel, actually.
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Oh, you haven't? I haven't felt it.
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Ah, well, you should definitely go.
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I mean, here in the United States,
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where when an incident like Charlottesville comes up,
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where people are chanting,
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Jews will not replace us, blah, blah, blah,
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the impulse in the Jewish community is to think of,
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well, how can we reach out to the other side?
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How can we show them that we are human beings like they are
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and show them that we care for them, et cetera, et cetera?
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That's the sort of distant from war.
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From, if you're in Israel,
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like if you and I were Israeli citizens right now,
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you would be a fighter pilot or a tank commander or whatever.
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You would not just be working at MIT or whatever.
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And I would be in the army too.
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And so from their point of view,
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they say all those people who hate us,
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can I curse on this?
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Can I curse on this thing?
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Fuck them, we'll kill them.
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If they dared to cross the line,
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and that's their whole different point of view.
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To me, it's actually a healthier point of view.
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So there's no, so let me ask the hard question is,
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well, maybe it's an impossible question is,
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how do we resolve that conflict?
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Anywhere where the instinct is to reach out in US
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and say, F you and the people, yeah.
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Here's my, I think that the only way that two warring sides
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or two sides that are opposed to one another
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can ever really come together
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is when there's mutual respect,
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we'll get just more water.
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I got it, I got this.
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When there's mutual respect
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and they can see each other as equals
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and when there's mutual fear, you know,
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where one side says, we don't dare cross the line
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with this other side,
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and the other side says the same thing.
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I think then you can kind of reach across that thing
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and say, okay, we'll stay here, you stay here.
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We'll mingle in cultural ways
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and we'll have interchange, you know, winter marriage,
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da, da, da, da, da, da.
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But as soon as one side has no power,
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as the Jewish people have had no power
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throughout the diaspora forever, right?
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Then it's just a human nature.
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You can see it in Trump
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and what he does to any vulnerable minority, right?
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And he's not alone.
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I'm not blaming him alone.
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That's human nature.
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So I do think that that idea of like, fuck you,
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if you cross the line, we'll kill you,
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is really a good way, is a good place to start from.
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Because now you can sit down on opposite sides of the table
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and say, you know, what do we have in common?
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How can we, we want to raise our children.
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You want to raise your children.
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How can we do this in a way that we're not hurting each other?
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So you kind of said that you need to arrive at a balance,
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some kind of balance of power.
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But you haven't spoken to the fact
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that there's deeply rooted hatred of the other.
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So is there no way to alleviate that hatred?
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Or is that, I mean, what role does love and hate come?
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I think that hatred can go away.
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I mean, if you look at even now
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that I haven't seen this in person,
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but they say that the Saudis and the Israelis
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are collaborating in certain things, you know,
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by their mutual fear of or antagonism to Iran.
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I do think that even really long, long, longstanding
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hatreds and animosities, thousands of years old,
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can go away under the right circumstances.
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In a, on what time scale?
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I mean, for instance, I don't know if there's some,
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do people have to die?
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Do generations have to die and pass away
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and new generations come up with less hate?
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Or can a single individual learn to not hate?
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I think a single individual can learn to not hate
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because it certainly doesn't seem to,
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over thousands of years, doesn't seem to work.
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You know, we keep thinking that that's gonna happen.
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But I think it's, we're in a real spiritual realm here
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when you're talking about that.
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You're in a realm of, you know, Buddha, Jesus, whatever,
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something like that, that where, you know,
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a true change of soul happens.
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But I do think that's possible.
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So what do you think is the future of warfare?
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Especially with what many people see as the expansion
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of the military industrial conflict.
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To what, do you, I know you're not a military historian.
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I'm asking more as a metaphor.
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And do you see us as people continuing to fight?
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You know, it's a really great question, Alex,
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because I think now with social media, TV, movies,
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all of these things that create empathy across cultures,
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it becomes harder and harder, I think, I think,
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to totally demonize the other,
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the way it was in previous wars.
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I also think, I don't really see an appetite
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for people wanting to go to war these days.
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And in a way, I don't know if that's good or bad.
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It's like everybody's so fat and lazy
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and so concerned with how many clicks they're getting
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that, you know, whereas I know at the start of World War I,
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both the younger generations were eager to go to war.
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You know, I think it was insane,
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but it was that sort of warrior archetype
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that we were talking about before that,
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that generational testosterone eros thing.
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Whereas nowadays, I don't know.
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I mean, it's hard to say there's not gonna be another war
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because there always are,
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but it's sort of hard to imagine people
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getting off their ass these days to do anything.
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Well, it's funny that you mentioned social media
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as a place for empathy, sure.
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But in a sense, it's a place for war as well.
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For hatred, yeah, true.
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And perhaps the positive aspect of hatred on social media
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is that it's somewhat less harmful than murder.
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And so it kind of dissipates sort of the hatefuls.
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You get the hate out at a less,
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on a daily basis and thereby never boils up
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to a point where you want to kill.
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It's also a really weird thing that's going on
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that I don't know if anybody really understands,
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like with video games where kids are acting out
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these incredible horror things, right?
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But you know that if they cut their finger,
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they would like freak out, you know?
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And I also don't think that many of the people
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that are hateful on social media,
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if they were face to face with the person, they wouldn't.
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So there's a sort of two mental spheres
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happening at the same time.
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And I don't know how that plays out.
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Maps to the actual military,
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how that actually maps to military conflict.
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Like if you in the United States have a draft, for example,
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how the populace would respond different than they did
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in previous generations.
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Yeah, I think they certainly would.
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Another question, not sure if you've thought about it,
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but I work on building artificial intelligence systems.
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In our community, many people are worried
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about AI being used in war.
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So automating the killing process with drones
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and in general, it's being used more and more.
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I should recuse myself on that one.
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I really haven't thought about that one.
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You haven't thought about it.
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I'd rather ask you what you think about it.
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Well, it's interesting, I mean,
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because it's so fundamentally different
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from if you look at the Battle of Thermopylae.
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It means just if we talk about the difference between a gun
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I'll tell you one little anecdote.
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There was a Spartan king, I don't know which one it was,
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but at one point they showed him a new invention
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and it could launch a bolt that would kill someone
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at a range of 200 yards.
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And the king wept and said, alas, valor is no more.
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Because their point of view of war,
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it was highly ritualized, as you know,
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and the code of honor was that you were not supposed
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to be able to kill another person
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unless you yourself were in equal danger of being killed.
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And any other way of doing that,
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even bow and arrow was considered less than manly
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and less than honorable.
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And maybe we should go back to that
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because at least it makes the stakes real and true.
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Not that we could.
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Not that's the point.
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You were in the Marine Corps,
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so we talk about the real, the bloody conflicts
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that you've written about, many of them.
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So let me ask a personal question.
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Have you, sort of as a writing and in general,
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have you thought about what it takes to kill a person
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if you yourself could do it in the war?
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I have thought about it, yeah.
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And how that would make you feel?
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Of course, one never knows.
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I certainly, I have not been in combat.
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I haven't killed anybody.
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But I would imagine in the real world
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that it would change you utterly forever.
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Because you can't help but identify
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with the person that you've just killed.
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And it's another human being.
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And I mean, I have a hard time killing a spider.
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So I would imagine that it's something
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that warriors understand and nobody else understands.
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And you've spoken with many.
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How, I mean, you've spoken with people
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who've seen military combat in Israel.
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What, have they been able to articulate
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the experience of killing?
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It's sort of just what I said.
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I mean, I'm even thinking of one pilot
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that I interviewed over there
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who was strafing a tank in his Mustang
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and saw, at really low altitude,
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and saw what his bullets did to the guy
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and could see his face and everything like that,
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which is even one remove or more removes
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from an infantryman, what an infantryman does.
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And he said that same thing that I said,
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that it just changes you and you can never say it,
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never look at the world or look at anything
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the same way again.
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And when that happens at scale,
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it's thousands, tens of thousands, hundreds.
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That changes entire societies.
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I mean, that's what we've seen.
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At least it, but the problem is
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it doesn't change the politicians back home.
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How important is mortality, finiteness,
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the fact that this thing ends to the creative process?
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So, killing and war really emphasizes that,
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but in general, the fact that this thing ends.
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And on a serious note,
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do you think about your own mortality?
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Do you meditate on your own mortality
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when you think about the work you do?
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That's another great question, Lex.
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I actually, I'm 75, and I just was having,
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I had breakfast in New York a few months ago
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with a friend of mine who's like my exact same age.
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And I said to him, I said,
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Nick, do you ever think about mortality?
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And he said, every fucking minute of every day.
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And I was kind of relieved to hear that because I do too.
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But actually, I always have, I think.
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And I think, you know, the fact of mortality
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gives meaning to life, you know?
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I think that's why we want to create.
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That's why we want to make a mark of some kind.
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Or, and the other aspect of it is
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what's on the other side of that mortality?
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I'm a believer in previous lives.
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So I sort of, and I,
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the question I've never been able to answer
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among many, many others is like, why are we even here?
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Why are we in the flesh?
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You know, I sort of, I like to believe that God
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or some force is, we're on some kind of journey, but I'm not sure why,
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why we were put in this world where the ground rules are,
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if you think about animal life,
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that you cannot live from one day to the next
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without killing and eating some other form of life.
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I mean, what a demented thing, you know?
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Why couldn't we just have a solar panel on our head
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and, you know, be friends with everybody?
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So I sort of, I don't get what that was all about,
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but that's sort of the big issue.
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Have you read to Ernest Becker's Denial of Death, for example?
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Is Ernest Becker's a philosopher that said that the death,
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that the fear of death is really the primary driver
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of everything we do.
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So Freud had what the?
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Right, I would agree with that.
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So to you, you've always thought about your,
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even your own mortality.
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And can you elaborate on the reincarnation aspect
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of what you were talking about?
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Like that we kind of, what's your sense
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that we had previous lives?
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In what, have you thought concretely
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or is it a lot of it kind of is?
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No, I've thought concretely about it.
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I mean, it's very clear when you see children,
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young kids, or even dogs and cats,
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that they come into the world with personalities, you know,
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and three kids in a family are gonna be completely different
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and completely their own person.
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And that person that they are doesn't change over life.
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And I, you know, there's one of the things that I did in my book
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The Artist's Journey is that there were certain things
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where I tracked or just listed in order,
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like all of Bruce Springsteen's albums
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or all of Philip Roth's books, you know,
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kind of a body of work throughout over, you know,
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a period of 30, 40, 50 years, you know.
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And you can see that there's a theme running through all
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of those things, that it's completely unique to that person.
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Nobody else could have written Philip Roth's books
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or Bruce Springsteen's songs.
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And you can even see sort of a destiny there.
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So I ask myself, well, where did that come from?
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What, it seems to be a continuation of something that was,
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that happened before, and that will lead to something else
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because it's not starting from scratch.
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It seems like there's a calling, a destiny in there already.
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This gets back to the muse and all that kind of thing.
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So yeah, it's almost like the, there's this,
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let's call it a God, it's passing,
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it's almost like sampling parts of a previous human
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that has lived and putting those into the new one.
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Sampling is probably a pretty good word.
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Taking some of the good, well, you can't take
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all the good parts because the bad parts
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is what makes the person.
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Let's say you're taking it all together.
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Okay, this is humans only, or does it pass around
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from animals in your view?
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I don't know, that's above my pay grade, I don't know.
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So, okay, so you talk about the muse
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as the source of ideas maybe.
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Since you've gotten a few glimpses of her in your writing,
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tell me, what is it possible for you to tell me about her?
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Where does she reside?
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What does she look like?
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I mean, you can look at it many different ways, right?
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The Greeks did it in an anthropomorphic way, right?
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They created gods that were like human beings.
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But if you look at it from a Kabbalistic Jewish perspective,
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Jewish mysticism, you could say
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that it's the soul, the neshama, right?
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That the soul is above us on a higher plane,
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our own, your soul, my soul,
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and is trying to reach down to us and communicate with us.
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And we're trying simultaneously to reach up to it
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through prayer or through, if you're a writer or an artist,
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you know, when you sit down at the keyboard,
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you're entering into a kind of prayer.
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You're entering into a different state
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of an altered consciousness to some extent.
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You're opening yourself, opening the pipeline,
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or turning on the radio to tune into
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the cosmic radio station.
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And another way of looking at it, this is an,
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did you ever see the movie City of Angels?
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The visual of the movie, it was Meg Ryan and Nicolas Cage.
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Yeah, yeah, I've seen it, yep.
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And right, the visual of the movie sort of was
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Meg Ryan is a heart surgeon.
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And as she's operating on somebody,
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suddenly Nicolas Cage in this long duster coat,
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like Jesse James, appears right next to her
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in the operating room, and he's an angel.
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And he's waiting to take out the soul
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of the patient on the operating table.
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And she doesn't see him, she's totally unaware of him.
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And so is everybody else in the operating room,
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except maybe the guy who's about to die,
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who suddenly sees him.
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But I kind of believe that there are beings like that,
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or if you don't like that, it's a force,
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it's a consciousness, it's something
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that are right here, right now.
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And they're trying to communicate to us.
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And like through a membrane,
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like tapping on that window over there,
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they're like right out there.
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And they carry the future.
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They are everything that is in potential.
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All the works that you will do, Lex,
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your startup, whatever else you're doing,
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And it's not really you
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that's coming up with those ideas, in my opinion.
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Those things are appearing,
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it's like somebody knocks on the door and puts it in.
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I mean, in the Iliad, where gods and goddesses appear,
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along with the human antagonists
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on the battlefield all the time, right?
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There'll be, you know, Homer flashes to Olympus
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and then back to the real world.
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And there's a thing where one Aphrodite,
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let's say wants to help Paris.
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And so she says, well, I will appear to him in a dream.
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And I'll take the form of his brother
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and I'll say, bump, bump, bump, bump.
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So that's creatures, beings on one dimension,
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as the Greeks saw it, communicating with,
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and I believe that that's exactly what's going on,
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in one, whatever analogy you want to use.
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That communication, to which degree
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do you play the role in that communication?
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As opposed to sitting at the computer,
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if you're a writer, and staring at the blank page
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and putting in the time and waiting.
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So if, in your view, are these creatures
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basically waiting to tell you about your future?
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Or is there choice?
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How many possible futures are there?
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How many possible ideas are there?
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That's a great question.
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I think there's basically, yes, there are alternatives,
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you know, degrees within it.
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But if you look at Bruce Springsteen's albums,
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how much could he have done really differently?
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Yeah, he would, you can just see
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there's a whole impetus going through the whole thing.
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And nothing was going to shake him off that, you know?
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And yeah, maybe the river could have been different,
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could have been called something else,
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but he was dealing with certain issues.
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His conscious self was dealing with certain issues
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that were really out of his control.
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He was drawn, he was called to it, right?
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Nothing could stop him.
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And so it is sort of a partnership, I think,
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the creative process, between the creative impulse
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that's coming from some other place,
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or it's coming from deep within us
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is another way to look at it.
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You know, it's like if we are acorns
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and we're growing into oaks.
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So the conscious artist,
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who's sitting there at the keyboard or whatever,
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is applying his or her consciousness to that,
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but is also going into opening themselves
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to the unconscious or to this other realm,
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I mean, certainly songwriters for a million years
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have said, you know, a song just came into their head,
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A poem, just all they had to do was write.
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But then, you ever see that thing where,
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of Keats's notes for a thing of beauty is a joy forever?
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It's like covers an entire page,
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and it's like, you know, he's crossing this out
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and that out, and he has to go.
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His consciousness is, his conscious mind is working on it.
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But, so I do think it's a partnership.
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And I think that, I know when I was first starting out
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as a writer, I worked in advertising,
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and I tried to do novels that I could never do.
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I was like, really unskilled at getting to that,
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tuning into that station.
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I just, I beat my brains out and was unable to do it,
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you know, except in,
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because I was sort of trying too hard,
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it was sort of like a Zen monk or a monk of some kind
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trying to meditate and just like constantly thoughts
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driving you crazy.
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But over time, you know, knock wood,
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I've kind of gotten better at it.
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And I can sort of let go of those,
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that part of me that's trying so hard.
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And so these angels can speak a little more easily
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through the membrane.
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Can you put into words the process of letting go
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and clearing that channel of communication?
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What does it take?
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That's another great question.
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For me, it just took, it took probably 30 years.
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And I don't even, I guess I would liken it to meditation,
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even though I'm not a meditator.
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But it would seem to me to be one of the hardest things
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in the world to just sit still and stop thinking, right?
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And so it's very hard to put into words.
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And I think that's why these teachers of meditation
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use tricks and koans and stuff like that.
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But for me, at least, I think it was just a process
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of years of years and years of trying,
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and finally beating my head in the wall.
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And finally, little by little giving up
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the beating of the head.
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But there doesn't seem to be any trick.
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Everybody wants a hack these days.
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And I don't think there is a hack.
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If you look at it in terms of the goddess, the muse,
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she's watching you down there,
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beating your head in the wall.
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You're like a Marine going through an obstacle course,
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or a martial artist trying to learn,
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like Uma Thurman doing the casket deal,
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trying to make that little four inch punch, you know?
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The muse or the goddess is just sort of watching,
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going, it's Lex, he's trying, he's trying.
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I'm gonna come back in another couple of months
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and see if he's still there.
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And finally, she'll say, all right, he's had it,
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he's paid his dues, I'm gonna give it to him.
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So, the hard work and the suffering, yeah.
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But I'm also, being Russian, in wrestling and martial arts,
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we're big into drilling technique.
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I was also just even getting at,
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certainly there's no shortcut.
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But is there a process?
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So you're, that can be, the process of practice.
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One, you had an example of meditation.
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So it's essentially the practice of meditation.
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Is you sitting here?
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I think a lot of drill, I think,
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is a good way to look at it too.
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But what are you drilling?
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You're just sitting and?
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You're writing, you know?
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You're writing, then you're looking at what you wrote,
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You're hitting moments when it flows, you know?
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And then your other hitting moments
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where you just can't do anything.
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And you're trying to, from the moments where it flowed,
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you're trying to come back and look at it and say,
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How did that happen?
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Where was my mind, you know?
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But I think it's just a process of over and over
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and over and over until finally it gets a little bit easier.
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And did you always, when you read something you write,
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did you always have a pretty good radar
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for what's good and not after it's written?
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But no, it was always really hard
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for me to know what was good.
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I mean, do you edit, the process of editing
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is the process of looking at what you've written
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Are you a better writer or an editor?
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How often do you edit?
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That's another great question.
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Cause I do think that in writing,
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the real process of looking at it
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is the process that an editor does
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rather than what a writer does.
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The gentleman I was just talking to on the phone
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is my editor, Sean Coyne,
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who was the guy who bought Gates of Fire
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when he was an editor at Doubleday.
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And who basically when I finish a book, I give it to him.
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And he gives me, you know,
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editing doesn't really mean like crossing out commas.
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It really means looking at the overall work
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and saying, does it work?
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And if it doesn't work, why doesn't it work?
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Is there something wrong here?
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You know, like if you were building the Golden Gate Bridge,
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you know, and one span was out of whack, you know,
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you could, and I think a really skilled editor,
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which Sean is, understands what makes a story tick.
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And he also has the perspective that I've lost
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in something I've wrote, cause I'm so close to it,
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to say, you know, this isn't working and that is working.
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What kind of advice has he given you?
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Is it like layout?
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Like this story doesn't flow correctly.
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Like you shouldn't start at this point.
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Or does he even sit back at a higher level and say,
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I see what you're doing, but you could do better.
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No, he doesn't do that.
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But a lot of it is about genre
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and kind of the defining what genre you're working in.
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And I'm gonna get up here to just bring something over here
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This was one where Sean tore this down
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and made me start from scratch.
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And what the specifics of it were really,
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this is a supernatural thriller.
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Sort of like Rosemary's Baby or The Exorcist.
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And what he showed me was that I had violated
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certain conventions of the genre.
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And you just can't do that.
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It's gotta be, it has to be done the right way.
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And so he pointed out certain things to me.
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So he must be a prolific reader himself too, actually.
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That's such a tough job of editor.
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Again, he was sort of born to do that.
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He just kind of glommed onto it.
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But since he was his first job publishing
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cat thrillers, cat detective books,
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he studied how it works, what makes a story work,
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et cetera, et cetera.
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And so he really, he's great.
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And I think any really successful writer,
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unless they're utterly brilliant on their own,
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has gotta have a great editor behind them.
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But you yourself edit as well.
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I'm constantly trying to learn from him and teach myself.
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Everything you see in my blog posts
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that it's about the craft of writing
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is me trying to teach myself the rules
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so that, I'm sure it's the same in martial arts
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or anything else, right?
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You try to not be dependent on that other person
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because it's so painful to make those mistakes.
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You really feel like, ah, I wish I could get it right
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the first time the next time I do it.
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Well, in research, we go through that.
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In research more than writing,
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so what you do is a little more solitary.
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In research, there's usually two, three, four people
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working on something together and we write a paper.
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And there's that painful process of where you write it down
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and then you share it with other.
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And not only do they criticize the writing,
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they criticize the fundamental aspects
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of the approach you've taken.
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So it's exactly like they would say you're attacking,
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you're asking the wrong questions, right?
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And that's extremely painful, especially when you,
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well, yes, painful and helpful,
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but there's disagreement and so on.
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And through that comes out a better product.
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And if you want to still have an ego,
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but you also want to silence it every once in a while,
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so there's a balance.
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In your book, The War of Art,
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you talk about resistance, what the capital R,
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as the invisible force in this universe of ours
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that finds a way to prevent you from starting
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or doing the work.
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Where do you think resistance comes from?
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Why is there a force in our mind
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that's constantly trying to jeopardize our efforts
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with laziness, excuses, and so on?
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That's another great question.
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I mean, in Jewish mysticism, in Kabbalistic thinking,
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it's called the yetzer hurrah, right?
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And it's a force that if this up here is your soul
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of Neshama trying to talk to you, us down here,
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the yetzer hurrah is this negative force in the middle.
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So I'm not the only one that ever thought about this.
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But, and I don't know if anybody really knows the answer,
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but here's my answer.
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I think that there are two places
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where we as human beings can see our identity.
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One is the ego, the conscious ego,
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and the other is the greater self.
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And the self in the Jungian sense,
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the self in the Jungian sense includes the unconscious
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and butts up against what Jung called the divine ground,
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which what I would call the muse, the goddess, or whatever.
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And I think, and the ego is just this little dot
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inside this bigger self.
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And the ego has a completely different view of life
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The ego believes, I'm gonna give you a long answer here.
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The ego believes that death is real.
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The ego believes that time and space are real.
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The ego believes that each one of us
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is separate from the other.
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I'm separate from you.
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If I could punch you in the face and it wouldn't hurt me,
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it would only hurt you.
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And in the ego's world, the dominant emotion is fear
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because we were all made of flesh.
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We can all be hurt.
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We can all be ruined.
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So we are protecting ourselves
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and even our desire to create,
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as we were talking about before,
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comes out of that fear of death.
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The self, on the other hand,
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the greater self that butts up against the divine ground
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believes that death is not real,
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that time and space are not real,
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that the gods travel swift as thought.
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And the ego also believes that,
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I mean, the self believes that there's no difference
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between you and me, that we're all one.
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If I hurt you, I hurt myself, karma, right?
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And in the world of the self, of the greater self,
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the dominant emotion is love, not fear.
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Now, so I think that, I'll go farther back here,
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a long way to answer your question.
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When Jesus died on the cross,
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or when the 300 Spartans willingly sacrificed their lives
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at Thermopylae, they were acting
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according to the rules of the self.
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Death is not real.
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No difference between you and me.
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Time and space are not real.
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Predominant emotion is love.
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So, in my opinion,
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we as conscious human vessels
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are in a struggle between these two things,
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the ego and the self.
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To me, resistance is the voice of the ego saying,
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and it's a fearful voice,
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because if, when we identify with the self,
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we move our consciousness over to the self
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as artists or scientists opening ourselves up
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to the cosmic dimension, to the other forces,
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the ego is tremendously threatened by that.
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Because if we're in that space, that head space,
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we don't need the ego anymore.
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So I think resistance is a voice of the ego
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trying to keep control of us.
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In a way, I'll give you a bad example, Trump is the ego.
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That's probably a very good example, right?
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It's a zero sum world for him,
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and for anybody that's in that.
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And the opposite of that would be somebody
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like Martin Luther King or Gandhi.
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And that's, of course, why they all wind up
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getting assassinated.
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Because that voice, that ego, is hanging on to itself
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and feels so threatened by,
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I could talk more about this if you want to.
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No, for sure, that's fascinating.
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It's just, it's interesting why the fear is attached
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I really like this dichotomy of ego and self
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and that struggle.
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It's just, ego has a, the self obsession of it.
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Why fear is such a predominant thing?
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Why is resistance trying to undermine everything?
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It's fear, it's out of fear.
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Let's think about the whole thing in terms of stories.
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In a story, the villain is always resistance,
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is always the ego.
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The hero is always, of course, always is not everything,
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but you know what I mean?
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Pretty much represents kind of the self.
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If you think about the alien on the spaceship,
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that's like the ultimate kind of villain.
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It keeps changing form, right?
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First it goes on the guy's face,
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then it pops out of his chest,
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but it always just has that one monomaniacal thing
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to destroy, you know?
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And just like the ego, just like resistance.
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And maybe alien is a bad example
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because Sigourney Weaver has to sort of fight
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on the same terms as the alien,
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but maybe a better example might be
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something like Casablanca,
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where in the end, the Humphrey Bogart character
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has to, acting, operating out of the self,
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has to give up his selfish dream
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of going off with Ingrid Bergman,
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Neil Salon, the love of his life,
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and instead, you know, puts her on the plane to Lisbon
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while he goes off to fight the Nazis in the desert.
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I don't know if that's clear,
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but in almost every story,
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the villain is the ego, is resistance, is fear,
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is that zero sum thing.
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And in almost every story,
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the hero is someone that is willing to make a sacrifice
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It's letting go of that fear
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is what leads to productivity and to success.
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Do you think there's a,
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this is probably the answer is either obvious or impossible,
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but do you think there's an evolutionary advantage
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Like, what would life look like without resistance?
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That's another great question.
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I think, I also believe that resistance, like death,
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gives meaning to life.
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If we didn't have it, it's gonna be, you know,
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We'd be in the Garden of Eden,
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picking fruit and just happy and stupid, you know?
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And I do think that that myth of the Garden of Eden
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is really about this kind of thing, you know,
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where Adam and Eve decide to sort of take matters
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into their own hands and acquire knowledge
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that until then, God had said,
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I'm the only one that's got that knowledge.
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And of course, once they have acquired that knowledge,
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they're cast out into the world you and I live in now,
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where they do have to deal with that fear
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and they do have to deal with all that stuff.
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The human condition.
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The human condition and the meaning and the purpose comes
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from the resistance being there
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and the struggle to overcome it.
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To overcome it, right.
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And also the other aspect of it is that
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it's not real at all.
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It's not even like it's an actual force.
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It's all here, right?
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in a way, it's sort of a surrender to it, you know?
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You know, or it's just a sort of like turning on the light
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It's like, oh, it's gone.
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But not quite because it's never really.
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Because it comes back again tomorrow morning.
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So you have to keep changing light bulbs every day.
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So what's been, maybe recently, but in general,
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maybe in your life, what's been the most relentless
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or one of the more relentless sources of resistance
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to you personally?
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I mean, it's always the same.
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It's about writing for me
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and evolving within my own body of work, you know?
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It never goes away, it never gets any less.
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Do you have particular excuses,
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particular justifications that come out?
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No, it's always the same.
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Well, I would say it's always the same,
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but it's really not because resistance is so protean,
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you know, it keeps changing form.
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And as you move to hopefully a higher level,
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resistance gets a little more nuanced
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and a little more subtle trying to fake you out.
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But I think you learn that it's always there
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and you're always gonna have to face it, so.
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I mean, your battle is sitting down
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and writing to some number of words to a blank page.
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Do you have a process there with this battle?
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Do you have a number of hours that you put in?
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Yeah, I'm definitely a believer
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that even though this battle is fought
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on the highest sort of spiritual level,
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that the way you fight it is on the most mundane,
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I'm sure it's like martial arts, must be the same way.
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I mean, I go to the gym first thing in the morning
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and I sort of am rehearsing myself.
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The gym is called resistance training, right?
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You're working against resistance, right?
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And I don't wanna go, I don't wanna get out of bed,
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I hate that, but I'm sort of fortifying myself
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to be ready for the day.
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And like I said, over Knockwood, over years,
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I've learned to sort of get into the right kind of mindset
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and it's not as hard for me as it used to be.
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The real resistance, I think, for me,
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and I think this is true for anybody,
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is the question of sort of what's the next idea?
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What's the next book?
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What's the next project that you're gonna work on?
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And when I ask that question, I'm asking it of the muse.
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I'm kind of saying, what do you want me,
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or I'm asking it of my unconscious.
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If we're looking at Bruce Springsteen's albums,
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it's kind of, well, what's the next album?
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Now he's on Broadway.
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That was a great idea, right?
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Where'd that come from, you know?
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But, and then for him, what's after that, you know?
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Because that body of work is already alive.
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It already exists inside us,
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kind of like a woman's biological clock,
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and we have to serve it.
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And we have to, otherwise it'll give us cancer, you know?
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I don't mean to say that if anybody has cancer
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that they're not, you know what I mean?
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It'll take its revenge on us.
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So the next resistance to me is sort of,
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or a big aspect of it is, what's next?
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You know, when I finish the book I'm working on now,
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I'm not sure what I'm gonna do next.
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And I see at the same time you have a kind of,
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you have a sense that there's a Bruce Springsteen
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single line of albums.
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So like, it's already known somewhere in the universe
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what you're going to do next, is the sense you have.
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I don't know if it's predetermined, you know?
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But there's something like that.
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Yeah, I'd like to believe that there's,
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well, it's kind of like quantum mechanics, I guess.
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Once you observe it, maybe once you talk to the muse,
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it's one thing for sure.
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It was always going to be that one thing.
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But really, in reality, it's a distribution.
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It could be any number of things.
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There's alternate realities.
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Alternate realities, yeah.
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But they're not that far apart.
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I mean, Bruce Springsteen is not gonna write
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a Joni Mitchell song, you know?
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No matter how hard he tries.
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But he still went on Broadway.
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I mean, he still did that,
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which is not a Bruce Springsteen thing to do.
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So I think you're being, in retrospect,
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it all makes sense. I think it is
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a Bruce Springsteen thing to do.
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It's a next sort of evolution for him.
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Why not take his music to there, you know?
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In retrospect, it all makes perfect sense, I think.
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If you pull it off, especially.
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Do you visualize yourself completing the work?
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Like, Olympic athletes visualize getting the gold medal.
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Do you, you know, they go through,
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I mean, that's actually a really,
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you can learn something from athletes on that,
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certainly two, three years out,
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some people do much longer,
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every day, you visualize how the day
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of the championship will go down to,
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I mean, everything, down to how will it feel
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to stand on the podium and so on.
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Do you do anything like that
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in how you approach writing?
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Because it's. It's always in the moment.
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Because, yeah, it is in the moment, I think.
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Because it's such a mystery.
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You just don't know.
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I think it's different from sports.
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Because you don't know the destiny.
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There's no gold medal at the end.
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In fact, I would like to think that
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as soon as you finish one,
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the next day you're on the other.
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And in fact, hopefully you've already started the other.
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You're already, you know, 100 pages into the other
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when you finish the first one.
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But it is a, it is a,
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it's a journey, it's a process.
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I don't think it is a,
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in fact, I think it's very dangerous to think that way.
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To think, oh, this, I'm gonna win the Oscar, you know?
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For the creative process, it might be dangerous.
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It's a, maybe you can, like, why is that dangerous?
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Because I kind of know where you're coming from.
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Because it's the ego.
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Because you're giving yourself over to the ego.
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You know, I keep saying this myself.
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My job, I'm a servant of the muse.
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I'm there to do what she tells me to do.
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And if I suddenly think, oh, I'm really,
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I just wanna, you know, whatever,
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the muse doesn't like that.
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And, you know, and she's on another dimension from me.
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I'm trying to square that, because I agree.
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I'm trying to square that with the,
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I think there's a meditation to visualizing success
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in the athletic realm, to where it focuses,
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it removes everything else away,
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to where you focus on this particular battle.
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I mean, I think that you can do that in many kinds of ways.
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And in sports, the ego serves a more important role,
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I think, than it does in writing.
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And the ego, there's something.
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Well, let me, when you say that,
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I know what you mean, Lex, and I do think there is
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a sort of a, you know, it's interesting to watch interviews
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with Steph Curry, who's such, obviously such a nice guy,
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but he's got such tremendous self confidence,
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you know, that it, but it doesn't border on ego so much
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because he's worked so hard for it, you know?
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But he knows, so he has visualized.
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He has visualized maybe not so much winning, you know,
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as just him being the best he can be,
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him being in the flow, you know,
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doing his thing that he knows he can do.
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And I do think in the creative world,
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yeah, there is a sort of a thing like that,
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where you, where, and, you know,
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a choreographer or a filmmaker or whatever
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might be, do an internal thing where they're saying,
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I can make an Oscar winning movie.
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I can direct this movie.
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You know, I'm banishing these thoughts
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that I'm not good enough.
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I can, you know, bump it, bump it, bump.
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But, and I don't think that's really ego.
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I think that's part of the process in a good way,
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like an athlete does that.
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So extreme confidence is what some of the best athletes
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come with, and you think it's possible to,
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as a writer, to have extreme confidence in yourself?
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I do think so, you know, that I'm sure
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when John Lennon sat down to write a song,
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he felt like, shit, I can do this, you know?
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I think, because the great artists I've seen,
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and you're haunted by self doubt.
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It's that resist, I mean, the confidence.
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Yes, but I mean, I guess, but even beyond the self,
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within the self, above the self doubt.
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Oh, it's the bigger picture of the self belief, you know?
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Yeah, I'm freaking out.
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Yeah, I'm worried that I'm not gonna be able to do it.
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But, you know, I know I can do this.
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Yeah, and when you look at,
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when you take a bigger picture of it.
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So the writing process, is it fundamentally lonely?
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No, because you're with your characters.
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So you really put yourself in the world.
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Absolutely, you know, I've written about this before
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that I used to, my desk used to face a wall
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instead of seeing, and people would say,
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well, don't you wanna look out the window?
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But I'm in here, I mean, I'm seeing, you know,
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the Spartans, I'm seeing, you know, whatever.
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And the characters that are on the page,
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or that you create, are not accidents, you know?
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They're coming out of some issue,
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some deep issue that you have.
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Whether you realize it or not,
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you might not realize it till 20 years later,
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or somebody explains it to you.
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So your characters are kind of fascinating to you.
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And their dilemmas are fascinating to you.
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And you're also trying to come to grips with them,
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you know, you sort of see them through a glass darkly,
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you know, and you really wanna see them more clearly.
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So yeah, no, it's not lonely at all.
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In fact, I'm more lonely sometimes later,
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going out to dinner with some people
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and actually talking to people.
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Do you miss the characters after it's over?
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Let's say I have affection for them,
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kind of like children that have gone off to college
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and now are, you know, you only see them at Thanksgiving.
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Definitely, I have affection for them, even the bad guys.
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Maybe especially the bad guys.
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Especially the bad guys.
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You've said that writers, even successful writers,
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are often not tough minded enough.
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I've read that in the post,
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that you have to be a professional
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in the way you handle your emotions.
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You have to be a bit of a warrior to be a writer.
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So what do you think makes a warrior?
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Is a warrior born or trained in the realm,
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in the bigger realm, in the realm of writing,
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in the creative process?
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I think they're born to some extent.
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You have the gift, like you might have the gift
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as a martial artist to do whatever martial artists do,
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but the training is the big thing.
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90% training, 10%, 10% genetics.
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And, you know, I use another analogy other than warrior
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as far as writer, and that's like to be a mother.
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If you think about, if you're a writer
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or any creative person, you're giving birth to something,
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right, you're carrying a new life inside you.
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And in terms of bravery,
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if your child, your two year old child
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is underneath a car that's coming down the street,
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the mother's gonna like stop a Buick,
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you know, with her bare hands.
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So that's another way to think about
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how a writer has to think about,
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or any creative person has to think about,
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I think, what they're doing,
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what this child, this new creation
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that they're bringing forth.
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Yeah, so the hard work that's underlying that.
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I've just, a couple weeks ago, talked to,
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just happened to be in the same room,
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both gave talks, Arianna Huffington.
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I did this conversation with her.
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I didn't know much about her before then,
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but she has recently been, she wrote a couple books
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and been promoting a lifestyle
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where she basically, she created the Huffington Post,
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and she gave herself like, I don't know,
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20 hours a day just obsessed with her work.
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And then she fainted, passed out,
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and kind of, there was some health issues.
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And so she wrote this book saying that, you know, sleep,
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basically you wanna establish a lifestyle
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that doesn't sacrifice health,
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that's productive but doesn't sacrifice health.
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She thinks that you can have both,
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productivity and health.
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Criticizing Elon Musk, who I've also spoken with,
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for working too hard,
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and thereby sacrificing, you know,
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being less effective than he could be.
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So I'm trying to get this balance between health
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and obsessively working at something
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and really working hard.
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So what Arianna is talking about makes sense to me,
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but I'm a little bit torn.
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To me, passion and reason do not overlap much
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or at all sometimes.
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Maybe I'm being too Russian,
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but I feel madness and obsession does not care for health
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or sleep or diet or any of that.
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And hard work is hard work,
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and everything else can go to hell.
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So if you're really focused on whether it's writing a book,
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it should, everything should just go to hell.
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Where do you stand on this balance?
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How important is health for productivity?
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How important is it to sort of get sleep and so on?
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I'm on the health side.
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I mean, there was a period of my life
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when I was just, I had no obligations
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and I was just living in a little house
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and just working nonstop, you know?
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But even then I would get up in the morning
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and I would have liver and eggs for breakfast every day,
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and I would do my, you know, exercise, whatever it was.
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But although I was still doing like 18 hours a day,
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but I'm definitely, I kind of think of it
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sort of like an athlete does.
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I'm sure that like Steph Curry is totally committed
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to winning championships and stuff like that.
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But he has his family, he sees his family,
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you know, the family is always there.
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He, I'm sure he eats, you know, perfect, great stuff,
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gets his sleep, you know, gets the training,
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you know, the whatever a trainer does to him
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for his knees and his ankles and whatever.
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So I, or Kobe Bryant or anybody
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that's operating at a high level.
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So I do think I'm from that kind of the health school.
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The good thing about being a writer
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is you can't work very many hours a day.
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You know, four hours is like the maximum I can work.
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I've never been able to work more than that.
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I don't know how people do it.
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I've heard of people do 10, 12, I don't know how they do it.
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So that gives you a lot of other time to do it.
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Optimize your health.
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Yeah, to optimize your health.
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Because you need to, you're in training, you know?
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You're really, you're burning up a lot of B vitamins
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when you're working here, aren't you?
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Maybe it's a Russian thing with you, Lex.
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Well, it's not even a Russian thing.
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It also may be youth, you know?
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At 35, you can be crazy.
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You know, that's the thing, they keep telling me,
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but I'm pretty sure I'll be added still at a later time too.
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I think it has to do with the career choice too.
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I think writing is almost, from everything I've heard,
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it's almost impossible to do it
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more than a few hours really well.
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When you start to get into certain disciplines,
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like with Elon Musk and me, engineering disciplines,
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that really there's a lot more non muse time needed.
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Right, right, right.
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So the crazy hours that you often are talking about
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have to be done, and it doesn't.
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I think that's true.
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Yeah, so there's still the two, three hours of muse time
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needed for truly genius ideas,
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but it's something I certainly struggle with.
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But yeah, I hear you loud and clear on the health.
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So what does a perfect day look like for you
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if we're talking about writing?
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An hour by hour schedule of a perfect day.
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I get up early, I go to the gym,
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I have breakfast with some friends of mine.
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What's early by the way?
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Let's, like how early?
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So we're talking really early.
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Now I'm crazy early, it's ridiculously early.
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But, and I haven't done that always,
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but that's kind of what I'm on now.
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So I'm in bed, like when I'm with my nephews
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that are like four years old and three years old,
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I'm in bed before them.
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Okay, you got a beat.
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You wake up, sorry, you said exercise first.
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And what does that look like?
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What's exercise for you?
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You go out to the gym?
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I have a trainer, I have a couple of guys
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that I work out with, and I'll, you know,
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it's maybe an hour, maybe a little more.
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I'll do a little warmup before stretching afterwards,
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take a shower, go have breakfast.
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But it's an intense kind of a thing
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that I definitely don't wanna do that's hard, you know?
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So you feel like you've accomplished something, first thing.
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That's a big accomplishment of the day.
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At the same time, it's not like so hard
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that I'm completely exhausted, you know?
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And then I'll come home and handle whatever correspondence
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and stuff has to be done, and then I work
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for maybe three hours, and then I just sort of crash.
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The office is closed, I turn the switch,
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I don't think about anything.
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I don't think about the work at all.
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Do you listen to, oh, you mean afterwards?
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After work, once the office is closed.
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But during, so this was like 12 to three kind of thing?
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Something like that, yeah.
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Something like that, okay.
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You listen to music?
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Do you have anything?
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But that's just me, I mean, I don't think, you know,
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but somebody could do it a million different ways.
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It's fascinating, you know, the,
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I mean, you've also, of most, of many writers,
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you've really, but like I've read Stephen Kington writing,
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you've optimized this conversation
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with the muse you're having.
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Not optimized, but you've at least thought about it.
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So what's, can you say a little bit more
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about the trivialities of that process,
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of the, like you said, facing the wall?
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What's, do you have little rituals?
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You mean like the granular aspect of it?
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The granular aspects, yeah.
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I do have little rituals, I do have all kinds of,
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which I'm not even gonna tell you about.
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But the one thing,
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and I don't wanna like talk about this too much
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because it sort of jinxes things, I think,
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but the one thing I do try to do is when I sit down,
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I immediately get into it, first, second.
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I don't sit and fuck around with anything.
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I immediately try to get into it as quickly as I can.
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The other thing is that writing a book
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or screenplay or anything like that
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is a process of multiple drafts.
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And it's the first draft
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that's where you're most with the muse,
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where you're going through the blank page.
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Like right now I'm on, I don't know what,
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the fifth or sixth, seventh draft
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of the thing I'm working on.
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So I've got pages already written
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and I'm kind of reading them afresh
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as I go through the story.
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So it's not quite where I am now.
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It's not quite a deep muse scenario, partly it is,
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but it's also sort of bouncing back and forth
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between the different,
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between the right brain and the left brain.
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I'm kind of looking at it
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and trying to evaluate it.
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And then I'm going into it
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and try to change it a little bit.
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And when, do you know,
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sit down and get right into it,
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do you know the night before
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of what that starting point is?
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I always try to stop.
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And I learned this,
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I think Hemingway wrote about this
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or John Steinbeck or one of the,
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or maybe both of them,
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to always stop when you kind of know what's coming next.
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So you're not at a facing a chasm, you know?
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Okay, so and afterwards when you're done,
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the office is closed.
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The office is closed,
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I let the muse take care of it, you know?
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And I don't want to,
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and I think it's a very unhealthy thing
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to worry about it or think about any creative process.
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You don't, like on a long walk later, think about?
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Yeah, then I will sort of keep my mind open to it,
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but I won't be like obsessing about it.
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Because actually on walks,
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sometimes things will pop in your head, you know,
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and you'll go, oh, I should change that.
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But that's not your ego doing it,
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that's the deeper level.
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Okay, so how does the day end?
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So go. In terms of writing?
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So yeah, the writing, well no,
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the writing, the office door closes
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and then the rest of the day just do whatever the hell.
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Maybe go out to dinner,
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my girlfriend is not here now,
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she's in New York working,
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we'll make dinner or whatever.
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Go out to dinner, something like that,
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and maybe I'll read something, nothing heavy.
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And I go to bed pretty early,
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and the gym is a big thing for me.
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I'll already, sort of probably like with you
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with martial arts, the night before,
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I'll be visualizing what I have to do the next day
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and getting myself psyched up for that.
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And then I'll just conk out like a light
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and wake up at the crack of dawn.
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Okay, so looking out into the future,
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this year, next few years,
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what do you think the muse has in store for you?
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I don't think you can ever know.
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It's probably something along the same,
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I really believe there's that exercise
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where they say to you,
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visualize yourself five years in the future
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and write a letter from that person to yourself.
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I don't believe in that at all
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because I don't think you can,
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there's a line out of Africa
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that God made the world round
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so that we couldn't see too far ahead.
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You just don't know as a writer or as a person,
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I never knew, my first book was A Legend of Bag of Ants.
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I hadn't, before that happened,
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I had no clue that I was gonna be writing anything like that
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on that subject, anything at all, no clue,
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until it just sort of came.
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And then when that was done,
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people said, well, you gotta write another one.
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I had no idea what it was,
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which was gonna be Gates of Fire, no clue.
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So if somebody had sat me down at the start of that
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and asked the question,
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I would have been crazy to have said it.
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So I just hope as the future unfolds,
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that I'm open to it.
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Well, I think I speak for a lot of people
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in saying that we look forward to what that future looks like.
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Stephen, thank you so much for talking today, it was fun.
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You got the best job in the world going around
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talking to people that you wanna talk to
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and that they will talk to you.
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So thank you for doing it.
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Hey, thank you for the great questions you made me think.
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I've certainly a bunch of questions
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I've never ever answered before.
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Awesome, thank you so much.
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So thanks a lot, great.
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And now let me leave you with some words
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from Stephen Pressfield.
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Are you paralyzed by fear?
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That's a good sign.
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Like self doubt, fear is an indicator.
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Fear tells us what we have to do.
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Remember one rule of thumb,
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the more scared we are of a work or a calling,
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the more sure we can be that we have to do it.
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Thank you for listening and hope to see you next time.