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I mean, I've definitely experienced moments
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where I didn't want to do anything but chess.
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I'd also say that's pretty universal.
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I think if you want to be the best at anything you do
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or any sport, you have to be that level of obsessed.
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The following is a conversation
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with Alexandra and Andrea Botez.
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They're sisters, professional chess players,
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commentators, educators, entertainers, and streamers.
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Their channel is called Botez Live on Twitch and YouTube.
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I highly recommend you check it out.
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A small side note about the currently ongoing controversy
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in the chess world, where the 19 year old grandmaster,
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Hans Niemann, beat Magnus Carlsen at the Sink Field Cup.
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After this, Magnus, for the first time ever,
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withdrew from the tournament, implying with a tweet
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that there may have been cheating
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or at least something shady going on.
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Folks like the grandmaster, Hikaru Nakamura,
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fanned the flames of cheating accusations,
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and the internet made a bunch of proposals
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on how the cheating could have been done,
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and it ranged from the ridiculous to the hilarious,
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Hans himself came out and said that he has cheated before
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when he was 12 and 16 on random online games
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to jack up his rating.
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But he said that he has never cheated in person
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Danny Wrench from chess.com, who I've spoken with,
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may make a statement in response to Hans's claims soon.
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Folks like grandmaster Jakob Luegge
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spoke to his experience training Hans Niemann
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and has said that his memory and intuition
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were quite brilliant.
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So as you see, there's a lot of perspectives on this.
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ChessBase has a good summary of the saga
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that I'll link in the description.
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Also note that this is so quickly moving
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that new stuff might come out between me recording this
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and publishing the episode,
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but I thought I'd mention this anyway
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since the episode with the Botas sisters
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is a conversation about chess
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and was recorded shortly before the controversy,
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so we didn't talk about it.
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I'm considering having Hans on this podcast
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and also Magnus back on the podcast,
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and maybe others like Hikaru
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or folks from chess.com's anti cheat staff
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to discuss their really interesting
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cheating detection algorithms,
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but I may also just stay out of it.
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I find chess to be a beautiful game
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and the chess community
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full of fascinating, brilliant people,
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and so I'll keep having conversations like these
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My goal with this podcast and in general as a human being
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is to increase the amount of love in the world.
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Sometimes that involves celebrating brilliance and beauty
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in science, in art, in chess.
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Sometimes it involves empathetic conversations
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with controversial figures that seek to understand,
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Sometimes it involves standing against
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the internet lynch mob,
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as the ChessBase article calls it,
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to hear the story of a human being who is under attack,
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even if it means I get attacked in the process as well.
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This is the Lex Friedman podcast.
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To support it, please check out our sponsors
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in the description,
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and now, dear friends,
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here's Alexandra and Andrea Botas.
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You just got back from Italy.
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What's the most memorable thing?
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I was just there recently as well.
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It was very chaotic because we went out on a whim
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and we only had our first hotel booked,
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and then we rented a car and drove around all of the cities
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and went to like five different cities
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in about a week and a bit.
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So I think it was just the variety
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of seeing so many different places
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when we're used to being at home all the time,
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and Andrea, is yours your luggage?
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Yeah, I would say it was the most stressful vacation
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we've been in in our life,
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and it was a valuable learning lesson
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because now I know how to be prepared for trips,
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but we lost our bags and I never got them back.
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And like Alex said,
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we didn't know where we'd be sleeping every night
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and we're just driving through a new city
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with a giant van in the most narrowest streets
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and getting in many, many fights with Italian men.
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So it wasn't really a vacation.
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I saw this motion so many times.
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Wasn't it liberating to lose your baggage?
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Is it still the lining?
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It was liberating.
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My entire life, I've always had the issue of overpacking.
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And I told her before the trip,
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Andrea, you're gonna pack light, right?
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And then I see her stuffing her overweight suitcase.
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But you did the same.
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We both had giant, big extra baggage that we didn't need.
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And I'm actually very glad we lost it
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because for Venice, hauling that around on all the boats
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and through the tiny streets and there's no Ubers.
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And now it's the first time where I can travel
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without checking in a bag, which I've never done before.
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So now I've learned what it means to pack light
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because I saw that I could survive off of just my,
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this sounds very dramatic,
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but it was really a big learning lesson for me.
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The driving must've been crazy
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because driving in Italy is rough.
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The driving was crazy.
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I did most of it and it would be really interesting
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driving through places like Florence
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or even through the beach areas that were super windy
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because there are two way streets
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that should really only be one way.
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So you'd be driving this huge van
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and then another car comes on a cliff
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and you're just waiting for it to slowly pass.
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So it took all of my focus and concentration
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to drive well in Italy,
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but it was actually really relaxing
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because the hardest thing about making a lot of videos online
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is you're always thinking about it, what's coming next.
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And when we were in Italy,
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it was so chaotic that I did not think about work
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for a good week and a bit.
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Oh, cause you're just.
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I was just trying to keep us alive.
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It seemed higher priority.
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And that was kind of fun.
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It was kind of fun.
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No planning, nothing.
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I wouldn't recommend it or ever do that again, but.
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It sounds pretty awesome.
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And we even randomly ran into two friends of ours
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who were in the same city
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and we just traveled with them for about half of the trip.
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Yeah, so you just took on the chaos.
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Exactly, it was an adventure.
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Okay, and I see like,
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cause you were using your hands a lot.
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You picked up some of the Italian hand gestures.
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We did get yelled at by a lot of Italians.
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The old Italian grandmas would come to us after breakfast
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cause we'd leave something on the plate
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and she'd be like,
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you could feed an entire village with that.
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Tell your friends.
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And we'd feel so ashamed.
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Yeah, we got cursed out a lot,
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but it really reminded me of where we grew up and helped.
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Yeah, bring back those mechanisms.
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Where'd you grow up?
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but it was like an immigrant neighborhood.
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So, same if you don't finish your plate,
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that's disrespectful to the people who made the food.
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How was the food in Italy?
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I feel like the carbs thing is too intense.
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Yeah, I think very overrated in my opinion.
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So I'm actually not supposed to eat gluten
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cause I have an allergy,
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but I was in Italy and it's gluten galore.
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So I was actually eating a lot of it
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and it was very interesting
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cause I didn't get sick while I was in Italy,
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but I do while I'm in the US.
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So somehow the food was actually maybe more okay
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for me to digest, which I appreciated,
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but I didn't like it as much as I thought.
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Did you like the food there?
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Yeah, no, I did, I did.
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I love carbs, but it feels like Vegas
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when I go there for the food is like,
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if I stay here too long, I'm gonna do things I regret.
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That's what it feels like with the food.
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I don't know how to moderate
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and everybody is pushing very large portions
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and while kind of eating things on you,
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pasta, pizza and bread, so delicious.
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So yeah, I love it, but I regret everything.
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So it's like, I don't wanna go to a place
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where I'm going to regret everything I do
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for too long of a time.
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Yeah, surprisingly the people there though
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are still very fit and everyone stays in good shape,
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but that's probably because you're walking around all day
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and you're much more active than anyone.
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And they also just know how to moderate food.
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I think I've gotten used to the US way of eating.
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The US portions. What is that?
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Just a lot, always a lot and more.
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And I feel in the US food advertisements
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are also much more in your face
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and you're more often reminded of junk food
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than we were in Italy.
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So even though we were eating less healthy things,
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I think we were getting cravings
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and being pushed towards junk food less often.
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All right, I gotta ask you a hard question.
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So the romance languages.
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So I think French is up there as like number one.
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Number one in terms of?
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Who's ranking them?
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Oh, you guys speak Italian or no?
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Not Italian, but we studied French and Spanish in school.
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I feel like every country calls their language
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a romance language.
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But it's Romanian, French, Spanish, Portuguese.
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And I think there was one more that was like this dialect,
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but those are considered the romance languages.
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Okay, so where would you put Italian?
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I think we got yelled at so much in Italian
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that it's not gonna be a love word.
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So it wasn't working.
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It's on the bottom of the list
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cause people did not use it nicely to us.
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But I always really liked how French sounds.
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I think something about it where maybe Spanish
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actually sounds nicer to the ears,
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but French has more character and it feels more sultry.
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Yeah, that was my answer too.
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I feel like French, in France,
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I feel like I'm always being judged.
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Like they're better than me.
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That's what French.
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They are better than us.
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It's just so true.
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Which is why I long to belong to that.
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I like the British accent.
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The British accent?
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Actually, one thing we did on our Italian trip
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is we just picked up British accents
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for the entire trip for fun.
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And we forgot we were doing them
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to the point where we talked to British people
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and they'd ask us, why are you talking like that?
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We just couldn't stop.
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I did feel much more elegant and mature.
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People like, I don't know if they felt the same way
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about us, but it was more of the confidence.
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You do feel like you're more poised for sure.
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So how'd you guys get into chess?
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When did you first, let's say,
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when did you first fall in love with chess?
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So we both started playing when we were pretty young,
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around six years old.
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That's when our dad taught us.
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And I enjoyed playing chess
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because I had good results early on,
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but a lot of it was being pushed from my dad to play chess.
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And I only really started loving it
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when we moved from Canada and we started moving a lot
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and chess was the one stable thing that I had.
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And it was also where all of my friends were.
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So it was kind of that foundational thing for me.
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And that's when I started studying chess very intensely.
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And when I started putting in the hours out of my own will
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and not because I was being pushed by my dad,
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that's when I started really loving it.
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And I even wanted to take time off college
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to just focus on chess.
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So training and competing?
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Training and competing, yeah.
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It was when I was doing it for myself
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that I started getting my best results.
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And actually enjoying the thing.
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And really enjoying it, yeah.
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I would spend summer vacations studying for tournaments
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and my mom would come and say,
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"'You need to make friends, go leave the house."
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And I'd be like, no, I need to play chess.
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And I remember those moments.
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That you rebelled by playing chess, that's awesome.
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How did you get into it?
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Yeah, my experience with loving in high school
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is very opposite from Alex's, but right,
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my sister was playing and my dad taught me
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when I was also six. Andrea was cool
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in high school, unlike me.
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I wouldn't say cool, I'd say more balanced
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and I was interested in other hobbies.
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In my childhood, if I ever really did love chess,
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there's certainly moments about traveling
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and being together with my family
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and spending those moments together,
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but those are more the social and the experiences.
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But funny enough, I think my happiest moment
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where I really played the game for my own enjoyment
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was probably my most recent tournament.
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Because this was after, obviously, we've been streaming
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and I'm no longer in high school,
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but when I was in school, I was always playing for college
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and for the results, trying to build a resume.
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So I was too stressed out about the pressure
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to really enjoy the game.
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Whereas when I just played my first tournament,
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so it was after a two year break because of the pandemic
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and it was also all live on Twitch,
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so there was some pressure, but it was the first time
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that I was really eager to study for the game,
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sitting and focusing since we've been streaming
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and not getting distracted by something else.
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In years, like I said.
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And the tournament experience, I hit my highest rating
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and it was my best tournament ever.
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And I think most of that is because it came
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from my own enjoyment.
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So you didn't enjoy the domination?
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Because I think you did really well, right?
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This is like a couple months ago?
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Oh yeah, yeah, the tournament.
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Well, of course, I think the results came
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from enjoying the tournament.
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Because I would be in high school studying triple
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the amount of time, like six hours every day
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compared to this tournament, I didn't even prepare for it.
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And for three years, I wouldn't be able
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to pass one rating, whereas in this one tournament,
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I passed it by like 70 points without even any preparation.
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So it was, I think, as soon as you stopped worrying
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about the competitions, when the games get much better.
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What does it mean to pass a rating?
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So I was stuck at 1900.
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1900 is 100 points off of expert.
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Usually when you reach 2000, you're considered an expert,
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which is the rating Andrea was going for.
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Okay, expert, that's a technical term
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or that's like a talk and trash term?
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It's more of a colloquial term
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where if somebody is around a 2000
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and you're playing them in a tournament,
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they won't have the actual title next to their name,
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but you always say, I'm playing an expert.
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What about like the more official things like master?
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Does that have to do with the rating or something else?
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Yeah, so national master in the US is when you're 2200.
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Okay, and what's international master?
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International master is based off of a different system,
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the FIDE system, which is international.
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To be an international master, it's 2400
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and you have to have three international master norms.
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Yeah, I think Magnus said he's a 28, six something.
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And then he said, that's pretty decent.
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Well, he always talks a lot about that.
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But see the thing is, I think what he meant
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is that's a decent rating
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because it accurately captures his actual level.
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So it's not overinflated or underinflated and so on.
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And so the discussion there was how do you get to,
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can a human being get to 2900?
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And then he says, because my current rating
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is pretty decent at representing my skill level,
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it's gonna be a long road to actually get there.
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Because it's like, so you have to beat people
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at your same level, that's how the number increases.
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And you beat a bunch of people in the tournament, right?
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That are higher than your luck.
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I did, I got very lucky.
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I was playing, I was really nervous
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because my category was like 200 points above my rating.
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And of course, I was very rusty
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and I didn't play in a tournament in a while,
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but it went pretty well.
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Do you feel the pressure when you're actually recording it,
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like the streaming?
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It was definitely, so before every round I was vlogging
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and I was doing meet and greets
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and doing other things for the livestream.
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Yeah, I saw you do a meet and greet.
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You didn't know what the hell you were doing, it's great.
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Like what am I, how do I do this?
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It was actually really wholesome.
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The beginning was very silly
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because I was just not expecting
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that it was gonna be more of a seminar.
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I thought it was like, oh, you pose and take pictures,
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but they actually asked really nice, meaningful questions,
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but unfortunately it's bad for YouTube retention
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and we cut them all out, so.
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The good long form conversation.
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So it was like questions, Q and A type of thing.
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Exactly, you have to have very fast paced for YouTube
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and that seminar was not fast paced.
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Okay, well, not everything in life
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needs to be on YouTube, right?
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There's like two parallel things,
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stuff that's fun for YouTube.
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Yes, one day we'll post that Q and A.
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Yeah, when you guys like, when you become like ultra famous,
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you're currently just regular famous.
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And then they'll appreciate the long, slow content, yes.
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And that, the YouTube aspect, the creation aspect,
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does that add to the fun, ultimately,
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of the chess, of like your love of chess?
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Oh, for the love of chess in general
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or just for competing in that one tournament?
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No, love of chess in general.
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I think you said that for competing for that tournament
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is adding pressure.
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Yeah, but actually I would say like a good pressure,
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but yeah, this is where I differed to Alex
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because when I was just competitive and I was younger,
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I don't think I loved chess as much
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as when I started doing it for content
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because unlike her, who a lot of her friends
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and social circle were other chess players,
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I never really traveled
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and built really solid friendships through chess
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until I started streaming and meeting other chess streamers
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and actually playing and talking to people for fun
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rather than just always being alone in the game
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and never really meeting other people my age
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or people with similar interests.
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So I would say Twitch was the thing
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that really changed how I approached the game.
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I think with some YouTubers,
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there's a pressure to be almost somebody else.
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You create a persona and you're stuck in that persona.
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I think I'm too much of a boomer
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to know what the hell Twitch is anyway,
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but it feels like when you're actually live streaming,
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you can't help but be who you really are.
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I think it's, oh, well, I think when you're live streaming
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and I've talked to a lot of other streamers about this,
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you kind of just over exaggerate
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one side of your personality.
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And of course, it's kind of like being like on all the time.
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Like you're trying to be more entertaining
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and sometimes you're being silly at moments or more,
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you take what character traits like people know you for.
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And for me, one is being like ADHD
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and the younger sibling who's very energetic
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and causes trouble,
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even though sometimes it's a little switch.
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Yeah, I'm sure you cause trouble just for the camera.
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I think, yeah, I think,
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and of course, once you're live streaming
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for like four or five hours,
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there's gonna be moments in the stream where it's more chill,
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but especially when you're like editing that content
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or you're doing bigger streams that are shorter,
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you are kind of playing up a side of yourself
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because of course, there's a lot of parts of me
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that I don't show to the camera
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because they're not as entertaining to watch,
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like the more serious part.
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And also there's things that you are really interested in
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about what you do.
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Like I love competitive chess
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where I could sit and really think about it,
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but I know that that is not gonna be as entertaining
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I know that's not gonna be as entertaining for YouTube.
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So you kind of have to take what you like,
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but then really adapt it for whatever the format is.
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And sometimes that feels inauthentic,
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but other times it just feels like repackaging
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what you love for people
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in a more general audience to enjoy.
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Do you feel like it's a trap a little bit as you evolve?
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Like you're trapped in?
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Oh, I think social media, oh, sorry, go ahead.
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Social media in general is a trap of that kind?
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Well, so we've been trying to switch
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to learn how to make YouTube videos recently.
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And so much of learning YouTube school
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is kind of the beastification of content
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where you try to get to the point of the video
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within like the first 10 seconds to not lose people.
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The beastificate, you mean like Mr. Beast?
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Yeah, where it's so fast paced,
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there's a reason to wait, there's high stakes.
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And everything is created to keep people watching the video
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and keep people on the platform.
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And in some ways it is a trap
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because it's harder to do the kind of content you like
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because you really have to squeeze it to be like,
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okay, well, do we have a good thumbnail for this?
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Do we have a good title for this?
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And that's something that we're trying to figure out
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how to keep true to what we wanna do.
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Yeah, see, the way I think about it is,
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yeah, there's a lot of stuff you can create
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and yeah, the Mr. Beastification process.
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But also I think about what are the videos,
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conversations or things I will create in this life
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that will be the best thing I do.
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And I try not to do things in my life
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that will prevent me from getting there.
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I feel like if you're always focusing on doing kind of,
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optimizing the thumbnail in the 10 seconds and so on,
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you'll never do the thing that's truly you're known for
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and remembered for.
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So finding that balance is tricky.
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I get that, but at the same time,
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this might be my own copium,
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which I know is a word you know now.
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Yeah, I'm slowly learning the full complexity
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But the other way I think about it is,
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it is a skill to learn how to communicate
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with large audiences.
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And first I started streaming chess,
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which is something I just did and really loved,
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but now I have to learn how to translate that format.
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And if that's a skillset we could build,
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then we could use it to do really important things.
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And I've seen a lot of YouTubers
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who have done interviews about how,
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they didn't love the kind of content they did at first,
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but what they're doing right now is really meaningful.
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So I like to think of it, maybe like skill development,
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cause not everybody hits off podcasts
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where they can talk to super interesting people
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right off the bat.
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Yeah, you can be slow and boring in a podcast.
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You don't have to worry about the first 10 seconds.
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I mean, people like keep pushing me for,
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cause the first 10 seconds of the videos I do is,
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well, I know it's most important for YouTube,
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but I don't give a damn.
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I wrote a Chrome extension that hides
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all the views and likes.
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I don't look at the click through.
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I don't look at Twitch views, Andrea does.
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So we also can relate.
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I love numbers too, but that's why I don't look at it.
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Cause you become like, oh,
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you'll start to think that a conversation
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or I think you did sucks because it doesn't get views,
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but that's just not the case.
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YouTube algorithm is this monster that figures stuff out.
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And if you let it control your mind,
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I feel like it's going to destroy you creatively.
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So you have to find a nice balance.
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I have to say, I was laughing a little bit
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when I was listening to the Magnus episode
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and the first 10 minutes,
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you guys are talking about soccer, football.
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Two robots seem human in the conversation.
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I was like, let's have some fun,
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make conversation about non chess related topics.
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Yeah, talk about sports.
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Yeah, it was kind of hilarious.
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I was surprised that even at his level,
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I wasn't sure, but I was surprised how much he loves chess.
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It sounds cliche to say,
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but like the way he looked at a chess board,
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you know those memes like,
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I wish somebody looked at me the way he still like
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the way he glanced down and he reached for the pieces
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with excitement to show me something.
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There was, there wasn't like, okay, I'll show you.
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It was like, like there was still that fire.
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That's something that always shocks me
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about some of like super grandmasters.
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Like one of my coaches was a person who also,
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his name's GM Hammer of Norway.
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He also coached Magnus.
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He was his second and he was helping me train
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for my tournament.
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And I was kind of putting off doing the homework.
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He's like, if you're putting it off,
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that means you're studying the wrong thing.
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Like you should be enjoying even when you're practicing,
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which when I grew up, I thought to get to the top level,
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like practicing has to be hard and unpleasant.
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And when I was listening to Magnus episode,
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he was like, I didn't read books very much.
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Or there was one thing that you said
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that's like very normal for studying classical chess
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that he didn't do just because it didn't interest him.
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He says, I suck at puzzles.
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I don't like puzzles.
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Yeah, and he doesn't do what he doesn't enjoy.
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And that's because it's like purely driven out of passion.
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I think the internet was like, I suck at puzzles too.
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Yeah, they like that.
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They're grandmasters.
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I don't have to study at all.
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It's just, it's fun.
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And, but I think the lesson there that's really powerful
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is he spends most of the day thinking about chess
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because he wants to.
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So do whatever, if you're into getting better at chess,
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do whatever it takes to actually just the number of hours
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you spend a day thinking about chess, maximize that.
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If you're like super serious about it.
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I actually get very addicted
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whenever I start studying chess,
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which is why I don't do it as seriously
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when I'm focused on content.
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Cause I go through these rabbit holes
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where if I'm focusing on chess,
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I wanna be as good as I possibly can at the game.
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Otherwise it's hard for me to enjoy it
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cause it's such a competitive thing.
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And I remember training for tournaments
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and when you're training for tournaments,
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you even start dreaming about chess
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and you can stop thinking about it.
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And it's as if you're flipped
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into this completely different world,
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which is also what I like best about the game
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that it's a completely different living experience.
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And then you take some drugs
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and now you start to see things on the ceiling.
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Is there some factual hallucination
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like to the Queen's Gambit, like those scenes?
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Is that based on your life story?
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Well, I can't say that on camera.
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Actually chess players are very careful to not take drugs.
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They drink so much.
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It's actually crazy for how good they're able
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to play chess when they do.
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But when it comes to things like psychedelics
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or other things, they usually stay away from those
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cause they don't wanna mess anything up in their brain.
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So this is actually intervention.
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I saw that you mentioned somewhere,
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I think it was the lie detector test
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where you have a drinking problem.
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Is that an actual...
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I think that's actually a meme
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that we like to joke about on stream
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because occasionally we'd have like a white claw on stream
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or something like that.
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And then people meme about it.
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It goes back to Andrea's point
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of amplifying a part of your personality
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to make yourself a little bit more entertaining.
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I'm gonna use that as an excuse from now on.
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This podcast is just amplifying a part of that personality.
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I'm not really like this, but have you played drunk?
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Like Magnus has played drunk.
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He says it helps someone with the creativity.
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Is there any truth to that?
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Well, Andrea is under 21,
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so she's obviously would never do that.
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But I have played while drinking.
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Actually, I enjoy playing chess and drinking
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more than pre gaming or going out to a club and drinking,
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which sounds really silly.
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And I'll usually play against opponents
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who are also having some beer.
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And it does make you feel like you're seeing the game
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from a fresher perspective
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where it can sometimes make you feel more confident,
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liquid confidence, and it does help with creativity.
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You just feel like you could pull things off,
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but there's also a limit.
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It's more like you've had one drink or two drink,
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but then it goes beyond that.
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And then you just start missing tactics
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and it's not worth it.
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Yeah, I think it only helps players
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in very short time controls.
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One time I was challenging this grandmaster on stream
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and we were playing bullet chess,
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which is one minute chess.
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And I was giving him handicaps.
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And I said, okay, you have to take four shots
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before the next game.
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And he just got like 10 times stronger
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and transformed into like the Hulk
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and destroyed me more than the last game.
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But of course, if you're playing like a three hour game,
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it's gonna get old.
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But I think in short time controls, it's amazing.
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Yeah, definitely has to be blitz.
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It has to be where it's more intuition
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rather than sitting and calculating.
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This is probably like negatively affecting
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your ability to calculate.
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How much when you guys play,
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when you look at the chess board,
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how much of it is calculation?
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How much of it is intuition?
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How much of it is memorized openings?
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It really depends between short form chess.
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So five minutes, three minutes, one minute
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and classical chess.
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What's your favorite to play?
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I love playing blitz now because that's most of what I do.
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And that's actually how I got into chess streaming
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because I couldn't spend entire weekends
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or weeks playing tournaments.
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I would just, while I was in college, log on
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and play these long blitz or bullet sessions.
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And it's very fast.
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So you don't have time to go calculate as deeply.
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You basically have to calculate short lines pretty quickly.
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And a lot of it is pattern recognition and intuition.
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As three minutes, you said?
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Three minutes, yeah.
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And so for that, it's just basically intuition.
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A lot of it is intuition, yeah.
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See, I saw on streams you actually keep talking
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while playing chess.
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It seems really difficult.
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Yeah, that helps my result.
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That doesn't help my result.
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It doesn't, it hurts.
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It helps content, not the game.
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But you can still do it.
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Because it feels like how can you possibly concentrate
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It's because so much of it is intuition.
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You're not, while you're talking,
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you're thinking about that topic,
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but then you just come to the board
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and you just understand what you should be doing here.
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And then sometimes you get in trouble
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because you're talking and you have now lost
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half of your time.
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You have a minute and a half, your opponent has three,
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and you're kind of at a disadvantage.
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But that kind of goes to show
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that that's how blitz chess usually works,
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whereas classical is very different.
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Which of you is better at chess?
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I mean, let's do it this way.
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Can you, Andrea, can you say what,
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in which way is Alex stronger than you?
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Which way is she weaker than you?
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Not physically in terms of chess.
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Well, yes, of course she is higher rated.
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But when we do play, I think her strengths against me
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where she really gets me is the end game.
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She has stronger end game, so she can,
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and I actually have a stronger opening,
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but as soon as she's able to simplify.
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Andrea, I'm supposed to say what is good about you,
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You know, I'm getting there.
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Well, see, this is what I'm saying,
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because don't worry, it's related, okay?
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Because if I can get an advantage
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in the beginning of the game,
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but as soon as she starts trading pieces down,
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like my confidence drops,
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because I know that the end game
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is the hardest part of the game and the longest,
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and that's where she ends up beating me.
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So her end game is I think really what makes the difference.
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It sounds like her psychological warfare is better too,
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because if you're getting nervous.
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But it's harder to play against higher rated players,
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same how Magnus and former world champions
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have that psychological edge.
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So I think it's always going to be different for Andrea,
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because she knows statistically
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she should be winning something like one in four games,
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but she usually does better than that,
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because she's very distracting and talks a lot.
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What does it feel like to play a higher rated player?
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What's the experience of that?
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Playing somebody like Magnus.
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So it depends on how much higher rated than you they are.
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If it's someone who's like between me and Andrea,
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let's say it's a 200 point difference,
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you know they should win,
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but at least you still feel like you have a chance.
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I was playing in a title Tuesday,
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which is this tournament chess.com has every Tuesday.
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And I got really lucky, beat a GM,
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drew an international master,
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and then I got paired against Hikaru Nakamura.
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And my brain just went blank,
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because I just know that I'm so unlikely to win
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that I couldn't even play the game properly
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when it's that much of a difference
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where they should be winning like 99% of the time.
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But that's like psychological.
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So you're saying that's the biggest experience
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is like actually knowing the numbers
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and statistically thinking there's no way I can win.
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But I meant like, is there a suffocating feeling
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like positionally you feel like
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you're constantly under attack?
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You just feel like you're slowly getting outsmarted.
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And the worst is when you don't even know
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what you're doing wrong.
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You come out of that and you're like,
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I thought I was doing great and I got slowly squeezed.
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I didn't understand what was going on.
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And you're just kind of baffled.
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It's kind of like watching AlphaZero beat up Stockfish.
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And you don't really understand why it's making certain moves
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or how it thought of the plan.
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You just see it slowly getting the position better.
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And that's what it feels like.
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I would add it's kind of different for me
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if they're someone who's significantly higher rated.
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So let's say more than like 300 points
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or you're playing Magnus.
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What I notice is I just feel lost straight
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as soon as I don't know my preparation
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because they know so many opening lines
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that they're gonna know the best line to beat you
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that you haven't studied.
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So then on move 10, you're like,
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he already has a maybe plus 0.5 advantage
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which is really small.
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But for someone with such a significant skill level
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you know you already lost at that point.
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And it's like a third of the game.
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What are the strengths and weaknesses of Andrea?
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Andrea is very good at opening preparation.
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As she said, she likes bringing that up.
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I mean, she's very meticulous about it
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where she'll really go in and learn her lines.
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And having that initial starting confidence
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isn't just helpful for the opening
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but it helps develop your plans for the middle game.
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So I think she's very good at that.
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I think she's actually pretty good
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at tactical combinations.
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Tactics is like solving puzzles
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or basically finding lines that are forced
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where if you find them, you're going to win.
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So that's like puzzles within a position.
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Whereas strategic chess is making slow moves
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and over the process of like 20 moves
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you get a slightly better position based on
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an understanding of the overall strategy.
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So in my extensive research review on Wikipedia,
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it says your most played opening
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is the King's Indian defense.
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In which, quote, black allows white
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to advance their pawns to the center of the board
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in the first two moves.
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Is there any truth to this?
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So the King's Indian.
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Probably is my most played opening.
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And it's one where even when my coach
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who was a grandmaster taught me,
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he was like, so you know,
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I've been playing the King's Indian for 10 years
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and I still don't understand it.
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And it's one of those openings that computers
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really don't like because you do,
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or at least Stockfish doesn't like it.
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Maybe AlphaZero would change their mind.
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I forgot to look at what.
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Can you show me, by the way, what it is?
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Is it white's opening or black's opening?
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Black responds to the D4 Queen's pawn push.
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And you take your knight out to F6.
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I'll just put in the stereotypical,
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classical King's Indian more so to say.
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We actually have a very famous King's Indian game
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in the notes that we prepared.
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For the record, I asked you guys for some games
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that you find pretty cool
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and maybe to get a chance to talk about some.
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So this is the King's Indian.
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As you can see, white has much more control
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White has three pawns in the center
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while black has none past the fifth rank.
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And you just have this pawn on D6.
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And one of the ideas in chess is
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if you're not taking the center,
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then your plan revolves around
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trying to continually challenge it.
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But what is really fun about the King's Indian
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is that black sometimes gets these crazy King side attacks
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while white gets Queen side attacks.
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And even though it's a little bit suspicious for black
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and the computer could usually break it,
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it's hard to defend as a human when you're being attacked.
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But if you don't pull off the attack as black,
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then you're just gonna end up being lost in the end game.
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So it's like a very asymmetrical position.
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It's very asymmetrical,
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although a lot of people now stop playing
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into the classical King's Indian,
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even though computers give it a big advantage.
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And they play these slower lines in the King's Indian,
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which are less fun to play.
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What's slower mean?
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It takes a longer time to do something interesting with?
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They basically don't let you get as much
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of a King side attack
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because they try opening up the center
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and then you have no weaknesses,
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but you're just slowly improving the position of your pieces
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instead of being able to go for that King side attack.
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So for people just listening,
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there is the white pawns are all on the fourth row
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in a row together.
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That feels like a bad position.
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Oh, you don't like taking the center?
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No, I like taking the center.
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Now you're talking trash already.
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But it's just like they're like feel vulnerable
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there in a row together.
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Like it's like, you know,
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cause they're like, who's gonna defend them?
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I guess the Knights defend and the Queen defends it.
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You're actually talking about a theme
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that you do see sometimes, which is called hanging pawns.
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And when you have two pawns right next to each other
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with no other pawns to defend them.
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Yeah, so it is a valid point.
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And actually as black,
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you're trying to break apart these pawns
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or get them to push and create some holes into the position,
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but it's a trade off.
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And that's a lot of what chess openings are about.
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You get more space,
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but you'll also end up having to protect your pawns
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potentially or move them forward to the point
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where they're overextended.
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And plus pawns being vulnerable, it's kind of fun.
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It's like, there's more stuff in danger.
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They're not, cause if it's like this,
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everything's like trapped, like you can't do anything.
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Everything's blocked, yeah.
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And blocked off, yeah.
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It's like you can't have fun.
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Yeah, one of the most,
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one of the opening principles for white
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is get your pawns in the center.
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So I'd say like this is actually preferable for white.
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Let's go over some opening principles.
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Cause this is a very good learning lesson
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for any chess beginners in the audience.
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Okay, so first thing you wanna do is control the center.
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There we go, E4, the more aggressive one.
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Isn't that like the basic vanilla move?
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I didn't, somebody told me that's the most popular
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opening move in chess.
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Why is that considered aggressive?
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So it's E4 and D4 and the king's pawn is known
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as being for more tactical players,
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whereas D4 is known for more positional players.
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So that's why it's considered more aggressive.
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More gambits with E4, I think.
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So tactical means I'm gonna try to attack you.
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You're gonna try to go for puzzles
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and rely more on your combination abilities.
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Whereas if it's something positional,
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you usually have like three to four moves
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that are all good in the position,
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whereas tactics, you need to see this one line.
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So it's more precise.
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So this one's cool cause he can like,
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the queen can come out, the bishop can come out.
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Yeah, and that's one of the most popular checkmates
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and usually what you teach new students
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to try to cheese their friends
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cause then they feel really excited
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that they know this new trap
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where you bring the bishop and the queen out
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and you try to checkmate on F7.
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It's the trap that queen's gambit, Beth Harmon,
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falls for in their first game versus the janitor.
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She gets all mad cause she gets checkmated very early.
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Oh, that's the one she gets checkmated with?
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I love how you guys were actually paying attention
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to the games carefully,
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which is pretty cool that they did a good job
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of improving, evolving her game throughout the show
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to actually represent an actual growth of a chess player.
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They really took every detail into consideration,
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That's, I brought stuff into the center.
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We'll do the same.
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So then you want to develop your pieces.
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So in the beginning of the game,
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you want to take out the bishops and knights first
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because you don't want to start
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with the most valuable piece like the queen
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cause then it'll become a vulnerability
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and it'll get attacked very early on.
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And the reason you're taking out these two pieces first
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is cause you want to castle your king.
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So you can move a knight move or a bishop move
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and that's considered developing.
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So at this stage, not like even before
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getting a few pawns out.
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You usually want to start with getting a pawn
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because you want to get space in the center,
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but also when you push pawns,
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it helps free up some of your pieces.
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So usually start with one pawn first
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and then you could start taking out your minor pieces,
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which is the bishop and the knight.
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I have anxiety about a pawn just floating out there.
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But it's not attacked yet.
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See, those are what you call ghost threats.
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So you're scared of something that hasn't happened yet.
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So if I were to attack it.
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Feel like there's a deeper thing going on here.
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Actually, let's say.
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Yeah, so you're attacking the pawn in the center here
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and it is vulnerable, but as soon as you do that,
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I can develop my own knight and defend it as well.
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And now for people just listening,
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there's two pawns that just came out to meet each other
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and a couple of knights.
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You love the chess commentary.
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The pawns met after midnight.
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Well, I'm going to romanticize the game a bit.
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So like there's, if you bring out the bishops
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with the knights, you're matching that with the other.
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Black is going to match it.
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Whatever you're attacking with.
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Yep, he's developing.
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It's going to defend it.
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Now you could develop your bishop
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or your knight, whatever you'd like.
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Oh no, now you give him options.
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Yeah, there you go.
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Now I am attacking the pawn in the center,
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which is what you were afraid about before,
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but let's see how you defend it here.
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By doing this symmetrical thing,
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bringing out the knight on the other side.
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And actually your other move was good as well,
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defending with the pawn,
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because then you're freeing up space for your bishop.
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So you're basically trying to develop your pieces
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as quickly as possible, put your pawns in the center,
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and then get your king to safety.
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And that's usually the basic opening tips that you get.
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And it is kind of counterintuitive
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that safety is in the corner of the board for a king.
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That was always confusing to me, but you know.
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Three pawns in front,
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though you typically don't push those.
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Maybe like one, maybe I'll go one square,
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but these will be like the wall of defense
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that keep him safe.
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But another way to also think about it
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is your pieces usually wanna point towards the center.
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If you have a knight closer to the center
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than closer to the side,
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it actually has more squares it can go to.
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So a huge part of it is just wanting to have flexibility
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for where your pieces go.
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So more pieces are going to be able to make threats
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in the center or even open up the position.
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So since that's where it's most likely to open,
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you want your king somewhere
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where the position will stay closed
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so that you have the pawns to defend.
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You know, there's like rules like this,
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but I always wonder,
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cause I've built chess engines,
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but then you start to wonder like,
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why is it that positionally these things are good?
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Like you've built up an intuition about it,
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but I wish, and that's the thing that would be amazing
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if engines could explain,
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why is this kind of thing better than this kind of thing?
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You start to build up an intuition,
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but if I'm just like knowing nothing about chess,
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it feels confusing that cornering your king,
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like getting him like trapped here.
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Like it feels like you could get checkmated easier there
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if I was just using like dumb intuition,
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but it seems like that's not the case.
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I imagine maybe, cause AlphaZero learned
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by playing games against itself, right?
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And I imagine if you have a lot of games
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and you do build an intuition,
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because if you were to keep your king in the center,
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you just see that in those games,
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you're dealing with threats a lot more often.
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But yeah, there's shortcut rules
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and this doesn't even mean it's the best way to play chess
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as we've seen with AlphaZero
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kind of changing the rules of the game a little bit.
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But as a human, to learn it from scratch
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is a lot more difficult than to start with principles.
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So that's why beginners usually learn chess this way.
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Yeah, because you're playing other humans
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and the other humans have also operated
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on a different principles.
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And that's why people that come up now
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that are training with engines
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are just going to be much better
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than the people of the past
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because they're gonna try out weirder ideas
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that go against the principles of old.
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And they're gonna do like weird stuff,
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including sacrifices and stuff like that.
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Yeah, and I also think that's why AlphaZero was so shocking
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because Stockfish was using an opening database.
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So it was already based off of knowledge
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that humans have from playing chess for years
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that we just thought is how you're supposed to play.
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Whereas AlphaZero just learned
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from playing the game so many times
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and came up with very novel opening ideas.
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Were you impressed by AlphaZero?
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Have you seen some of the games?
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I have seen some of the games.
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I think impressed, bewildered, and motivated
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were the three things I experienced.
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I think Magnus said he was also impressed
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that it could easily be mistaken for creativity.
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That's his trash talk towards the AI.
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That was a beautiful sentence.
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I was listening to the podcast.
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I mean, as a human, I agree with him
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because you don't wanna give the machine
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the power of creativity,
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but if it looks creative, give it a compliment.
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I know that you're being nice to the machines
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in case they are ever looking back through this.
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What else is there?
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What other principles are there for the opening?
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You can go a little bit more forward, let's say.
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Yeah, we can finish full development.
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Positions like this, let's just say
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you developed all of your pieces.
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So that's like a really nice,
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like nobody took any pieces
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and we're just in a nice positional thing.
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Yeah, so it's not actually a very accurate one.
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So I'm actually, I could put a different one on the board,
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but usually after you've developed all of your pieces,
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you wanna get your queen out a little bit
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to connect your rooks,
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and you also start thinking about certain pawn pushes
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and getting more space.
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But another good tip is just can you improve
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the position of your pieces?
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Think about timing.
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So if you've already moved a piece once
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and there's a piece that hasn't moved at all,
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then you wanna focus on the piece that hasn't moved at all
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to be able to have it more likely to jump into the game.
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Right, so don't move pieces multiple times.
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Like try to move it to the most optimal position.
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Yeah, that makes sense.
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What, so what's the Indian,
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I think we kind of went over it,
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but did you ever say why you like it so much?
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Because it's weird?
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Because it's king size?
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I liked it because it's a very fun, aggressive defense
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where you're just throwing your pieces towards white,
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and there's so many sacrificing opportunities.
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And for some reason,
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tactical games always feel like the most beautiful,
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the most satisfying,
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and that's what I liked about the King's Indian.
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But I also suffered a lot from this love
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because I would play things
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that are not necessarily correct,
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then my attack wouldn't pan out,
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and then I would just struggle the rest of the game
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having no play and just trying to defend.
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So if you're always attacking,
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Wikipedia also says that,
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that you're known for your attacking play.
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It's also known for losses according to Stanford.
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Okay, let's not bring that up.
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See Wikipedia doesn't talk trash,
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it just says nice things.
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Yeah, Wikipedia's a lot nicer.
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I actually played a lot of positional chess in classic
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because I really like the slow squeeze,
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but when I transitioned to playing a lot of online chess,
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it's almost as if I was looking
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for more instant gratification
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because it feels so much better
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to beat someone with an attack.
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And even if sometimes it doesn't pan out,
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I was okay with it because you get so many games in.
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So I think my style in online chess
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really changed from my classical chess.
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What about you Andrea?
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Do you have a style?
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Are you attacking?
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Are you a more like conservative defensive player?
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Opening wise, I like to play more positionally.
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Like I like to push T4 and just slowly improve my pieces
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and slowly get an attack.
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But like Alex said, if you're playing bullet chess
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or blitz against viewers,
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you often like wanna play riskier moves
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that may not be as good.
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And then that's kind of when I would play more aggressive.
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But I do enjoy tournaments for that reason
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because then like once you're 15 moves in,
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which as soon as you're out of your prep,
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I like sitting and thinking in more positional,
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yeah, positional middle games.
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One of the games you found to be pretty cool
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was the Hakara Nakamura versus Galfan in 2009.
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And that one I think includes the King's Indian defense.
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Why is that an interesting one to you?
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I also play the King's Indian as black
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and I love this model game.
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But as Alex was saying,
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like all these advantages for the King's Indian.
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But now there's this one line
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that like every higher rated player
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just destroys my King's Indian.
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And you see these beautiful games and like,
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ah, yes, I wanna play for these ideas.
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But now no one plays into it anymore
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and you just get demolished.
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So this is why I don't play the King's Indian anymore,
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but not to ruin the fun.
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It's a love hate relationship, truly.
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But that's like the higher level players do
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or does everybody?
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Yeah, if you're studying openings
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and you know this line as white,
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you just, you automatically get the upper edge.
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And that's kind of how openings develop.
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You start having players trying new lines
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and then you see ones and then everybody adopts it
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if they think it's the best one.
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But yeah, so Hikaru is really known
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for his aggressive style of play.
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Is Hikaru black here or what?
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Yeah, Hikaru is black here.
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So he's playing the King's Indian.
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And as you can see in this position,
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white already has a lot, a huge center advantage.
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But what Hikaru is gonna start doing
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even with the next move is bringing all of his pieces
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towards the white King side,
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because his plan is to start pushing his pawns
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towards the white King and ignore the attack
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that goes on in the Queen side.
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It's all of the dream attack with the King's Indian.
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So there's a complete asymmetry towards the King side
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and the left side of the board is a ton of pieces.
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Wow, he moved the knight like three times in a row.
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Yep, and that's what you need to do
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because you have to move the knight
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in order to make space for your pawn.
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So again, this is why it's so counterintuitive
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and Stockfish doesn't like it.
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You're putting almost most of your pieces on the back rank
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and you're pushing your King side pawns
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and you're blocking your own dark squared Bishop.
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So none of it makes sense.
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You're mimicking it, that's awesome.
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Okay, so yeah, here you see white going
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for a Queen side attack,
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black going for the King side attack
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and you can keep going a little bit
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and I'll wait to where he starts with the pretty sacrifices.
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It's more fun to analyze games in person
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than on the computer, I think.
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Okay, so here Hikaru is preparing the attack
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and what I really like about this game
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is that he finds these tactics
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that are not necessarily what a computer would go for
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but it's very hard to face as a human
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and that's why a lot of people play the King's Indian
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because in practice it's hard to defend against.
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So we can keep moving a little bit forward.
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Yep, so white is just continuing the King side plan.
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No, is that like the first piece
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I think that's taken in the game?
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Yep, that's the first trade.
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Exactly, Hikaru had to pause his attack for a little bit
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to just make sure that white didn't have
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two dire threats on the Queen side.
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So cool to see the asymmetry of this thing.
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Exactly, that's what's beautiful about the King's Indian.
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And just one thing to highlight
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because his rook move here is very bizarre
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and typically like a computer probably didn't like this
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but the ideas are interesting
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because this is a major weakness for black
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that they're coming to attack
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and he's also making room for his Bishop
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to come backwards and challenge.
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So this is like a human like maneuver
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that computers would like.
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I think computers would like this though
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because you'd have to move it regardless
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because he takes the pawn here
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and his rook would be under attack.
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Yeah, well having looked at it,
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when I actually studied this as a line
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and this right away isn't the best move cutting computer.
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So actually that's such a good question.
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So do you guys when you study games use your mind
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but do you also use computers to build up your intuition
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of like looking at a position like this
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and what would a computer do
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and then try to understand why it wants to do that?
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When I was studying seriously
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I would try to use my own mind
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because you're never gonna get the exact same position
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so you really need to notice trends
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and often computers will give you moves
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that are only specific to that position
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because of a certain tactic.
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But I do use computers to check what I did
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and make sure I didn't make any obvious blunder
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that I might have missed.
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What does a computer tell you?
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Just like what is the best move
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or does it give you any kind of explanation of why?
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It doesn't tell you why
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but it gives you the different valuations of the position
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like black is down a half pawn here or something like that
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but it hints you towards what the right move is
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and then it's on you to figure out why
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and you can usually figure out why if not right away
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then just by going through a few moves
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and being like, oh, okay, that makes sense.
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I feel like a computer will take you down
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with some weird lines potentially like sacrifice.
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Like why the hell am I sacrificing this?
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Well, we'll get to the pretty sacrifice soon.
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So we could just keep playing.
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The pawns are being pushed forward.
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Yeah, and Hikaru is kind of ignoring
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the queen side attack here.
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They basically both only reply to each other's plan
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when they have to.
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This is where you convert all the podcast viewers
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They have no idea what we're talking about right now.
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There is a Zen like experience
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of just like listening and imagining.
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Just imagine the pieces on the ceiling.
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Yeah, we should be calling them out
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and then people will be freaking out even more.
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Am I supposed to keep track of what the position is?
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It's too late now.
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How hard is blindfold chess?
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Like are you able to keep the mind?
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I've played blindfold chess before.
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For me, it's pretty hard.
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It's not a muscle that I've trained as much
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and I'm very visual when it comes to chess.
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But it is one as a top player
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that starts becoming very second nature for you.
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Actually, this is what, I talked to Magnus about this.
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Maybe I was, again, influenced by Queen's Gambit.
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What do you actually visualize when it's in your head?
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So for Magnus, it was a boring 2D board.
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Do you have some kind of?
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That's every chess player, no.
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You don't have like,
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cause you know some chess like computer games,
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you can do all kinds of skins and like fancy stuff.
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You don't have any fancy stuff?
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Sadly, I don't have like a cool 3D warrior mode on.
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It's just the basic.
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I just have the default chess base board in my head.
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Cause you don't, yeah, you can't use your brain power
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for adding colors to it
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cause you already have to keep track of the pieces.
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And it's one board at a time?
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The current position.
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Yeah, I bet every chess.
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I wonder if there's any who hit it differently.
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There's certain players who are really good
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and they can even play blindfold chess
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and play multiple games at the same time.
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So I would be curious how they do it.
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But usually when you're thinking of one game,
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that's the only one in your mind.
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Yeah, but you have to do this operation
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where you move one piece.
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You're doing like the branch analysis.
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Like, and so you still have to somehow visualize
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the branching process and not forget stuff.
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Maybe that's like constant memory recall or something.
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You're always looking at one board at a time, but.
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And you're also, oh, cause you're also looking in the future.
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Cause then you have to back track.
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Calculating variations and coming back.
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I guess you're keeping the position in your memory.
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So you're remembering where all the pieces are
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and then you're playing it out on one board
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and then you can come back to the initial one
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that you started with that you kind of just keep
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in your brain and it's also easier to come back to it
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once you've played a position from it.
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I feel like it's that memory recall
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that gets you to blunder.
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So I'll like see that I'm being attacked by certain things,
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but then because I get so exhausted thinking
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about a different thing, I forget,
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I actually forget about an entire branch of things
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that I was supposed to be worried about.
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It happens very often.
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If you spend a bunch of time calculating in a position,
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let's say like when you're really in trouble
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and you're spending 15, 20 minutes calculating,
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you'll forget about something that you spotted like,
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oh, if I do these two, three moves, I'll walk into a trap
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cause you've looked at so many lines and then you play it
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and then you see it and you're like, oh, I looked at it
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and I saw it, but I forgot about it.
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It's often called tunneling where you're just looking
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so deeply on one thing you forget about the rest
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And it's the worst when, at least in a beginner level,
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there's like a, I don't know, a Bishop just sitting there,
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obviously attacking your like queen or something.
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And then you just forget that Bishop exists.
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Cause if they just sit there for a few moves
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and don't move, you just forget their existence.
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And then it's just, yeah, that's definitely very embarrassing.
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Well, it happens to everyone, so.
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Okay, so we see a few trades happening on the queen side
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where he had to go for those, otherwise he's in trouble.
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And this is where the game, oh, sorry.
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This is where it gets exciting.
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Yeah, so Knight H4 is really when the sacrifice starts.
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And here the two important pawns are the ones in front
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of the King, cause they're helping with the entire defense
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and Hikaru is actually preparing to sacrifice his Knight
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for a pawn just so that he can continue his attack
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and open up the position.
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Because if you don't do that here as black
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and don't get some kind of attack,
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you are completely lost on the queen side.
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And also you've pushed all of your own king side pawns,
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so you're gonna be in danger.
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So it's one of those do or die moments.
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Oh, okay, so that's what makes it all in,
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cause the King is wide open.
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Yeah, yeah, the King is wide open
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and all of White's pieces are pointed
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towards the queen side too, where you're also cramped.
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So is the attack primarily by black done
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by the two pawns and the Knight?
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And the light squared Bishop is always extremely important.
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So you don't wanna trade this in the King's Indian
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because it's very helpful for a lot of attacks.
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Even though it's on the other side of the board,
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I guess it can go all the way across in,
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like I'm not sure what it's doing here,
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but probably threatening.
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Like for example, if it was another move black
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could have played would be something like Bishop H3,
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where if you take the Bishop,
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you actually get mated on G2.
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So let's say you take here
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and then you could push the pawn
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and then it would be checkmate.
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So you're kind of using your Bishop to sacrifice
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against White's King side pawns.
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Yeah, I'll be freaking out if their Bishop did that.
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What are they up to?
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Right, and that's the thing,
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this position looks very scary as White
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because all of Black's pawns are starting
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to come towards you.
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And it's one of those things where humans
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do start to worry in these positions,
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whereas computers obviously can just calculate
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the best line and maybe the attack doesn't go through.
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So you're saying the computer might say
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that the White is actually a slight favorite here?
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Yeah, potentially.
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Okay, so then White makes a little bit of room
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by moving the Rook.
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And the attack begins.
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I like the commentary here.
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The Knight is hugging the King.
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And actually White can't even take the King here
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because then H4 and H3 is coming in.
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White can't take the Knight.
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Yeah, oh did I say King?
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Yes, thank you, the Knight.
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White can't take the Knight because why?
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So if White takes the Knight here,
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then Black starts pushing his pawn to H4
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with H3 incoming and the idea of trying
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to defend against this is, it looks very difficult.
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So White just chooses.
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It'd be cool to watch a chess game,
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to experience watching it without understanding it
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Feel like I could use that to make better content.
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I mean, that's what getting drunk does.
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Unfortunately for chess players,
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it never leaves your brain.
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Doesn't matter how.
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But this is actually a very cute move
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because Black's Queen is under attack,
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but the King is so cramped that he can't actually take it
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or he's gonna get checkmated by a pawn,
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which is a sad way to go cruelly.
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Yeah, those pawns are doing a lot of work here.
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That is the King's Indian.
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This is the King's Indian player's dream.
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The attack of the King side pawns.
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Yeah, these pawns are like, right,
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so they're the ones that are doing a lot
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of the threatening.
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Right, and they're also opening up the position
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to bring more of the pieces in.
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But the pawns kind of help break open the King side,
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but they can't checkmate by themselves.
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So after the pawns come in,
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that's when you need to start bringing in pieces as well,
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which you will see Ahi Kar do here.
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Okay. There you go.
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He puts. One more sacrifice.
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This was actually another beautiful sacrifice in the game.
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But then puts the King in check with a pawn.
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Right, and the pawn is going to be given here for free,
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but the idea is you're giving your own piece
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because you want to have more space and open up the King,
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which is what you're always trying to do
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when you have a King side.
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You're trying to remove as many of the King's defenders
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as you can without giving up too much.
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And then you have a ton of pieces on the King side
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for black, just waiting to.
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And notice how every single move,
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white is getting attacked.
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Like they're just never getting a break.
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Black just keeps throwing all their pieces.
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So it's funny that black's Queen has been hanging
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for like three moves now
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and white still can't do anything about it.
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So rook puts the King in check.
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And then again, we leave the Queen hanging
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and you develop a piece,
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this light squared Bishop that's so important,
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and you're once again threatening checkmate on G2.
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And then Bishops coming to the game.
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Once again, the Queen hanging.
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I mean, the game is just so beautiful.
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The amount of calculation Hikaru put into this position.
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It feels like so much is in danger.
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It's so interesting.
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And Knight takes what?
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So now his Queen is attacked twice
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and he doesn't care.
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He takes the Bishop
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and he's still threatening the checkmate on G2.
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And then the Queen takes the Bishop.
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So now he's defending against G2
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and black just goes and grabs some material back here.
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So here, black is already is winning.
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Well, he ends up winning a Knight here
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because black had to be so much on the defensive.
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He's just taking pieces.
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Yeah, I mean at this point,
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you're up two whole pieces.
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So you knew it was in here.
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And then you take,
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and then the rook takes
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and there's not as much of an attack on the King anymore,
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but Hikaru is up a Knight here,
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Yeah, what's the correct way of saying that?
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Because I played Demis Hassabis.
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I played him in chess.
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And then I quickly realized like from his facial expressions
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that I should have like stopped playing.
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It was like, it's already set.
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And then he's like, like, this is the good time to like,
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You're not gonna get to checkmate where like this,
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you know, he could see like,
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the checkmate is like five or seven moves away or something.
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And what's the play?
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Usually you have to resign if you're in a position
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or you should through chess etiquette resign
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when you're in a position where your opponent
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is definitely gonna win out of respect.
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Like if you're a piece down.
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And obviously all top grandmasters do that.
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The only people who don't do that is kids
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because their coaches.
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They love to play till the checkmate.
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Their coaches always tell them never resign
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and they'll be in hopelessly lost positions
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playing against like two rooks, a king,
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and they only have their sole king,
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but they're still playing on.
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So that's a position where it's obvious they can't win.
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Because the kids might make errors.
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And so it might as well.
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That was the interesting thing about,
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I think game six of the previous world championship
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Was it the one where he beat Nap?
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Yeah, the first time he beat him,
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where it was like, he said that,
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I don't know how often you come across
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this kind of situation.
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He said, the engines predict a draw,
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but that doesn't mean that it's going to be a draw.
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So you play on hoping that you take a person into,
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I mean, this is, I guess, an end game thing.
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You take them to deep water
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and they make a positional mistake or something.
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I don't know when, like he from his gut knows
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that this is supposed to be a draw,
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but he still plays on.
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Yeah, I mean, that is one where
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it could theoretically be a draw,
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but it could be very hard to defend
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because it's a hard technique to know as a human.
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And especially in that game,
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I know that Nepo was also in time pressure,
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which makes it even harder.
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So in situations like that, you should always continue.
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It's more where an engine would give you something
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like plus 10 or something where it's not just clearly a win,
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but anybody would know how to win.
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And that's where you're usually supposed to resign.
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So what do you find beautiful about this game?
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Is it the attacking chess and just the asymmetry of it?
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It's the asymmetry.
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And it's the fact that this is the dream
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for the King's Indian,
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where you're able to get a beautiful attack.
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And there was also those two really nice sacrifices
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where Black just continuously kept putting pressure
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on White's King to the point where he was able
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And the best part of it is that if the attack didn't work
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out, Black would have been completely lost.
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How often does that happen, by the way?
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Like as an attacking player,
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how often do you put yourself in the position of like,
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I'm screwed unless this works out?
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In online chess more than I should.
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And it's usually when I sacrifice,
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I know it's either gonna work or I'm lost.
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And those are the most fun positions to play usually.
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But in tournaments, if you're doing a sacrifice,
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you're playing it with 100% confidence
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because you're taking the time to calculate it.
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But yeah, when you have three minutes,
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you don't have time.
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So you take a whim and you follow your intuition
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and you find out later.
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Or you're very confident it'll work
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and you haven't calculated all the way until the end,
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but you've calculated to the point where you have enough
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in exchange for the sack
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and you think you could play that position.
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How do you train chess these days?
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What's, do you practice?
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Do you do deliberate practice?
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I mean, you're in this tough position
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because you're also a creator and educator and entertainer.
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So do you try to put in time of like daily practice?
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I don't train chess anymore when I'm focusing on creating.
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I do if I'm preparing for a tournament.
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But back in the day,
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I would train very seriously for tournaments.
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And the way it would work is I do opening preparation
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for a specific tournament
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because that's when you really need to have
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those lines memorized
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and you could also prepare for specific opponents.
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And I would do tactics to make sure I stay sharp.
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So those were the two things I would do every single day
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for a tournament and then mix up the rest
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with like maybe some end games,
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maybe some positional chess.
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So what does tactics preparation looks like?
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Do you do like a puzzle, like a random puzzle thing?
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Yeah, I would just train puzzles
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for at least like 30 to 60 minutes or books.
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And sometimes you were,
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and there's different kinds of puzzles.
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One you could train for pattern recognition
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where you're supposed to go through them very quickly.
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And that's just so that when you're playing the game,
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if your mind is tired,
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it's still keeping track of things
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a little bit more easily.
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And then there's where you're practicing your combination
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and those sometimes take like 20 minutes to find
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because you have to just calculate a lot.
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And it's more like making sure
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that you've trained with that muscle.
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But Andrea is actually very good at finding ways
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to balance and still study while also doing content.
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Yeah, so what, you're able to do both?
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That's the hard thing.
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I was getting very irritated with content
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because I'm very competitive.
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I don't like playing chess if I'm losing.
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And if you're talking and entertaining,
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you're gonna be losing more games than winning.
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So then I started doing more training streams
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where I'd bring on my coach.
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And one of the things that I wanted to add
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to Alex's training repertoire.
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So I would do daily puzzles every time I'm streaming,
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which helped me a lot, even if it's like,
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there's this thing on chess.com called Puzzle Rush,
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where you have three minutes
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and you just do puzzle after puzzle
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where they get incrementally harder.
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And it's just a really good way
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to build your pattern recognition,
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especially when you're rusty.
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So I would do that till I hit a high score
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and I wouldn't play any blitz
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until I hit the score that I want.
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But that's kind of more like the fun part of chess studying.
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The very important one is actually analyzing your losses
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in your tournament games.
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And first you sit and you look through your mistake yourself
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and try to see if you can find the better moves.
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And then that's when you would check over with a computer
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to see if you're right.
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So game analysis is also very important, which I try to do.
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I remember to give a shout out,
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I listened to a couple of episodes
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of the Perpetual Chess Podcast, which is pretty good.
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But whatever I listened to, I remember the,
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it's, I think they really focus on like teaching people.
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Yeah, how to play, how to train, all that kind of stuff.
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They do like, yeah, I'm looking now, adult improver.
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So basically like how do regular noobs get better at chess?
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One of the things that, one of the person that said,
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I think he was the grandmaster, but he said,
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to maximize the amount of time you spend every day of like,
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basically as you were saying, like suffering.
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So like you, it's not about the,
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like you should be thinking.
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You should be doing calculating.
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So it's the opposite of what Magnus said.
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Like you should be doing a lot of time.
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It doesn't matter what the puzzle is
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or whatever the hell you're doing,
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but you should be like doing that difficult calculation.
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That's how you get better.
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Yeah, it really depends what you're training.
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Cause I used to think the same,
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but it depends what you're weaker at.
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Cause if you're doing the really difficult puzzles,
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you're training for like visualization
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and calculating more moves ahead than you typically would,
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which maybe you wouldn't get into that as often
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in a regular game because typically you run into like
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three to four tactics, which are actually the easier
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and more fun ones to solve.
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So it really depends.
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And on top of that, as a hobbyist,
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your motivation is very different
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than when you're playing from a young age
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and have pretty high competitive ambition.
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And a lot of people who are new to chess,
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you could basically work on anything and still improve.
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So if you're focusing on something you like,
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you're probably gonna stick to it more
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and be more consistent,
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which I think is more helpful longterm.
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What was the most embarrassing loss of your career?
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I had so many flashbacks,
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but I'm so glad it's a question for Andrea.
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I like that you specified.
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You know, it's funny.
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I mean, because you said you're so competitive and like.
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I could tell just even from the way you said it,
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that like you hate losing.
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Yeah, I mean, that was the reason I hated chess
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in high school, cause it'd always be like,
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but okay, there's many traumatizing losses
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where it's like your top three, you're running for first.
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And then you throw a game you shouldn't,
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and this shouldn't hurt my ego as much as it does,
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but it's always kids.
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Or when I was a high school girl,
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it's the younger boys who are really cocky.
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And when they win, they start rubbing it in your face
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and they're yawning and looking around
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when like 90% of the game you were destroying them
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and you had this one tiny mistake
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and now their ego's huge.
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But I'll never forget I was playing like
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for a chess scholarship.
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And it was tiebreaker for first,
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and I think I lost to a 12 year old girl
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who couldn't even use the scholarship,
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but she beat me in one first place
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and she got some other prize.
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So yeah, I was losing to that little girl
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who's literally like 2300 now, so makes sense.
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Right, you keep telling yourself that.
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What do you think, do you think Gasparro was feeling that
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when he was playing 13 year old Magnus?
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As much as it's a beauty of the sport
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that any age can be brilliant, any demographic, anything,
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I feel like when you're adults
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and you're paired against the kid,
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it's just hard not to let it get to you.
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And it depends, maybe if they're a really sweet kid,
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but most of the times I play kids,
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they're just really arrogant.
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And I don't think they do it intentionally
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because they're kids.
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I mean, there is a certain etiquette thing
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where like you said, yawning, and in general,
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If they're kids, there's no etiquette.
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Yeah, the kids traumatized me too.
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I was playing in Vegas and it was not even my opponent.
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It was the board next to me.
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And the kid was at least 10 years old, 12 max,
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and he was playing against an adult
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and he takes out his hand and he starts doing a fake phone
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to which the kid sitting across diagonally
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picks up their banana and starts talking like it's a phone
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and they're just mouthing words
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while their two adult opponents
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are thinking intensely at the game.
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And then I see the adult look up, look at the kid,
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just making banana phone and the despair in his eyes
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And they're not even doing it for trash talk.
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They're just bored.
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They're just bored kids.
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cause you play a bunch of people for your channel.
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What was the most like memorable?
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What's the most fun, most intense?
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There's a bunch of fun ones.
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You've played kids before, some trash talking kids.
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That sounds great.
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They trash talk kids.
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Nothing like losing a 12 year old
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who then starts doing a Fortnite dance.
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So that actually happened?
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He is a very young master.
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I think he became master
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when he was like nine years old or something.
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And he's very good at chess and doing a lot of training,
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but he's also incredibly good at trash talking.
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And he beat me one game and he stood up
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and he started doing the Fortnite dance.
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So you gotta just swallow your pride in those moments.
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What is that culture of like street chess players?
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It seems pretty interesting.
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Like, I don't know,
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that seems to be celebrating the beauty of the game.
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It's the trash talking, but also having fun with it,
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but also taking it seriously.
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And you've done a few of those.
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Did you go to New York?
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Yeah, in Union Square Park in Washington Square.
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What was that like?
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It's such a unique place.
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I haven't seen it anywhere else in the US
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where people are just professional chess hustlers,
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even if they're not necessarily a top player,
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but they play chess every single day.
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And so many of them learn chess by themselves
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and never had a professional coach.
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So they are quite good at it.
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They're also very tight knit.
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They all know each other.
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And it's a very social thing
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where you're not just playing chess.
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It's the experience of getting to know this person
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who's very much a personality and they talk to you.
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They could either give you tips
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or they could be really chatty and talk to you during.
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So it's a chess experience rather than just playing a game.
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Do you tell them like what your rating is
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or do you just let people, like both ways,
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do you discover how good the person actually is?
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Initially, I loved going and not telling people my rating
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and just surprising them and winning games.
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But now we've gone so many times that they just know us.
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So we can't get away with it anymore.
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One time, actually, I don't know if I should share this,
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but one time we dressed up as grandmothers
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and we had prosthetics on our face.
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And I think they still recognized us.
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Yeah, it's probably the, there's other components,
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like probably the trash talk and all that kind of stuff.
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Actually, no, it was funny.
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We were talking like grandmothers,
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but it was the way I held, it was the way I held them.
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Grandmother talk like, back of my day.
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No, no, no, no, no, no, we're not bringing this back.
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We're not bringing this back.
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Okay, what were your names, what were the code names?
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I think it was Edna, Edna, and I had a really,
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I can't remember the other one.
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But it was embarrassing because we were walking so slowly
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and Andrea dropped her cane or something at one point
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and then people in the park came to help her.
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We felt so embarrassed.
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But yeah, it was funny.
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Cause they didn't know it was us
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until he saw the way I reached for my pawn.
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And he said, the way you held your pawn, I knew it was you.
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It was like such a niche thing.
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That was what blew the grandma cover.
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Yeah, do you have a style of how you play physically?
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Is that recognizable?
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I didn't think we did until grandma went to play chess, but.
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Yeah, I've never thought about that.
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Yeah, I think our style is just trash talking now.
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Style is very, if you're talking about style
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on YouTube and Twitch, we definitely have a distinctive style.
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What's your distinctive, just talking shit?
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But not going too far.
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No, no, definitely that's, definitely going to.
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If it's us two against each other.
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Oh, we trash talk each other so hard.
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And I love looking at Andrea
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and watching her little nose scrunch up
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as she's annoyed and the satisfaction
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I get when that happens.
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How many times do you play against each other
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on online publicly?
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I think I've seen a couple of games.
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We played a lot of times.
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We try not to do it too often cause it's repetitive,
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but every now and then when we haven't done it for a while,
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we'll go at it again.
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What do you mean repetitive?
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Is that implied trash talk right there?
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No, it just, we play similar openings.
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So you just start seeing the same position too often.
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It's the same opening against each other every time.
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Andrea's really good at opening.
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So I just start playing bad openings
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to get her out of her preparation.
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Cause I don't like opening theory very much.
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I just like playing the game
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and getting into middle games and end games.
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But yeah, typically the only time we're playing each other
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is when we're setting up in the park
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and we don't have opponents yet and we need content.
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So we just play each other until people show up.
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But we always put stakes on the line,
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which makes it very interesting.
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Cause otherwise it wouldn't be fun to play each other
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if there's no stakes.
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Where's the most fun place you've played?
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And it was actually when we set up in Times Square one night,
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we just brought a table with us and chess.
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And it's not even where people usually play chess,
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but it was so lively.
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There were all of the lights out
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and so many people just kept stopping by to play chess.
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And it was really one of my favorite streams.
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It's just the opposite of like the classical chess world.
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There's music, there's cars,
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there's street dancers,
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even some naked people walking around
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who we had to be careful not to get banned.
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But I honestly really liked the chaotic environments
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Cause I think it's a good way
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to break more into the mainstream culture
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and make it entertaining and appealing
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to anyone who doesn't know anything about chess.
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So that's the way.
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And also in an authentic way,
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because it's what we really like about chess
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when you're just enjoying the game,
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but also the atmosphere
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and the people who you're playing with.
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And that's one of the things that I think you see less
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when you're just thinking of chess as a competitive thing.
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You've mentioned a few other games,
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like the Bobby Fischer games,
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the Candidates match,
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the game of the century,
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which I feel like is a weird game
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to call the game of the century
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when there's still like a few decades left in the century.
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I mean, it wasn't an official thing.
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It was just the chess journalist.
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It's just like made on a chess article.
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But it's stuck if you look on.
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Yeah, no, it did stick.
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This is all I do research wise.
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so that particular one was a 13 year old Fischer
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and he did a queen sacrifice.
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I wonder, there's that movie searching for Bobby Fischer.
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Cause didn't they have a young somebody
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who's supposed to be kind of like Bobby Fischer
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played by Josh Waitzkin.
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Yeah, I think he ended up being an international master.
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It wasn't based on Bobby Fischer.
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It was based on another player,
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but I liked how they told it through the lens
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of being inspired by Bobby Fischer.
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Do you remember that game?
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Like why do you think it was dubbed the game of the century?
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It was just journalists being like.
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I think part of it was the atmosphere
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where you have the US junior champion
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who's this 13 year old nobody.
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And it's the first time he's playing
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in a very competitive landscape
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against some of the top American players.
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And he goes up against an international master.
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So somebody who's a lot stronger than he is
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who's played in Olympiads for the American team.
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He's having a bad tournament,
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but then he has this one game
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where he just shows off his tactical prowess
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and plays incredibly well.
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And I don't know if this is true,
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but in the paper clippings of it,
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they'd say things like grandmasters were by the board
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and they would say things like,
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oh, Bobby is lost in this position.
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But there's this 13 year old kid
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who's just playing incredibly well.
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And then that also happened
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before Bobby's started really rapidly improving at chess.
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Not that people knew that,
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but he kind of seemed like a rising star.
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So I think the game was beautiful,
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but I also think the idea of a 13 year old kid
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coming out from nowhere
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and beating a top American player was very fascinating.
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And there was aggressive chess
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and it was interesting ideas.
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Yeah, taking big risks.
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It's cool to see a 13 year old do that.
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you mentioned that his match against Mark Taimano
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from their 71 candidates match
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was interesting in some way.
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Why is it interesting to you?
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Move 45, I'm looking at some notes.
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This is with the Bishop E3.
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I think I know which one you're talking about.
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It's, I wouldn't say,
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a lot of these games on these lists
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I think are really great combinations
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that when tactics come into play,
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which is what we're talking about.
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But they're very good at exemplifying lessons.
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This is why you study famous games.
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So you can apply these lessons to your own games.
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And I think the main takeaway for this one
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was they're punishing their opponent
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from steering away from opening principles,
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which is something that we learned a little earlier
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where he delayed the development of his King
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and put his Queen out a little bit too exposed.
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So Bobby Fisher immediately punished that.
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And then there was just like a beautiful combination
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where it was like a 12 in a row perfect moves,
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which was a tactic, just winning the game.
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But it only came from punishing those mistakes.
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The mistake being bringing the Queen out?
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Bringing the Queen out
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and yeah, not castling your King right away.
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And these were just like opening principles
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that now they're written in books,
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but for books you would study these principles
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by studying games.
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And also, I'm looking at some notes,
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his dominance during the candidate's turn
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was unprecedented.
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He swept two top grandmasters.
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I mean, that guy's meteoric rise is incredible.
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Sad that I think at whatever in his 20s,
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he then quit chess.
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One has to wonder where he could have gone.
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Yeah, it is sad that we lost such a brilliant mind
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And it's also sad, I think kind of what ended up happening
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in his life and the slowly going crazier.
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Is there some aspect of chess
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that opens the door to crazy?
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Like how challenging it is on you,
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the stress, the anxiety of it, the isolation.
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It's a very lonely sport.
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It is, even do you guys, since you both play it,
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it's still lonely, the experience of it?
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It was when I was competing a lot.
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I think the crazy part of it for me
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was how obsessed you can get about a board game
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where you're optimizing your entire life
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to beat another person at pushing wooden pieces
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And it doesn't necessarily translate to other things.
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And the fact that so many people spend so much
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of their life on it,
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but you can also spend so much of your life
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because it's so deep and so interesting.
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And I mean, I've definitely experienced moments
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where I didn't want to do anything but chess.
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And I had that before I went to college
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where I just wanted to take a gap year and focus on chess
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because I went to high school, we moved a lot,
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there was always other things going on.
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So I felt like I could never really focus on chess.
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And the one time I could, by taking a gap year,
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I ended up not doing because my parents really wanted me
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to go to university right away.
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But I think maybe if I had taken that gap year,
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I don't know if I would have gone back to school.
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So maybe it wasn't a bad thing.
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I'd also say that's pretty universal.
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I think if you want to be the best at anything you do
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or any sport, you have to be that level of obsessed.
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So I don't know if that's only chess.
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Well, some things, some obsessions are more transferable
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to a balanced social life.
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Like healthy development.
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Yeah, chess is a lot less social than most other sports.
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Yeah, there's something deeply isolating about this game.
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I mean, the great chess players I've met,
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I mean, it's really competitive too.
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And there's something that you're almost nonstop paranoid
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about blundering at every level.
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And that develops a person who is really anxious
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about losing versus someone who deeply enjoys perfection
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or winning and so on.
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It's just this constant paranoia about losing.
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Maybe I'm misinterpreting it, but that creates huge amount
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of stress over like thousands of games,
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especially in a young person.
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And that blundering is such a painful experience
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because you could be playing a game that you've played
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for five, six hours and you have one lapse in focus
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and you blunder and you throw the entire game away.
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And sometimes not just the entire game,
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but the entire tournament.
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Now you can't place or do anything anymore.
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So you just feel those mistakes so strongly.
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Yeah, there's no one to blame but yourself.
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Are you guys hard on yourself?
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Have you been about losing?
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Like before you became super famous for streaming
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where you could be like, well, fuck this,
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at least I can have fun playing.
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So I was really hard on myself and I went to play
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a tournament in Canada to try to qualify
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for the Olympiad team.
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And I was like, well, I'm an adult now.
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I'm not gonna feel emotional if I lose.
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And then I got there on the first day.
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I think I was ranked like fourth in Canada for females.
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How long ago was this?
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This was like earlier in the year actually.
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And I go and I lose to somebody lower rated
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And I think it was because I blundered
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and I went back to my room and I was like,
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I am not an adult.
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I'm not eating, I'm not leaving this room.
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I feel terrible and I know I shouldn't,
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but it just cuts so deep.
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And then I actually ended up qualifying
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for the Olympiad team, but I didn't wanna play
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because I didn't have enough time to train
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and the losses are so painful that I was like,
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it's not worth it.
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Yeah, in high school and growing up,
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I just remember weekends.
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And I think being competitive in any sport,
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again, probably people relate to this,
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which is like spending weekends crying.
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And even like Alex said, like punishing yourself
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because you're disappointed in yourself
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because you fight so hard and you prepare
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and you study and you're like, oh, yeah.
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But that's once again on the bright side though,
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when you're studying so hard and after like a four hour game
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and you actually are on the opposite end and you win,
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you feel like such a huge rush of dopamine and serotonin
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and you're like on a high from the wind.
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So there's also plus sides or you can turn this around.
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But yeah, like Alex said, like losing
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after preparing for something and fighting on hours
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and hours is the worst feeling in the world.
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Did you ever get anything like that with martial arts?
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Yeah, so, you know, wrestling,
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I wrestled all through high school and middle school.
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Definitely, so it's an individual sport.
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I did a lot of individual sport, tennis,
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those kinds of things.
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But I think even with wrestling and tennis,
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you're still on a team.
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You can still like, there's still a comradery there.
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I feel like with chess, especially you go on your own
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with the tournaments, like you really are alone.
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But I mean, I always personally just had
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like a very self critical mind in general.
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It's one of the reasons I decided not to play chess
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because I think when I was really young,
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I met somebody who was able to play blindfold chess.
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They were teaching me, they were laying in there
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on the couch, trashed, drinking and smoking.
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Sounds like a Russian.
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There are now a faculty somewhere in the United States.
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But he making jokes, talking to others
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and he would move the pieces, like he would yell
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And I remember thinking that if a person is able to do that,
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then that kind of world you can live in inside your mind
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that becomes the chessboard.
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To me, that meant like the chessboard is not just out here.
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It could be in here and you could do these beautiful,
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you can create these beautiful patterns in your mind.
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I thought like, I had such a strong pull towards that
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where I had to decide either I'm gonna dedicate everything
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You can't do half assed.
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And then that's when I decided to walk away from it
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because I had so much other beautiful things in my life.
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I loved mathematics.
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I loved, just everything was beautiful to me.
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I thought chess would pull me all in.
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And there was nothing like it, I think,
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in my whole life since then.
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I think it's such a dangerous addiction.
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It's such a beautiful addiction, but it's a dangerous one,
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depending on what your mind is like.
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It reminds me of something I thought of
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before I stopped competing as much.
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And I'd look at people and think,
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imagine being so intelligent that you could become
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a grandmaster and yet only spending the rest of your life
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being a grandmaster.
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Because it's one of those things where it does require
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a lot of mental power, but by doing chess,
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you're not gonna be able to explore other subjects deeply.
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And not in a way that is bad necessarily,
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more an admiration and wondering what else could have been
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because I've just seen people get to these levels
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of obsession where it's all they wanna do.
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And they're grandmasters, but they're not even top players.
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So they're never gonna make a living out of it.
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They'll make like maybe 30, 40K a year max.
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They can't even focus on their competitive chess
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because they have to supplement it by teaching
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and doing things they don't like.
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And it's just because of how strong of an obsession
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it can be because it truly is very intellectually rewarding.
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And I think that's what people are addicted to
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in the self improvement, but you can get that
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from a lot of other things as well.
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Well, I think for me, what I was inspired by
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that stuck with me is that a human being
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could be so good at one thing.
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To me, that person on the couch drinking and so on,
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I assumed he was the best chess player in the world.
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Like to be able to play inside your head,
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it just felt like a feat that's incredible.
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And so I fell in love with the idea
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that I hope to be something like that
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in my life at something.
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It would be pretty cool to be really good at one thing.
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And like life in some sense is a search for the things
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that you could be that good at.
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I didn't even think about like how much money
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does it make or any of that.
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It's can I fall in love with something
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and make it a life pursuit where I can be damn good at it.
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And being damn good at it is the source of enjoyment.
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Not like not to win because you want to win a tournament
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or win because like you just want to be better
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No, it's for the beauty of the game itself
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or the beauty of the activity itself.
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And then you realize that that's one of the compelling
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things about chess.
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It is a game with rules and you can win.
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If you want to be really damn good in some aspect
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of life like that, it's a harder and weirder pursuit.
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Don't you feel like you kind of did that
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with computer science or AI related things?
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Like getting that level of damn good.
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That's one of the cool things about AI and robotics
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or intellectual pursuits or scientific pursuits
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is you can spend until you're 80 doing it.
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So I'm in the early days of that.
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One of the reasons I came to Texas,
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one of the reasons I didn't want to pursue
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an academic career at MIT is I want to build a company.
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And so I'm in the early days of that AI company.
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And so it's an open world to see if I'm actually
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going to be good at it.
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But the thing that's there that I've been cognizant
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of my whole life is that I have a passion for it.
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Something within me draws me to that thing.
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And you have to listen to that, to that voice.
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So with chess, you're fucked unless you like early on
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are really training really hard.
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I think life is more forgiving.
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You can be world class at a thing
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after making a lot of mistakes.
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And after spending the first few decades of your life
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doing something completely different.
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And chess, it's like an Olympic sport.
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Like there's no, perfection is a requirement,
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What do you think is that pursuit for you?
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Like why did you decide to stream?
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I like these questions.
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Now we're really getting deep.
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Yeah, this is like a therapy session.
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I mean, isn't it terrifying to be in front of a camera?
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Well, it's terrifying to be in front of five cameras.
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It's more terrifying for me to try to remember
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if I actually turned them all.
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Like I mentioned to you off mic,
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I'm still suffering from a bit of PTSD
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after screwing up a recording of Magnus.
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He had to console me because that was the thing.
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I felt, okay, you wanna build robots.
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If you can't get a camera to even run correctly,
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how are you gonna do anything else in life?
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Oh no, don't let it spiral like that.
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It was spiraling hard and I was just laying there
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and just feeling sorry for myself.
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But I think that feeling, by the way,
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and the small tangent, is really useful.
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I feel like a lot of growing happens when you feel shitty.
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As long as you can get out of it.
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Like don't let it spiral indefinitely.
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But just feeling really, really shitty
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about everything in my life.
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Like I was having an existential crisis.
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Like how will I be able to do anything at all?
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Like you're a giant failure,
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all those kinds of negative voices.
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But I think I made some good decisions
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in the week after that.
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Do you think you couldn't have made those decisions
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if you were less hard on yourself?
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Me personally, no.
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Okay, so you really need to be angry at yourself enough
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to go and do what you need.
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Yeah, it's not even angry,
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it's just upset of being self critical.
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Like also for me personally,
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because I don't have proclivities for depression,
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I have a lot more room
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to feel extremely shitty about myself.
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So if you're somebody that can get stuck in that place,
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like clinically depressed,
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you have to be really, really careful.
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You have to notice the triggers,
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you don't wanna get into that place.
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But for me, just looking empirically,
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feeling shitty has always been productive.
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Like it makes me long term happier.
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Ultimately, it makes me more grateful to be alive
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and it helps me grow, all those kinds of things.
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So I kinda embrace it.
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Otherwise, I feel like I will never do anything.
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I have to feel shitty,
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but that's not a thing I prescribe to others.
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There's a famous professor at MIT,
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his name is Marvin Minsky.
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And when he was giving advice about like to the students,
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he said, the secret to my success
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was that I always hated everything I did in the past.
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So always sort of being self critical
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about everything you've accomplished,
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never really take a moment of gratitude.
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And I think for a lot of people that hear that,
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You should like take a pause and be grateful,
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but it really worked for him.
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So it's a choice you have to make.
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It reminds me of the quote, be happy but never satisfied,
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where you can have a positive spin
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and still want to improve yourself.
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But yeah, like when did you decide
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to take a step in the spotlight,
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that terrifying spotlight of the internet?
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It was actually my senior year of college
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and I was really busy with work and school
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and chess was kind of like this lost love.
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And the interesting thing is that
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the longer I don't play chess,
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the more I kind of miss playing it casually
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and enjoy it more.
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Cause then I start looking at it with fresh eyes,
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but I didn't have time to play tournaments.
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So I started streaming online because it was more social
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than just playing strangers on the internet
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without knowing anything about who they are.
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And I started slowly growing a community
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and got in touch with chess.com pretty quickly too.
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So then it was this hobby that I would do once a week,
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every Thursday at 8 p.m.
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And it was one of the things that brought me a lot of joy.
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And actually I, speaking of depression,
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did struggle for it with at least 10 years of my life.
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And it was one of those things where chess and streaming
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was such a distraction and it brought me such great joy
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that I just kept doing it cause I really, really liked it.
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And then I was working on something that didn't pan out
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and decided to go and take a risk and just stream full time,
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which, you know, seemed a little bit weird at the moment.
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Was that terrifying, that leap?
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It was terrifying,
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but I had taken so many terrifying leaps in the past
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and they didn't, you know, the last two hadn't worked out,
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but I was like, well, I'll get it eventually.
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So somehow having failed before and going through failure
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and knowing that it'll be okay,
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made me more likely to just try something
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that was a very, very weird job.
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Yeah, the camera, we don't need it.
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But one of the cameras died.
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Luckily we have another five.
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Like this is where this triggers the spiral,
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Alexis is gonna go to A to death now.
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It's still somehow awake.
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Is there advice you can give about the dark places
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you've gone in your mind, the depression you suffered from,
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how to get out from your own story?
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Whenever I go to those really dark places,
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the scariest thing is that it feels like
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I will never get rid of this feeling
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and it is very overwhelming.
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And I just have to kind of look back over time spans
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and remember that every single time I have got through it
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and remind myself that it is just temporary.
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And that has been the most helpful thing for me
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because I just try to combat the scariest thing about it.
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And then believe, have faith that it's gonna,
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like this will go away.
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And take action obviously to make sure it goes away.
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And I've also tried to spin it as depression
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is one of the hardest things I've had to deal with,
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but also one of the biggest motivators
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because if I just am left with my own brain,
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I get very depressed.
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Then I really like working or focusing on things.
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So it actually pushed me to try to focus on school,
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try to focus on chess, focus on whatever I'm doing.
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And also if I'm feeling really bad,
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then there's probably something a little bit off
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and I use it as a signal and try to think of it as,
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okay, this is just a sign that there's things
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that could be improved for long term.
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What about you, Andrea?
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Have you gone to dark places in your mind?
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I'd say my family, like I see Alex going through this,
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my mom also has very serious depression.
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Luckily, I got the genes where I don't go through
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that serious level of depression that they do.
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I'd say mine is much more temporarily.
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So it's more similar to what I was feeling
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when I was feeling shitty about it.
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Exactly, you go through periods, yes, exactly,
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where like, but I know that it's not something
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that's clinical and that's just a genetic thing
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or a mental thing, whereas I know it's more serious
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for like my family members.
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And I did relate a lot with you where you're saying
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where that really pushes you and I felt that a lot
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through content where you just kind of feel hopeless
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and kind of like an existential crisis
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where I don't like the content I'm doing
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and that's what pushes me to like, okay,
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you have no choice but to try something
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that now you're gonna be passionate about
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because otherwise you're gonna be stuck
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in this never ending cycle.
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So it's short term and then it helps me come up
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with the things that I enjoy the most content wise
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and it also long term taught me just how to have
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a more balanced life, like doing small things
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that make me happier on a daily basis,
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to like working out, to eating healthier,
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which I notice when I don't do for weeks,
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I just get a lot more depressed.
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What has playing chess taught you about life?
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Has it made you better at life in any kind of way
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or has it made you worse?
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You know, a lot of people kind of romanticize the idea
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that chess is kind of like life or life is kind of like chess
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and becoming better at making decisions on the chess board
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is gonna make you better at making decisions in life.
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Is there some truth to that?
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I always shy away from these comparisons
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with chess and life.
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Cause yeah, it has both positives and negatives.
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So one thing it really helps develop from an early age
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is having an analytical mind,
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but then you could also get like paralysis of analysis
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where you've just thought of everything to death
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and you're moving too slowly
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when you just have to keep going forward
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cause there's not a great path ahead.
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So it's more like exercising your brain and staying sharp
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and then also applying that to other things.
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Whereas if instead of playing chess,
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you were watching TV or something like that,
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you'd probably end up being less sharp.
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Yeah, I used to, in high school,
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I'd always preach like,
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ah, chess transfers to life skills that I would teach.
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I taught chess for juvenile department
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for a special education school.
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I'd cite studies in prisons where like,
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oh, playing chess helped them with X
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and for your kids, it helps with teamwork
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and thinking over life choices.
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And now that I'm older, I don't believe in any of that BS.
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But I do think that the process of working really hard
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at something which takes really long to see results
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and you have to be really dedicated.
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And like, I remember in high school and in middle school,
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well, all my friends, they were having fun on the weekends
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and I'd have to be there studying as a chess a day
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and knowing one day I'll pay off,
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but for like two, three years, nothing paid off.
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Kind of learning that type of patience with anything,
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it's like, you know, like getting a real job.
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I can't say I ever really worked a real job in my life
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since I went straight into streaming
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and I got to work for myself,
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but I'd say it's what people go to college for.
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Like they learn how to live in the real world
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and I'd say that that's what chess taught me as a kid.
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When you're streaming,
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when you're doing the creative work, do you feel lonely?
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So a bunch of creators talk about sort of the,
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it's counterintuitive because you're famous now, you know.
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Sort of, not quite, but we're very lucky
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to have each other.
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So is that the source of the comfort
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and like, is there some sense where it's isolating
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to have these personalities,
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they have to always be having fun, being wild and so on?
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Or is it actually the opposite?
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Like, is it a source of comfort
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to know that there's so many cool people out there
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that are giving you their love?
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It started as a source of comfort
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because it started with a very small community
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who would be something,
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it would be around 200 to 300 viewers
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and you know, only like 30 to 40 of them
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would actually chat actively.
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So you felt like it was a community, not an audience.
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So you like knew them personally almost.
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And it was people who were interested in chess
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and I would really enjoy that.
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And then as, you know, we started growing bigger,
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the audience kind of changed
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where they're not there for you personally,
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they're there while you're entertaining
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and it changed for me.
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And I ended up being a lot more self conscious
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of things online and started even thinking of myself
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more like a product than a human being when I'm online
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Otherwise you just start taking everything personally
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that people comment about you
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and it's based off a very small clip.
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I see, so it was almost a kind of a defense mechanism.
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And it took time to get enough,
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because even if you have tough skin,
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eventually it gets to you when you're online
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every single day listening to, you know,
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thousands of people's feedback on you.
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I think the loneliest part of being creator
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is going through burnout,
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which everyone is just, it's bound to happen,
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which is why I think we're very lucky
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that we have each other because right,
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it's a numbers game and you're viral and trendy
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at one point and then you have to fall.
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And then there's months where you're just grinding.
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And I just come into my friends room and I'm like,
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Andrea, we're irrelevant.
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That's where I'm glad, that's really like the worst part
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of being creator and figuring out how to get over that hump.
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But it makes me very grateful that I have my sister
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because I know that I'm not the only person going through it.
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And yeah, I know that most of my creator friends
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feel very lonely in that process
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because they don't have someone who's their family
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and their business partner and they're working
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by each other side by side.
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You kind of tie in your self worth to your job
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and your content and maybe even more extremely
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than other jobs because you also are the entire company
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and the entire product.
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So when things are going well or when things are not,
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you just need to be careful to not reflect it like,
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oh, I am doing bad.
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I am bad rather than the trends have now changed.
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There's outside things we're gonna keep going
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and this is just the normal waves,
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which is how we think about it now.
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And also just about, are we enjoying this?
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Is this what we wanna make?
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But we were stuck in the camp for a while
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when we 10Xed our viewership after the pandemic
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because people were home and playing chess.
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And then of course that dropped by like 70%.
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And then you see that and you're trying your best
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and you just kind of have to deal with it and be like,
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okay, I'm just gonna keep persevering
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and maybe it'll get better.
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That's so fascinating.
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I mean, this is a struggle of sorts in the 21st century
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of like how to be an artist, how to be a creator,
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how to be an interesting mind in response to this algorithm.
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I'm telling you, turning off views and likes is really good.
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I don't look at Twitch views for that reason.
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And I get obsessed with the numbers too.
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And I know Andrea does, but for me,
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what I try now is to be more focused in the moment,
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but Andrea somehow can do it even with the views.
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So you just, you get, you have fun with it.
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I'm too much of like a given to the temporary satisfaction.
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Like I like seeing, I like knowing
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that if something happens right now,
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viewership's gonna boost by a couple of hundred
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and seeing that I'm right, of course.
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But what about when the viewers start dropping?
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Exactly, well, and I always,
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like you just have this intuition now.
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But I think also the reason that it doesn't affect me
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so much is when we first started our content journey,
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we were only Twitch streamers.
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And we, our livelihood were based on Twitch viewers.
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But now like I've learned how to recycle that content
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into like YouTube and shorts and other things
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where I know like, okay, if this stream does badly,
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there's so many more things you can do
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that also just have a much larger output.
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So it doesn't get to me as much as it did.
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Do you ever feel that with your podcasts
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or do you feel like it's been authentic since the start?
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No, so there's a million things to say there.
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So one is there's a reason I stopped taking a salary at MIT
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and moved to Texas is I wanted my bank account to go to zero
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because I do my best with my back against the wall.
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So one of the comforts I have is I don't care
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if this podcast is popular or not.
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I want it to not be popular.
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So I don't want it to make money.
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You're failing Lex.
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Yeah, I wanna, I mean, I just do best
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when I'm more desperate.
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That's like one thing to say.
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Seems like a reoccurring theme
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with how you build up your greatest work,
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which is honestly very respectable.
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Yeah, so thank you.
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I wouldn't recommend.
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Right, thank you for finding the silver lining
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for an unhealthy mental state.
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But the other thing is I was very conscious
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just like with chess and those kinds of things
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that I love numbers.
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And I would be, if I paid attention,
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if I tried to be somebody at their best,
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like Mr. Beast who really pays attention to numbers,
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I would just not, I'd become destroyed by it.
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The highs and the lows of it.
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And I just don't think I would be creating
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the best work possible.
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But one of the big benefits of a podcast,
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it's listeners and there's an intimacy with the voice.
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And I think that is much more stable
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and a deeper and a more meaningful connection than YouTube.
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YouTube is a fickle mistress.
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So it's a weird drug that like, it really wants you.
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With very addicting feedback loops.
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When you have a video that's number one out of 10,
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oh my God, the adrenaline you get.
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And then the thing I really don't like also
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is the world will introduce you as a person
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that has a video on YouTube with some X number of views.
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Like the world wants you to be addicted to these numbers.
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Because they associate it with having done a good job.
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Because that's what people think views are,
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And primarily because they don't have any other signal
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of what's a good job.
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I think the much better signal is people
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that are close to you, your family, your colleagues,
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that say, wow, that was cool, I listened to that,
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that was really, I didn't know this,
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this was really powerful, this is really moving and so on.
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But definitely I'm terrified of numbers.
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Because I feel like, just like I said,
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I'd rather be a Stanley Kubrick, right?
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You'd rather create great art,
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not to be pretentious,
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but the best possible thing you can create.
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Whatever the beauty that's,
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the capacity for creating beauty that's in you,
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I would like to maximize that.
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And I feel like for some people like Mr. Beast,
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I think those are perfectly aligned.
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Because he just loves the most epic thing possible,
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but not for everybody.
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I think there's a lot of people
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for whom that's not perfectly aligned.
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And so I'm definitely one of those.
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And I'm still really confused
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why anybody listens to this anyway.
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But that's also something I guess you're trying to find,
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trying to figure out.
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I get very afraid of ever becoming someone
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who just makes junk food content,
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where you can't stop while you're in the moment,
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and it has all of your attention,
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but when you're done,
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it didn't really bring any value to your life,
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which is something that I think the algorithm
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still does really reward.
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And making sure that as we are learning
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how to create better content,
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it's still something that is gonna be meaningful long term.
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Well, ultimately, you inspire a lot of young people.
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Yeah, those are the best.
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When I get messages from people who are like,
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I played you a year ago, and my rating was 1400,
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I'd like to challenge you again.
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It's a 14 year old writing a former email.
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Those things are always very, very fun to get.
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And even just outside of chess,
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it's just empowering to see,
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like for young women too, to see that kind of thing.
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I mean, you guys are being yourself,
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and making money for being yourself,
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and having fun, and growing as human beings,
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which I think is really inspiring for people to see.
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So in that sense, it's really rewarding.
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And then the way I think about it is
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there is some benefit of doing entertaining type of stuff
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so that you get the,
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kind of like Mr. Beast does with philanthropy, right?
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The bigger Mr. Beast becomes,
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the more effective he is at actually doing
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positive impact on the world.
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So those things are tied together.
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But of course, with podcasts, you guys,
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well, maybe you have these kinds of tense things,
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but what kind of ideas, what kind of people do platform?
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What kind of person,
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what kind of human being do you wanna be?
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Because you are actually becoming a person,
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and a set of ideas in front of the public eye,
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and you have to ask yourself that question really hard,
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like really seriously.
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Because if you're doing stuff in private,
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you have the complete luxury to try shit out.
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I think you have less of a luxury to try shit out
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because the internet can be vicious in punishing you
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for trying shit out.
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And do you think that's sometimes a bad thing
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where you have less freedom to make mistakes?
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Yeah, you have two choices.
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So one, you put up a wall
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and say I don't give a shit what people think.
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I don't like doing that
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because I like being fragile to the world,
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keeping my, sort of wearing my heart on my sleeve.
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Or the other one, yeah, you have to be,
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you have to actually think through what you're gonna say.
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You have to think of like, what do I believe?
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You have to be more serious about what you put out there.
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It's annoying, but it's also actually,
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you should have always been doing that.
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You should be deliberate with your actions and your words.
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But I don't know, it's,
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but some of it, it's such a balance
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because some of my favorite people are brilliant people
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that allow themselves to act ridiculous and be silly.
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Elon Musk, who's become a good friend,
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is the silliest human of all.
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I mean, he's incredibly brilliant and productive and so on,
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but allows themselves to be silly.
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And that's also inspiring to people.
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Like you don't have to be perfect.
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You don't have to, you can be a weird, a giant weird mess.
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So it's a balance.
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I think when you start to delve into political topics,
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into topics that really get tense for people,
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then you have to be a little bit more careful and deliberate.
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But it's also wise to stay the hell away
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from those topics in general.
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Like I mentioned to you offline,
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somebody I've been debating whether I want to talk to
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or not is Karjakin on the chess board
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because chess is just a game,
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but throughout the history of the 20th century,
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it was played between the Russians and the Americans
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and so on where they were at war, cold or hot war.
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And those are interesting.
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Those are interesting conversations to be had
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at the Olympics and so on.
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It's not just a game.
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It's like a mini war.
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And so I have to decide whether I want to talk to him or not
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and those kinds of things.
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You have to make those kinds of decisions.
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For now, you guys are not playing chess
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with Donald Trump or Obama or so on.
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We are not right now, no.
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How long is a stream?
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Like a few hours, right?
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Now they're two to three hours.
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When I was first streaming,
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I'd stream for like six hours a day.
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Yeah, for like six to seven days a week.
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Are you doing just like a talking one?
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No, I'd be playing chess the entire time while talking.
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And when I started streaming,
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that's kind of how everybody blows up on Twitch.
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You're just putting in crazy hours and you're always there.
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It's not about making the best content.
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It's about letting people feel
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like they're hanging out with you
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and just being on as much as you can.
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But I ended up feeling very burnt out
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because it's hard to be your best self
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when you're in front of a camera for that long
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because you do get scared of going into places
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where you want to learn, but you might not be the best in.
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Because it's harder to learn in public
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than do something that like,
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yeah, we're better than 99% of our viewers at chess.
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So that's a lot less scary than trying to play a game
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that you're bad at or discuss topics
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that you're interested in.
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Yeah, have the beginner's mind and be dumb at something.
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Yeah, which is where the fun is
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and you get to learn together,
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but people punish you for it on the internet.
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What about you, Andrea?
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Yeah, I think like Alex said at the beginning,
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when we were grinding a lot,
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you don't really even have time for much of a private life
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because you're streaming every hour of your life
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and people want it, like the appeal of streamers,
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it's called like being parasocial
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where you feel like they're your friend
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and they like it because they want you
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to share everything about your life.
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Really the main challenge for me at first
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when trying to prioritize quantity over quality,
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which we're not doing anymore,
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was realizing that I can't turn everything I'm interested in
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and every passion into content.
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Before I'm like, well, I must stream more,
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but I like music and I like playing piano
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and I like reading into these topics and I like fitness
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and then I try to live stream all of it
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and that's just, at some point it's like,
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just enjoy your time off for those hobbies
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and prioritize what you're good at
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because that's just gonna be better for the channel overall.
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So that was a learning lesson for sure.
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It's nice because there are some intersections
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when I have tried new things that I really enjoy
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and it pays off, but that's less often.
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So it's more like you can be yourself,
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but only specific parts of yourself online
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and the rest, sometimes it's nice to just keep private
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and feel that you could just give it your 100% freedom.
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See, I feel like I try to be the exact same person
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on podcasts as in private life.
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I really don't like hiding anything.
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But you're also a generalist, right?
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Where you have people with all topics.
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For us, we built our audience off a very specific thing
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so people sometimes feel like,
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even at the start when we started playing less chess,
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they're like, I subbed for chess.
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Why are you not playing chess?
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People are tuning in for an interesting conversation
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on a bunch of topics.
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So like the more you are yourself, the better it is,
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but it is very hard when you build your brand
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on like one type of gaming content.
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But yeah, the way you become a generalist
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is you slowly expand.
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It's like expand to checkers.
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I guess that's like a downward.
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Poker, yeah, exactly, poker.
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But also just the ideas, the space of ideas.
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And one of the cool things about chess
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is when you're talking over the chess board,
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you're, it's a kind of podcast, you know?
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That is actually an idea we've had with playing chess
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while also doing a podcast and talking with people.
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It's kind of like an icebreaker.
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We're also focusing on the game at the same time.
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But you know, we are slowly evolving
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and we're doing more things.
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Like one thing we wanted to do is spend less time
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in front of the computer.
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So now we're doing a chess travel show
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where we go to different countries
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and look at the chess culture.
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So it actually feels like we're doing things
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that we would want to do and explore anyway.
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And maybe it's not as much in the idea space,
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which we both enjoy and do a lot in our own free time,
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but in the sharing cool experiences with our audience
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that we actually want to do.
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Where do you look forward to going?
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We're going to Romania on September 9th.
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And I think this is the most exciting for me
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because we're going back to, you know,
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the country where our entire family's from,
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where our grandmother taught our dad
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who taught us how to play chess.
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It has a very strong chess culture.
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So it'll be very unique to go back and see
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how everything is when we haven't been back
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for a very long time.
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And for Romanians, like it's very rare
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when there's like a famous Romanian
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who accomplishes something,
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which is why like right now,
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Andrew Tate's the most famous Romanian.
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But he's banned for a bad reason.
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And there's like something very special
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about Romanian pride.
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And when we meet fellow Romanians in the US,
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like it's just an amazing connection.
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And like, I hear the way my dad talk about like,
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for example, Nadia, who was a famous Romanian gymnast
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and he's like, yeah, like Romania,
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we sucked at everything.
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But when she won the Olympics for gymnast,
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every kid on the street was doing gymnastics
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because it's very rare that they make it
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to that level of success.
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And I'm not saying that we're super successful,
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super famous, but it is really cool
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to meet other Romanians through chess
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because it's a very special bond.
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Yeah, you feel like it's a community and like you belong.
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Yeah, you can't get that anywhere else.
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Let me ask your opinion since you mentioned him,
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Andrew Tate, you're both women, successful women,
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you're both creators.
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So Andrew Tate is an example of somebody
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that has become exceptionally successful
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at galvanizing public attention,
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but he's also, from many perspective, a misogynist.
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So let me ask a personal question.
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Do you think I should talk to him on this podcast?
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How would you feel as a fan as somebody,
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I'm talking to the great Alex and Andrea Botez
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and the next episode is with Andrew Tate?
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I think it's a double edged sword
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and most of these things are not as black and white
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as they seem, you know,
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because on one hand, I don't agree with his beliefs
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and I think he said a lot of things that are very hurtful
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and that influence people's opinions.
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At the same time, talking to someone through that
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and trying to get to the root of it
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and how much of it he used just as a social media tactic
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to maybe change the opinion of people
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who have been so influenced by him towards
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something that is maybe more understanding towards women
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or things like that could do some good,
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but at the same time, platforming someone like that
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and giving them more attention also signals to other people
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who have a platform that it's okay,
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so it's kind of weighing the pluses and the minuses
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and it's a very tough decision because it's not clear.